Saturday, July 29, 2006

A Prakash Kona Book

Pearls Of An Unstrung Necklace
by Prakash Kona
2005
160 pages
Fugue State Press
ISBN 1-879193-14-0

As I was anticipating Prakash Kona's Book Pearls Of An Unstrung Necklace I somehow envisioned a collection of straightforward short stories about India, not that the other book i'd read by him Streets Smell of Dying Roses was anywhere near straightforward I foolishly thought that Book would be a straightforward novel, contrary to what i had believed ... due to the little i knew of his work and what i had read... Both of His Collections which Fugue State Press has published are decidely unique -abstractly vibrant pieces of fiction, This Book Pearls Of An Unstrung Necklace is a number of prose poems dealing with loss and love and Always transformation, one finds his writing always transforming The Narrator(Kona?) becoming something else -- his sexuality and philosophy transforming --Though it's rather obvious what the book is about -- I think Kona's uniqueness lies in his approach -there are few Modern Prose Poems Written So Directly to The Point yet still remaining rather flowery To Say the least -One of the difficulties of the book is that in some of the poems he exactly describes scenes from films by Akira Kurosawa and Kenji Mizuguchi when he does this it's never fortunately to drop names or attempt to impress us with his knowledge of their work it is cleary to Communicate That at the point of his penstroke he feels the revelance in how the work of said filmmakers relates to his Own Life Plight and writing, Kona's writing is highly film inspired in fact many scenes of the book i recognized from certain films - i've seen ones by Sayijit Ray and filmmakers already named But it would be a copout i feel just to say That Kona's work is similar to Sayijit Ray's Of course what other Indian Avant Garde artist Can one immediately think of But if Kona's work holds a place some where ... He's More So remains entirely off the map of Author Bruno Schultz(street of the crocodlies) in his depiction of memory and fantasy combined -that said Pearls Of An Unstrung Necklace is a strong poetic work somewhere in between despairity and romanticism.. aren't i saying they mean the samething then?

A short story

The Propagandist
The Certain Sense he had of himself walking in the rain there was just no sense of that anymore And he Could feel her near him He always Thought and when she was he even then Couldn’t Miss the first bits of Wheeling and Sometimes you’ll find that Repression was not the hardest one to Let Go of And Oh I’ll know that it’s over and So Much of what you’ve Shared. You Were Sitting in that one Chair Somewhere –When You Were Holding Your Face and Someone Came Home to them And No it will never Do … and they Would never make Them The Ones Who Were the Hounds Now the Ones Who hounded us over our Repression and the ones who Made it easy too and I can’t stay on you to find some things out and Then They Will always make their Wish to me The One where everything Stays The Same As Jessica Everything Changes but nothing Seemed to Change With her at One Point I Remembered?

They’ll never ever Hold You And then you kiss me though and Then Some kind of Whisper Oh Look It’s Wheeling and we’re On National Road and Then We just want to be together and Then We Just want the swamp There to have some kind of Degradation for Us And I never said A Word I swear it and I never said A Word and I have come to your place and I have almost starting Crying Myself Now and I’m So glad She was Sitting in the Chair as I looked over and she was holding her Face and You’ll say you want me Just the way That You want me And Then you’ll kiss me and you’ll answer me he said He Said All of those things in his Sleep as he was thinking of her and he was the one person there Who She wanted to be through with and They all came together too And I am the only person Who Makes Them Seem as if they’re never going to Comprehend the life they Live.
Crossing the street now there’s someone sitting down near a Cop and the street Light, I just remembered When it changed to WALK and Everything in my Life was making me so afraid of Going on and don’t tell me that you don’t need my Love and I couldn’t Give it away Though and please tell me that it’s not true and then don’t make me leave you and I can’t leave you He said and I only Would have thoroughly Thought things were complete if you’d left me this is what I get for Leaving you and we’ll always be together now I know that I’m sure of it and I Can Hear a Lot of Talk though about how I will hurt you but I am sure that I won’t hurt you why is everyone So Sure that I will hurt you? Is this what I can only Love You for and here is the time Where there is no Night Left and there is just that simple Screaming Coming Down the Hall it was coming From Jessica’s Room I could hear it all the time and I always heard lights spinning too and kicking out and there may be A Hard time to Be had with some things and there may be a certain person who wants to keep them one way and someone Else Who Wants to Keep them another way, And You’ll never know me in the Land I Know Now—She Just always Sits at the end of the bed and they have this quiet place to Go and Bye the end of the Stoop She was About to get up.. You Crossed a Rainbow Near a Place where She’ll be and you’ll be back with her again and I only waited for that day You’ll always take me bye the Hand And I Only Could make you understand I don’t think that I ever could have made Jessica Understand her Eyes Were Beautiful The Devil was somehow there and We Could share the happiness we closed into And then We could have heard everyone Roar the whole crowd and we’d See our wonderland Underneath… Just Like I Put my face bye the vents in Wheeling and you know that I Only Wait For the day where you take me away to there the Whole day where you take me away to there and what am I supposed to do Once you’ve taken me away to there and the Whole entirety of Me Stains my hands and face and I have really no hope of escaping from there. “I Wish You Would cooperate.” He said to Me … And he hoped I would lay there Still…. And He Only hoped to Harm me and Oh Please Oh Please They’re all broken hearted as they move up the street in Wheeling and they pretend to be someone Who they totally Aren’t as long as they Pretend to BE this Person they’ll never be any hope in their Life and do you know what you did today and I can Only think you made some mistakes, Aside The Road … National Road in Wheeling and The Blue has been taken out of the sky and Then you’re all Saying goodbye to me in Wheeling How Do you expect me to Feel About this Place which is Wheeling and I wish The Sun never shined down on me Again here and I am here up inside some kind of Hell of a Hole in the wall and Maybe the Rain Wouldn’t come down now as hard as it does in Wheeling it always rains hard and maybe I don’t mind and every day is the day That Came before and every day We all Lived and we all Died and We Moved For Miles Around the Small parts of the Town in Wheeling All of the dreams we Dreamt They Seemed to Be Lost, And they Seem to Tell us to not do what we believe in and not be nihilists as We Want to BE and you can only see the sunshine and I wish you’d never left me and I wish you’d only ever stayed with me I heard someone Say I didn’t agree with that Since I Just wanted to go on with my Life and I know there wouldn’t be flowers with Water Coming in and making them Live… Oh God She said As Her Pussy became Hot and her Pussy Ached on The Inside –It Had too In Order to Receive The Cock.
So you’re going to kill The clock You Might as well… kill everything under the sun as well and I can’t have you I can’t Have anything at all and I believe in the sun shining down and I believe in the Cold Winter as well and I can only hope you’ll help me make my way out of a certain kind of pain in Wheeling Obviously the pain which is obviously there and you’re in so much of it .. he said .. he could feel that he was in so much of the pain That Happened all the time there That was the pain that made him the person who he was that Same pain changed his life and kept him down for a long time as well how was he about to change this? If you’re carrying nothing then it shouldn’t weigh You down they said to me?…And you are just carrying not a thing… I wasn’t carrying too much of anything I recall that I clutched another ball and I had bolts shot out of the eyes of hawks and some of these people I guess that they Don’t like us…. They didn’t like me or my father either and I can’t let them beat me I used to think And I Only knew the seconds of the clock and how they were going to Stop and start again He Only heard From her.. a few more times, Just that one Christmas Where They Saw a Mass of men flying out of a window That mass of men or that massive Truck …. Somehow When he awoke near a flight of steps and His Cock was in her Mouth, another time where The Doorhandles were Removed and he used to think that no One has the right to do this to me Who do they think they are to have the right to take away everything which I’m in to And I am the same as you were When you were Burning and no one Thinks there is any way in here and no one Can hear Them now –A Roomful of Steps and no one Listens to that Either and all of the People who Need Cash and who need a break and Another Word says that he needs a Lie and I can only say It’s just one kind of try. The Old Home Now up the lane Near Lansing it’s just something day to day and I wondered if life is worth Living and I can hear myself screaming Sometimes… But that was before I knew there was nothing but pain and I am sure that every Fire is burning and I wondered if life itself Came screaming in.
“Are You Jessica?”
“Yes.” She Replied
She Stood near the chairs and bye the counter and her hair was dyed bright blonde With clearly dark roots and You could see her smile from near the counter She Seemed happy to be here And She asked me something Directly I can remember that as well. Her face was sweeping this time as sweeping as Anyone’s Who’s died then come back to life and knows There are No Direct Ways to Freedom He Only said .. that didn’t .. he “are You Jessica?”
There were some words on a screen now coming along

Goruphaugh
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Tatsumi
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Goropah

He Remembered speaking all of them into two microphones which were close together and the two times which he brandished some type of weaponry as well He Only came close to the Wheeling downs as he was carrying two types of Rifles in his hands –HE Just started out angry and even became angrier How did it all come to this how did all of this seem this way… he wondered How does everything Considered Become me left all alone In Wheeling Definitely not the same person on that Bus That night she was standing across from Me Who’s the next person and Who’s the next too And they All Seem Extremely Funny And they All feel Like You’re laughing at them and we’re living for Right Moment Out on the end of my street where I struggled to catch the right bus to get on it And It Turned down A Wrong Street Where there Was Construction as well And At the end of that Street Turned onto the main street Moving downtown now Having to catch another Bus though one that Goes Downtown and one That Took me across The Water too –There Must have been some men who walked bye One without Arms and another man Who was limping and carrying a six pack and The one who was limping looked at me in a strange way and Then There Were some People Screaming out Arguing about something I ignored them and I had a little bit of hesitation in me –Far Away From Calls the next morning Far away from everything. One other voice remembered there was a call back there will never be a call back he recalled the last time I recalled there will be a call back too also And he Only remembered Jessica There Near the bus when the door opened The Snow Cap also The Winter and the snow Falling barely He recalled that as well and he recalled all of them speaking up with two microphones and The Larger of Two Came Closer and Then in Wheeling Definitely and Here They were at the end of my Street and I was there the next morning with me calling and a little bit of hesitation and I was far away from the voice inside of me I was Worth Being the person they thought I was and the fading people all of them He Could remember and the leaves along the street too Crushed Against the sidewalk the pavement in Wheeling and a Voice he Could just Barely Make out Oh I guess it was somewhere else now somewhere else Where you Left something and you thought that it would be different but he knew outside of that drag that he would have to Die He Knew he would have to die outside of there and she whispered Sadly And Held him again in the darkness and the world was coming from an unknown height Now everything had changed she was part of someone else’s life she was no longer inside of him as she’d been before They Were All wrapped around one piece of him that Piece He Must have pretended to himself was some kind of true love if not What about that piece of Confusion that he put inside of himself and how can you draw everything out and the world now Beneath him which was made of Glass and he heard that They All Said Go Away… But he didn’t want them to ignore him he needed them to hear who he was and To Help Him Come Through and some of the people there were ready to through everything Aside and There were So many people Were fucking idiots but that was made clear a long time ago it wasn’t something made clear When he needed it to be And he Only Thought of it As he was angered bye something else Whatever that was must have angered him now it angered him as he recalled Jessica too and he felt as if he’d lost So Much bye the next Time And another Girl Walking down the street who they noticed But they Only Do Things on their Own Terms HE didn’t Feel as if HE Had much left to say to people now A Long time had gone Bye And he Only waited now to have something to say to them. Wasn’t there something To Be said for how long they Stuck around as well and try to change me he said Just try to change me Yes there are some total Disasters too And Yes But Change me they Won’t He Guessed HE Knew that they Wouldn’t Some other people Came up In Their Cars Headlights Came On and Some people flashed symbols of Signs of Life So Many Crowns Wasting away and he only could say I need my old life back but what If there was no one at all and you got to learn to see how Life Takes you from one thing to the next and You only wanted Life to be this way and You wanted it to Come to You here And Yes Only on to Life and you wanted to be there and Some one Held on to me in the darkness and yes there was some kind of true love Which Binds us and wants us to be here is that the one Which Will hold us through the darkness I almost didn’t recognize You I said To her…. She said … She was a Little bit stoned and she thought she’d be late she was stoned coming down to the bus stop coming down The Hill and so Many Of The Words I’d heard in my head before Were Drowned Out of This Maze of Steps Some of you stood on the bottom of them waiting for something good to happen waiting For someone to Come through and Oh We All know who That is believe me We know who that is and we only Were the biggest fucking idiots as we fucked everything up but we tried to keep it all a certain way and I could see the headlights coming On again They were Pointed up to the old house in West Virginia and all the years and he said he felt really badly and he never felt happy and I can never see that you’re going to Change me but are you going to try to change me he wondered yes I am going to try to change you I am just happy though now Far away from it all And far away from the fear that I faced and she said No you’re not happy you just think you are Yes I am I mean it I said I think that I really am happy at this point. All of the lies They told me at this point just seem like they were something Which I dreamt I can’t recall them clearly They were all pointers to hold me back from doing something I really believed in I Guess I can overcome them now or I guess I have unknowingly overcome them They’re still inside me These ways which I feel as if I Failed or Performed inadequately And Yes I Feel Her From up above me at an unknown height from some Distance She’s coming in and she’s wrapped in furs and what she has She’ll never remember to hand over to me I can Remember That We Walked in one place and then we walked into another and then we were all walking around Looking hard As if we were angry for one another Some Part of This Made Us angry for one another and there Were Just holes Coming through the line the wall That you Came Down here Yes I heard that it’s all threats though and I know they’re all empty and I think that it’s all Talk though I always did Yes Oh Then come down here And Free me up from who You think I used to be and I think that they’re walking around Looking hard and as if we were angry there Was just some of the holes that were Still there Inside of the Room ways to enter and ways to be cut off from things as well We’re not sure which of these you choose we never be sure which of these that you choose how will you know anyhow. Oh Then they’ll live the hell out of their lives but not if I have anything to do with it … he said… not if I can stop them from hurting their selves He once said over and over again—now walking past streets as faye Was walking bye too and will always be on top of them and we’ll always have some kind of issues with One Another, The Whole Entire Gymnasium is next to the bedroom window and you can hear everything and you can make sure that no one else hears a sound and you can make sure that some people really do some things which they don’t like with their lives because you know that is so much your business and we’re going to ruin you he always says we’re going to make sure you feel pain what kind of pain will you make sure that I feel as it drops from your hand you’ll understand the drops Which come out of your hand and The best time of the hour where he’s coming down and you knew another old friend of mine that must have been how we met the first time you must have known who they were the time we take and what are we saying to each other and Hey What about the breakdown In Wheeling when it came it came hard and it was difficult a long time ago and there were patterns of broken glass and you are the one who’s going to hurt you. Those are exactly the ones that hurt you and you’re going to fall and have them breakdown and they’re going to fall and let you hurt someone else as well and you will feel them squished in two and then they’ll lose their happiness and can they all have some satisfaction and You see the room though they are not sure and hey come on and Feel them come on Empty and before you fall you’re really going to hurt someone as well and you hide the facts and then you hide the little deal as well and I have to see someone Less and Less Now she’s sitting across from me at the table and she’s holding the glass And smiling and I Can’t believe How beautiful she is … I am amazed bye all of that…. Made me Think of Glass Of three Houses and people jumping through their Windows and All of us having some kind of breakdown And me smiling back at her as well and Then The Time We spent coming through the Edge of Things and maybe then you should think about What was said They Sure feel Pain yes they Do … they sure do hey there’s nothing else here that I can possibly Change for you and there’s no details either and I am not able to change you I am unable to change you—You can’t change me either I don’t think; In all of the dreams which I would have about the staircases she would always be there she would always be calling on me And I would always be coming to her and I would always think of her But another time thrown into a tree near Wheeling near the swirling grass and the breakdown and the depression and the broken glass and some of them are afraid and the satisfaction and the emptiness and the blooming too And he Once Saw her Breasts Form Together Underneath her blouse and she smiled back at him; There’s just water now high up in a jar and I hear them all calling out my name they say it and repeat it over and over and there’s nothing I can do if they’re repeating my name so many times you would think that one of them would at least have to get it right but I am not sure it’s never clear and it never make too much sense either and I am not sure who the first person was who called it and I am sure though that there are some bad things in Wheeling down bye the water and the lights Which never come on During the storms as they’re supposed to They never come on during the storms and we come together there’s nothing to discuss and the patterns with the Colors on her blouse and the day made us feel as if we were all losers and not so many times did we have things as difficult and we’re not going to leave a stranger and I never make too much sense either and I am not sure if I am the first person to say all of this but I can be sure that I am not the least. They all did the same thing but they assumed that they were in the right for doing it and the thing I remember most to be hurtful about Wheeling was of course no one having my back in a bad time in my time of need and in that precious beauty where everything was broken and the first person to call me in but through another town where everything was precious I am not sure that I know what all of that means The sense he had during the storms that was still there and the times How Many Times He wondered also –Just Amber Reed on his back her putting him down explaining to him rather harshly how he’d fucked everything up this time and how he’d made a wrong decision in his life and he could hear things burning through and I could just feel those colors on me and during the time there’s nothing to discuss now Amber Reed Says you did it incorrectly that’s not surprising since she rarely feels that she falls in the wrong and since you’ve surprised us all We’ve all taken a little trip which involves the men and the storms and the tides and The action you let begin again The real things which you remember They’re never coming on and I am not sure in the least what was happening I am just certain that I will never be in wheeling again and I will never hear Amber Reed screaming at me But what if she was and I remember all of that I think because I remember that everyone Took her side but I think they were wrong I think they were all wrong and I think she was wrong as well and I think the pain inside of me dried me to the bones Now He used to feel that same pain as well and he just hoped that he was taking a chance but I guess that it turned out that he wasn’t I was tired of their sarcastic abuse and you know that I could have you For This and plus just the ones who left me in front of the building All of the Ones in Wheeling all of the abusers I wonder what they found out about life and I wonder what they found out about How it all got returned and sooner or later it all has to Fall On Them especially this time and I was the first person to let them fall now I remember them bringing that same fear in here and can we pretend in nothing at all Greenness to one side of me the whole river too and the whole entire way that you’re holding onto that river and no one knows the shape of all of these disasters and the time you have together is just a sin he said and the whole time they spent speeding around and around and moving about he always calls us back in wheeling to see if we’re through with one another and what kind of failure we’ve committed he always tells us that our lives are Short and that pain lives therein wheeling. I don’t feel like I can always break up with the fire and the shorts in wheeling You know what we rented and there’s a real no Show and the One time you fucked everything up and that surprising since of realism do We really need Andy Reed to make us all feel bad he’s really caused us pain he’s really made us all feel pain and the Time of His Life where he’s cutting into us and the person he became just turns on to being this violent person and that person just really hates us and thinks that we’re bad and only wants to cause us pain that other pain around where you were and I know that she remembers it all and I have committed a pain that will always live with you and I can’t believe it no I don’t want to believe it And tipping her hat to me barely just touching me now I feel better though bye just barely being touched I was once made to feel alive and I was once the one you live in this land with how do you really feel about all of this and how much of it makes you into something which you’re not and how do you feel when they all crush down so hard and then just barely they hardly made you see what they thought you did wrong obviously all they can really do is point their fingers at you and theirs no show of hands for today it’s all easy the rope and the edge of the cliff the time where you dangled in the roomful of those once distant miseries the Wheeling miseries the Wheeling cliffs and the Wheeling Fog and the ones who once swore as they had fallen down into something that you’d help them with it and that you’d always be the one to pretend to help people even in Wheeling where there was no Kind of Sense of helping people even through the tall trees. Even the tall trees on the really bad days they all scream of Wheeling through the clear line of what everything else seems to be even based on one understanding where it all comes down to a word and you feel as they all destroyed you it would be one hell of a false thing to have come down on you and there are people who are ahead of you and the sky reminisces of what it says and the sky you could only tell the truth through and the time was out of her eyes and the reminder of the time you had you just feel sorrow and you only feel the real show of hands and the really bad days where you kind of sense a Feeling where you sang along and the time you had before this one well wasn’t that later than it seemed and who are you to curse and know what you didn’t say and what came to make you think how much you feel about anything on the edge of the cliff and I am the one who kind of senses that he’s telling people I always live with people and I can’t believe how much doubt I have and I want to believe the sense of tipping them off and I am the one with just that sense of believing but it’s hard in Wheeling for the sky to fall and for the sun to set and then throwing everyone who was there onto the backburner and in a different sense of throwing them all onto the back burner and then the men come through the trees and I saw the whole roomful of them dangling down their feet were there right in front of me and I could feel it all come down around me they Destroyed me and they all came in with the word and The time you were telling all of the people and the Edge They took off from some real sense of Time and the fragments where you helped fit hope into one kind of nutshell and the Time where you made it all a curse and I am the waiting for the sky about to fall on me I could only see some kind of progress and the shell too and the one who was the happiest and the time where you were understanding and I came to think of how many people I need to believe in The Time where Wheeling was falling and I can’t believe how much Wheeling was calling on me and the backburner and the time in the flame and the Room where it was strange to meet Jessica the first time Or What I thought was the first time yet I had met her so many times before that and if no one is getting along and you can reel the ones in who broke so much along the line and the time where people put the edge in and I could feel them all come down and I could feel them all telling people what they were sick of some kind of sarcasm and some kind of blank stares from across the room I just felt anger and in time I feel more anger towards them I just got unhappy and is there a place where I really was unhappy there are not too many places where I ever really felt happy can you read my mind he said Can you see how unhappy I feel and I can feel the thread of it all coming down on me Here in Wheeling I don’t hide it to Well I Only ever hid from the fact that at one point I knew Jessica and I wondered afterwards what had become of her –it’s wrong you did the wrong thing and you did the wrong thing they told me that over and over but I guess now I don’t care what they think of me they think if I made the wrong decision then that I only saw them do it out of love and I am the room where the anger is held he said I am the room where it is all about to explode one long golden morning and I can feel it shining now making its way back to me and I heard them all say they lived in anger and they all lived in a roomful of pain too and then the stars will never fall and one of them must have come up with the anger Here in the Wind and the time won’t crash down on me and I must have come up and I was here on the way back to explain The golden morning and I can hold myself here and only feel anger and the world afterwards and I knew what had become of us and I know who beholds us and there must be someone who wants to kill us and you must rustle them all up now and you must show them that you’re not going to kill them just show them that you’re going to stay alive even without them and I know the new sky which is shining the earth making everything move up and the earth eating all of us in Wheeling and the whole wide world It was wide and Blinking at the time which you all barely lost in Wheeling and springtime is one time this is another and the light drips and tosses away and the world just comes to a halt afterwards and I knew that I was the one in the wrong and the Images on the heads of drums they were never feathered and you dealt early on with desolation and you came and pulled us all down into the dirt And the world and the Great Grave where I saw Jessica Spring time is one thing and the night time is another thing and you can never be here working on random things and if you are the one who can work on them then who is the one who can let them Go and I can See the world away from me Down The Hill In Wheeling and the people Here Who are So closed minded and who have never Seen anything Else in Life except this misery Which they happily accept They’ll happily accept the misery Which Life has granted them in Wheeling and the Misery of Life here just one part of life but not one part of anything else and how I came so far to get away from it all How I wanted to for everything to be alright just the people who made me miserable they all should have to feel as if they are in hell because I feel like I am after that encounter with them I felt that sometimes Then other times I felt another way as if I Wanted peace through all of that and that I didn’t want anything to be done.

Monday, July 24, 2006

Do I Want Bill For My Baby

More of the Terror Of Loch Ness.

Some Part of me Like My Sense of Humor ached to tell me that everything was alright but another part of me Told me that everything was wrong and that I couldn’t ever get out of the situation that I was in … That part of me Hurt me obviously And I was Falling away from everything away from Andy Reed and Amber Reed as well.. The house of dragons Burnt Down In Wheeling the house lit up the edge of the Room And the Room I referred too was the one in my Head and it Just seemed to be another exact part of that in Wheeling that I would have to go through and once you put that part of me in here There were no excuses as to what to do with it .. You only hurt that part of me in Wheeling the part of it that Seemed Liked Murder.
Again after the wharf burned Down I was there at Andy Reed’s House and I didn’t have anywhere to Go I Knew it was a new Place to be at and I still didn’t like to be there And he Was there too Which made it worse. “You Have to Clean all of this up now!” he said ..
And He Pushed me on to the Floor and What kind of abuse I remember him holding me down now too Just His Prick up my ass again… That kind of terror That Kind of pain the pain Which he bestowed on me you said he Understood I am not sure what he understood though he understood that I was in Pain and all of my plans He was going to change all of my plans to Do Much of anything … Yes I found out You’d some how get out of there alive if you tried and I am going to get even With Him If I Try now I once said I don’t say that So Much anymore I plan on getting even I Do.
Down Below now him trying to start his car up How he was trying to turn the engine over it seemed Like he was unhappy with what was going on .. Then… He was so unhappy with what was going on .. And he Couldn’t even Get Lost there.. and he was only alone in His Vision… “Shit The Damn Thing won’t Start.” He said .. Another one of his old broken down cars which he thought he was doing so much with He Only thought Of them That they’d get him from one place to the next at first he really thought that they’d get him there if he tried and he’s been gone So Long now… From me I was up on the porch watching him start the car And He Yelled up to me “Come Down Here .. get the fuck down here and help me Now!” He Commanded that So I went down and he was down there too And the likeness of him was forever represented bye some sticks bye some Bits of glass some chaos and some rubble. And he Only was holding us back another time I saw him throw amber reed across the room there was tons of psychological abuse which he Put Out on Us.
There were some new clouds opening up the sky Some New Clouds That For a Moment told us who We Were And they just weren’t Hurting us and they were just telling us Who we Were and all I do is lay myself down I try to rest but there’s no stopping Andy Reed and things have felt really Good lately and we’re upset with him and he’s done with us .. Too We Thought we thought andy reed was done with all of us but why would we think he was done with all of us?
And maybe we will think he’s done with all of us
But
The we won’t Be sure if he is.
Now could we really be sure in Wheeling if he were done with us and you could say he could tell you how to live and it wouldn’t be a good thing and he got up every morning and wrote Down the weather and the details of everything that he was doing as well and he wrote the weather along with them … With the details of everything Else That he did that day .. Somebodys about to Die and There are things he’ll let love himself through nothing though will be denied. I have Seen my dreams denied in Wheeling and no one wanted me at this point or time No one except for maybe Amber Reed is that where this all came from All of this Is this where I had this part of my life ruined and lost forever.. I felt that Way Once I recalled for years as I was held down now I don’t feel that Way.. What about the monster The one up in the Lake the one who was Andy Reed He is the monster The one up there for so long From So Much Longer and the one He only starved for it may take as long as you Want it to take and you may not See how it comes out in the end and the way the world comes out You Only Came to see this operation Which occurred and then the growth They’re All Spinning The same as balls of fire the growth in all of the stones The Growth the tremor the Coming of great eclipse and the great crystal ball and they Make Some Really money out there don’t They … isn’t that what he said .. Once again finally all of us parked in a car and all of us standing Bye and you were wasting no time and you weren’t telling a lie and I wanted you to leave me alone again bye the time which I was gone and the world can’t take anymore in to the Head and the whole entire experience happens again But what are we to Do with it. Things in the world are going to become the worst as they have ever been you know that and you kept the sense of knowing that you only Lost yourself There As Amber Lost herself and you heard her Running Down the line and you heard accepting herself And The Time of her life we’re she challenged All People and all things and She accepted The Same sense of Things she’ll get better from and She never though lost herself Though did she except for maybe that one time where her Father tied her up To a Tree and Made her Suck On his penis til he Spurted Cum In her Mouth. How was it when you tied her up there and she was stuck to that pole and then he was in the mainroom of his house afterwards smoking his pipe and he had time to share We had time to share his pipe was on his mind he had me Because he had my Body My Spirit Had been crushed somewhere along the way and the time he said it All They’d all settled out of court Hadn’t They The Other Boys that he and his brother had Picked up… Hey You got to stick around til the whole world gets here til it gets Here and you’ve got me Rocking Now haven’t you … You’ve only got me tonight now I am held down bye the way of the dinosaurs The Matter of time the matter of truth and the rest all matters also Just give me some love give me some love I have got to say.
Why hasn’t my head been heavy Why isn’t it heavy all of the time and you focus on so many dreams and I Have Felt andy reed as my lover And back in that other house he lived in Near Wheeling –when he moved over to Wheeling He Only Lived about 2 miles from my house With his girlfriend and step Kids I Remember Going over there and not liking him then.. I guess I liked him before that And I guess that he Grew on me at any rate I admittedly started liking him at some point I must have I remember That all so well if I hadn’t have started liking him at some point prior to When he Saved me from the wharf Fire Could I really have Let Him Put His Dick in my Ass? Would he really have raped me? Or would have I even have let him rape me .. I Am not sure if I would have let him rape me… I Know I did let him rape me I remember I mean I didn’t abject to being raped by him and I can never realize a man is not always what he seems For too many times now I have realized that You know it is one thing to be helped though when you’re down and out though bye someone And it makes you Respect them in a different sense He obviously Knew that sense he seemed to be a predator of Children. As a predator of Children I think you figure a Lot of things Out Especially of Vulnerable Young Men and women And you know that when you’re going to hurt them That They’re going to respond to that Since you made them trust you first And Then you’ll feel as if they’re pain makes you happy and You can Never Stand there and stand bye it as you’re hurting them and You Never Be The same As They Were Seeing them .. again we saw so many visions of people in wheeling and we saw so many visions of those who loved us and those who hated us too. I saw The Light coming from One end of the room now to face the other and the World was one trip in time And I was one Case of a Person apparently Killing themselves Since I Was So Enamoured of Andy Reed and was thinking all the time what a great guy he was too … I was the Guilty one just as well I fed in to his rape and his abuse I Must have been so desperate for someone and I must have needed some one so badly I recall I needed someone So Badly That I let him do all of that to me And he really hurt me So bad that He was on my Case all the time and he Was always hurting me and putting me down and he never needed me and he only put me down and I recalled that he Wanted to hurt me for eternity and see my Face and the cuts on my face and he also Let me Die the way I was and he was done with me as a person And I couldn’t even get my own life back together after that for The Longest time.
I prayed for the longest time and I heard myself down there understanding something other than what I had understood myself Before that I wondered if before that If Someone Somewhere else Knew that Pain I Think they did in one way and I think that they will always know that pain But I think also it’s a Pain that they can’t know because it affects everyone So Differently And I can never escape either. There Were some ladders set up and tears Were Running down my face as I heard The Music on there blaring and the world will put it’s arm around me and if you see me another day and You can just see Who I am … Now I see who I am .. now I see that I’ve hurt people too Maybe as bad as Andy Reed Hurt me But maybe not As Bad… Of Course There are Other people who are just as bad and I Don’t Like them Either and I know they’ve caused me Pain and I have their Arms Around me now too And Hands On My Throat As well And they are Using their Pain to cut into me I can tell that too..

Damn I heard them say and the sound got loud again also .. and I could hear them coming through the other side of the house “Where is he?” “We know he’s In here somewhere?” but Andy Reed made me hide away.. From Them… And he never would let me out or let anyone see me.. and he even gave me the hardest time about it all .. And He Locked me up a few times…
They Say the Wharf Burnt down and as it did some pictures were projected on the side of it
These images detail war Like you’ve not seen before the Likeness of War You’re getting wrong The loud sound of pain and War and the sound of war and you’re getting everything Wrong and we never knew since He’s our friend Since Andy Reed’s our friend..
And what is ahead of him there’s no way of knowing What he’ll put ahead of us and he’ll hold us down with whatever he puts in front of us Sometime later he puts the words in front of us And he tells us how we should behave and there is no one else in real time no one else in real time No One Knows Who I am And my feet were large I remember and they hurt also and they hurt quite Well From Andy Reed stepping on them all the time.. I get ahead of myself here and I think of the last time that I saw Amber Reed at a train station in Pittsburgh Pennsylvania and I think of how our relationship had fallen apart and how it was time to Stop the pain I felt and to make it go away And Then I am never going to get even with her Father But do I really want too… Under the stairs of the house where he came in I hid There and I heard them all screaming and I Could see the likeness of them before And I heard them scream in trouble and I heard them all screaming from underneath the steps The Ones Andy reed Locked in the Basement The Bodies of boys he dripped he waxed on with a hot candle and then he had that burn into their Skin and he didn’t know what to do If He Was Wrong and I was there and I stayed too long and I stayed there so long and I was there with the wreck of myself in this cage and you move me yes you do …. The World Moves Me Andy Reed Destroys Me But at least Amber Reed Moves me .. And I need to Know what I will do In this rage and this Cage With this violence and this Heat I feel amounting to little and I will be the one who they are in fear from And I will be the one I danced around With You were just The one person Who I felt fear from And I was the one Person too .. and you only felt the fear that I felt And the world moved him—Some Images Now Of Devastation of the world and of God and of Madness and Then the wreck of the world that he felt and he just felt it and he would just know and there were only a few of us playing songs again singing again Now We’re all up in Andy Reed’s house singing Someone Throws up in the toilet and Andy Reed Is yelling at them and he is the one who hides them all away and he is the one who holds us all down and you’re the one who will see him if he’s in the worst pain you’ve felt and you are the one Too. It’s good to know who you were In the world whether you were the person andy reed enslaved or the person He set Loose and he Even then Shot his own cum up on some things and the world would scream he would lose his mind and he would never be excused from it either and there was just a place in his mind where he was there reminiscing Of the time when he Held us Captive and You Should all come down and the boys on their bikes they were pushed away bye andy reed they were all chased away he held them all down And he made it seem like it was just a time where he was in control of everything and then they’d better run they’d better run and they’d better choose their battles and they’d better escape on some rolling hills too To get out of where he was and to get out of Wheeling as well Also there’s that one little place where I made love to Amber Reed the first time and I am not Sure how I ever escaped From That and I am sure that no one Ever Knew I would escape From Give Andy Reed something wet and warm to put his dick In I Know let’s make sure it was our asses and Let’s make it so It burns every time and We’ll pretend a few times that he was a Friend of ours and you are only afraid a few times and You know that he couldn’t live without his daughter’s vagina and without my asshole.
I know where you keep the sunshine and where you go to—to see if andy reed will ever come around if he’ll ever end up liking you and treat you any better than he treats you know but at this point he never treats you any better he just treats you like his dog and he stands you up and he waits for heaven and he waits for you to hold out through the darkness and once you give him the go ahead then he will rape you even if you don’t give that to him.. There were some more of them wailing down in the basement their sounds were coming up through the stairs and you can never clean up andy reed’s mistakes even if you try and you know the reason he keeps them locked up he does that so no one will know there’s not much anyone needs to know in wheeling no one needs to know that you can punch right through walls if you want to with no help from andy reed no help from amber reed either and you sit here with one thing and you see if we’re going to see right through you do you think we’ll see right through you is this the end of everything and the end of the dark and the sunrise Where A Thousand People took shots at andy reed and for a long time he didn’t get any kind of vagina at all HE only Needed his daughters though Come on Down from here And you will see the place of pain and revenge where he planned to kill him Or All of them Planned to Kill him they hid Out Near the darkness in Wheeling Where they Were Crouched in the stairwell and he was on their case and he wanted them to get free and he knew there was only a short chance of them Getting free they wanted to cut andy reed’s head off and put it on a tray and they wanted to give him the worse Pain Possible Even worse than The Pain he’d given them and don’t say a word even if it’s Possible and you can only keep me as the one in a chance Situation and the one who you will Imprison.
The king of everything the king of one thing less
Andy
Reed is the King of Both
As
He wets in the world where his pants are things that he kept clean and you know you can only keep it true if it’s proof of something you’ll never know existed and you’ll never Need Proof of that and I would show it to All the people who I thought were my friends and they were the ones who you claimed that you ruined and you claimed that you ruined the lives of my friends and of everyone up in my head you ruined everyone’s life and you ran your hands over my Face and you’re the world and it is so nice and you are the only one who will work something out with me. You are the king and andy reed is the king Some of the boys parked there and it is not just a prank they have made it clear that they are going to kill him and they have ran around with knifes held up to his neck and that they need to see him gone and that they never need to see him live they’ve made it clear that they Need to have the death of andy reed on their hands and that they will do anything to make it possible.









The First Picture Set In Motion –
(1)Amber
(2) Reeds
(3) Dads
(4) And
(5) Moms
(6) Fluid
__OR All of us set In Motion By and Skinned alive bye Andy Reed On no particular Day of the Week__

“There Was Once an Image Of a Great House, A Home In the Distance However and it’s faded The Dam Near the distant home is the One Which Andy Reed Used to Keep from letting Water In On Me And yes Not a mistake or anything Else That I’ve made and you’re just the same as andy Reed as he walks with me and I Talk about the images of Destruction I think in that one picture we’re down bye a lake and I knew that we were in trouble and I knew it Some people saw us coming from over on the street over bye the dock we were over bye the water and when I first held you I Knew the world Was On Par For andy reed and the only time set in motion was the distance Set in motion again and why should Andy Reed have to pay for anything that he did .. Amber Probably thought since neither of us Tried to stop him Since neither of us did Then why is what he did so bad and since he saw us there and since he stood bye as we were beaten is what he did so bad after all?”

The monster now in his most abstract form With the three humps on his back and his long neck and then What’s below that Which we never see We don’t really ever know what he looks like and we never will Photographs Here And there Just the same as calling Amber Reed and Saying PLEASE SAVE MY LIFE!!
She’ll
Wonder why you’ve asked that Of her
And she’ll never be understanding and you in your most abstract form and the nights you spent inside of yourself and maybe then something could change your whole life as the one who embraced andy reed and the one who let him get away and how big of a hole do you have to dig before you can willing throw yourself in it. Obviously all of andy reed’s stroking got him somewhere and he must have turned the other cheek as well and how big did he have to be to save the world’s only remote of soul and you can put it all in check as well if you think you can save all that he is .. now do you think that you can do that in this pile of rubble that you set in motion.

I got to get away from it now and I turned my back on the rubble coming out of there and you think of me until the day I die and the day that I turn back into some person and you’ll be happier Without me.

“Yes!”
He Said
“This Is Dad!”
“Amber Reed’s Dad?”
“Yes it’s me!”
She wondered how she could come in on him and find out that he was the man just lingering around and the man who was the one who was made to stop her and HE was only there in the remote region of his soul and I haven’t had time to be that person and the One person will sure get you down And I am Amber Reed’s Dad.. You couldn’t be him I heard he was dead and I heard he caused the wrong people a lot of pain and I sat here and I thought of him.. I spent seven years as a Basketcase of Sorts As a Person who certainly didn’t feel Right And I hung around too Long Feeling ill I Was ill a Long time While I hung around and I didn’t feel well I hung around too long waiting on andy reed and the monsters in the Loch I kept waiting for them to do circles What Do you want them to do Turn over and swim on their fucking backs?! I heard somebody ask but then I wanted To Shout And I never heard the performance That I wanted Of him.. Of Andy Reed Sitting down in his Place The Walls becoming Their Own Living Interior but how was I To Know How was I to know That they weren’t Saying goodbye to me For good that they Were only Welcoming me in Did you bring any part of Andy Reed in with you and did you come with me to See who I was.. and I was here and you were Here For Part of Our Records and No Money to cure who you are as a person and I came up on the wild and I Came up on the long Sword Drawn against them Too Now Where all of our activities Stop coming in And you’re all Only Coming down some way The hang Man Holds his Rope … And I thought I heard his Sweethearts Voice and the deep sound of their Voice and the money to Pay the king for it … I can’t keep andy reed here with me and I can’t keep him any where else.
On a Train One Morning
Wake up just before Light And I heard Andy’s Voice He must have been in one of the other cars
And I heard him coming down the hall
And I am about to be
Fucked up
As a person
And as a stranger
And you Could only help me
He said you could only help me if you were going to leave later He Slammed someone elses head against a wall and he didn’t know if he could make them Feel Pain he attempted to make them feel pain and crushed their Head again He Kept kicking them til sparks shot up in the sky and The delay they felt and the tanks and the cancerous sores and the Time Andy Reed Would see his daughter again and how he wanted everything to be a way that it never could be again and Amber Reed would never know what I would have endured and Then the cold dark and the storm That came out of Wheeling the one storm that’s running all the time the one to make sure that no one’s happy and no one gets out of here Happy when they do. The channels are so happy that We don’t know what the clouds will do And if that scares you then Something else will scare you as well and now I am feeling the form of what you caused me to do to Myself He said as he stood in the dark away from andy reed he said that andy reed caused him to inflict physical pain on himself and the pain he inflicted was the darkest pain he’d felt and that he burnt himself out too Making the waves of Light and the Way to Sum up the back of His head with the holes through it the bolts kicking Around and maybe it’s because andy reed still couldn’t get his shit together because he was still out raping Young Men Because he was still a fuck up His Own father who’d we’d heard had thrown everything away on a drinking binge and then the operations He was having since how long has the train been going it’s been so long since andy reed came and the films were torn away the films that once saved us he disgraced them now and he disgraced everything that I was and that I had been and he put my life at the stake of looking bad and if anybody else were a friend of mine then they would definitely say that he wasn’t but the thing was at this point that I didn’t really have any other friends that no one was there to help me through it and that no one was there to relieve me of the pain that I was going through right then the pain that I was going through with Andy Reed the way that I was being hurt and the Way that some people were coming on top of me and crowding over me and making me feel that pain and I wouldn’t really have anything to do with the pain I felt from them.. and I have some of the days where I was scheduled to be in hell and to be happy as well and then to lay my head down on my own eyes and see my own face and see if it was happy or if something else had came up and made it not look as good. They can certainly make it seem as if it does not look as good as it would have looked before and then it helped me through though the times of day where I was down andy reed was the cause of all of those days all of those times being down the pain he had caused me I wanted to blame him so much for it .. For the Pain he caused me I thought he’d be an easy person to blame for it And there’s no problem at all in me saying that I would have him blame me for it too he had me blame Myself that was what he did And The Rottenness of the right plan and the World will Feel the pain and my own eyes are on me certainly and I can make it happen in one way but I see it fail me in another way I Am going Right then to where I had been in the Past and the People crowding over me and I have looked before at them I have looked before at all of them right here at the way they Crowd me at the way which the come down on me at the way which they close in one me Somewhat and how uncomfortable it all makes me how I feel put on the spot bye the way which they feature me as a person who they think they can hurt.
I never have seen such a site before as when andy reed came to crush me and almost succeeded and he almost got me down to the point where I was helpless he almost destroyed everything that I was man I really would have nothing left now if he would have succeeded and he would play no more and there would be no more easy days and he would just make everything hard on me and the young man I was he thought would rule his life and he thought that I would be in a lot of pain also … and he thought that I was The one he could keep down all the time And the world he knew I was in that world of pain that he kept hostage in He knew it would kill me and You knew he would hurt me .. I told my parents so I wondered why they put me with him why they let him hurt me in this way and You have never seen such a site for yourself and the world doesn’t have any Trouble For you Except what you bring upon yourself I remember Andy Reed Telling me that Man he was really one to Tell me .. There are a lot of hypocrites Like that a Lot of People Who he would say IF you put us down Then we’ll Show you how wrong you were too .. They aren’t hypocrites Though Andy Reed Says Although he says we’re all Guilty of Offending him Saying that we’re hypocrites and putting us down and when he gets out of here there’s no telling what he’ll do .. to us .. he’ll hurt us .. we thought he’d marry but he didn’t do it for Love Now We Know He Just Wants to hurt us and another time in a bar In Wheeling He was there to strangle someone and hurt them as a person and you know I grew up and then I grew down nothing but the ragged Strong ground the strong dirt and you’re coming over my body and you’re flying past my head as well and you have troubles with my body but you’ll never Escape the fact of who you are. Live a life He said if you never live one kind of life Over the one you live now then things will still be going quite well he must have actually thought that he could hold me down forever and he thought that he could cause me the worst pain of my life and that I would break I knew though that I Wouldn’t at one point for a while though I definitely thought that I would break because of him He caused some extreme Pain on my Life And I didn’t know Though That warning sign In one of the bars in Wheeling that andy reed was going to kill someone and that they were going to be in pain and that he never saw them do too much to make their life better even though he didn’t really do any thing to make his own better he would still complain about theirs And his own father who died out on the drinking Binge Who He Said was a great man then after a while he didn’t talk about it since he was ashamed and he never wanted to talk about it again He just wanted to talk about How he could be happier than he was now –I Wanted to mention these things said Andy Reed but I didn’t know if you’d really go for them But I do know that they define my life and the Way that I Live my Life and I hope you’ll live your life the same way if not how dare you challenge me and defy the way that I live my life and you can never hold back and say that I didn’t live my life The right way .. I Live exactly the way that I want to People like yourself are the ones who bring me down telling me I can’t do this and I can’t do that.
Are you all taking me bye surprise and are you all putting me down and the night came upon me He said and the night that came upon me was the one I laid to rest and the world of yours was the best which I could follow and a voice like the sun and I came to hangout And Live there with Andy Reed and what does that say about me as a person he thought it makes me think that they’ll never want me back now My Parents won’t Want me back because of Andy Reed… Looks Like he really ruined me as a person I heard them say He really ruined our son he made him into something we never wanted to see him be.
The Terror from which you will be stricken The Terror of the Sea and the great beast and the great times ahead of you all… I Lived for you inside of your life and now I feel the class break down too And I am inside of this situation and I have been dying inside the House of Andy Reed In Wheeling Any Andy Reed in Wheeling Just off the coast with the flanks as well and no pressure With you In Life too…. And just the roses off of things which are terrible and you can never hear these things… please Amber Reed you must set me free and hear me in my heart and see the way I waste the whole day. Have you Heard of the way I waste The day I turn it inside of myself and I become the whole person in Wheeling as in the day before the accident and the pains to know and what to break into You only had a hold on one kind of Pain. Not seeing friends or seeing anyone in Wheeling not seeing friends or anyone else And always having to wonder what one person is doing and what one person is saying for so long and always wondering how one person gets ahead of In Wheeling and everyone tomorrow told me that we’re not seeing friends that we have no friends in Wheeling that no one here wants to see us or befriend us and no one wants to know who we are and that we’ll be dead in enough time we’ll be dead before play time in Wheeling We’ll be dead before it’s over and it’s nearly over now… You’ll be the one who died in Wheeling the one who knew it took a lot to see who People were and why they acted They way they always did. And you said that things were super and we’re only going to see things one way you know that Don’t you I thought you Knew that in Wheeling it was the only place you ever had friends. Then you’ll have to become friends with us since you planed to kill us originally and this is the only thing you wanted to pay towards This, This Fire this Fight this thing that will Blind you and it’s only Coincidence and everything we’ll make you glance in and feel foolish through the backdoor they are only what you make them The Bad things and the things you’re supposed to See as Trance moments for yourself. And how will it be if they are not the ones who come down to the point where even in Wheeling they can’t feel defeated… Andy Reed’s Dealing with some people now You’re Behind Him you saw him deal with these People and you could let it all Go to Waste Because you thought you had it made.
Can You tell me what I should do
Andy Reed what should I do
How can one thing be anything at all
And how can you come up to hear and not see me as someone you regret being with night and day The whole Day came to be what is was in Wheeling Someone In a Cold World and the water and the casket I would rest in, In Wheeling I was to rest in that casket and no one Knows where I’ll be and no one Knows the person I’ll be You just stay right there and you can just see these things Tear Us Apart and nothing Can Keep them from being the people they are in Wheeling Will No One Stop Following me in Wheeling Will no one Keep me from being the person who they prevented Me From Being and the hands down to everyone The hands Down to the sides and the hands Down to me and we’re all coming together as well and you are All alone and I can see the color of the room where Andy Reed Through the needles across the Floor If HE Could Look into my Eyes what would he see And who would he think I was And would there just be a Time when he destroys me entirely Would he Just think I was one thing And in His Disgust make me out to be Something Else. Tomorrow is a sunny day and an epitaph for remembering the dark gap in wheeling for Andy Reed To let you say Hey I am alive in here hey she is alive and she is the most amazing Creature he Once said to himself Her skin Perfect and her legs the joyous Bright Color a Tone to them Amazing to have been cured from all of this isolation , Stranger Yet to feel Free from all of the problems which rose and occurred here and Wheeling and to say that they speak for you… Amber Reed speaks for me But I speak for myself as well and I don’t Believe in letting bad things happen to me and seeing myself finished.. he once said And Then no one the next day had too much deep to say and there are some things about Wheeling That you’d want to be dealing with but no problems Would Occur and you should have been rich with your health in Wheeling where you should have been in the prime of your Life are you ready to Go are you ready to stand bye these things and let them define you to Let them speak out about who you are in Wheeling if they can speak out about That Then You’ll see who they are they can already feel you They can already Hear You call them from across the room And too much pleasure in Wheeling not enough Pain and not the book Andy Reed’s Reading The book he’s reading I forget Somehow That he claims to have read … mostly Lewis Mumford Books And he is always saying that they are Brilliant that they’re the only books that matter to him .. He Is Fast to Dismiss Everything Else As Crap and to Say that everything you admire means nothing you’ll cut your own life down and you think of thing that makes you angry and you will have them beat it out of you Won’t you You’ll have them Make you feel bad and you’ll know now that it was Andy Reed who made you feel angry. There was nothing there to prevent me from feeling angry and there were some things which were negative occurring every minute, Every Hour and the storm Over Wheeling Just another shower of Rain and never to be showered In the Essence Which You know in regards to Andy Reed’s Life On Earth as a human being. You can remember the time you only felt toxic and the world and the story of society they are all endless and the world and the way you’re head is feeling will you let everything down in time and you wasted So Much time over me and you Only put the time to waste and the test of time to the Waste You know it is a Waste and time and the real waste of it .. and the Girl Who Lives next to me in Wheeling is the one I will toss the rocks at the one person Down here Who Wants to come Down and fuck With me Says Andy Reed Is The one I devour the one I’ll through Stones at the one I have to get a new language For the one I am engaged in violence With and you‘re the replica and You’re the one who is defenseless as Well you’re the one person who’s Defenseless Now you’re the one I brutalize and you’ve got to make the most of your life Til then I will do that for you I know I can Cut you Down I know I can destroy You Bye my hand And Who is it you think you are And Don’t you think you’re a whole Person and don’t you think I have been waiting To Do you in and cause you to never feel as if you’re a whole person and you’ll only be in the terror I have here and you’ll only be in the terror that was caused personally in my Life and I don’t Know if you’ll kill me for it and what you’ll do someday when you’ll get ready to See yourself in pain. The day you have the realization of the pain you’re in is the day that you leave me the day that I will kill them all The Ones who want to Fight me and take that flight From Death now They will all be destroyed Shouts andy reed!! As I’ve said I will destroy them all I will have everyone know that you’re nothing I will destroy Them and it Just seems very bad and very nihilistically Different From the way things were when you Started out aren’t you sure of things In Wheeling and you’re so sure of things in Wheeling and you’re always needing more and you’re beating out the Excuses No Brains nothing left now He only took time away From the Brains He saw Them too And the world is calling on him he remembers them how they go on again And how the water ran from the gush of andy reed’s genitals in Wheeling…. Over the fields and past the houses Past the light and death in andy reed’s genitals Past the plague of Rats and no ones knowing who anyone else is Or Who they promise to Be if they Promise to be you Then no One else can get out of hear Alive For the sake of you all being backed into a Corner Knowing nothing different or no way out of the things Which you compromised.


At the end of the dark again, Near where we’d parked the Car and Pulled off the road… one bit of him is stuck in a ditch and there’s a stick laying there too he’s waiting for the stick to get up bye itself and walk away be taken somewhere else Well I don’t Know I will see what I can do .. he says I will see what I can do … Yes he will see We’ll See too the water come down gushing have it all pouring out of the there with a hose on the end of it You know that Look at the way that it pours Out What the Hell Have they got on the end of There?
Just plain now Plain floating on air .. some of us just sailing through taking are time –time to be who we are and the person I am do you even know that now, she could remember him saying. Well they say also It’s the world itself that Won’t Get you Through it. We can’t help you they say Also –We’re there for you on the otherside they say sometimes also But I never actually believed that.. I Never thought anyone would be there to help me on the other end of it all I didn’t know though But I was kind of certain.
I can take it back again I guess and put it there as well and A small Flirtation None the less not much else to say about that … I don’t have anything left he says And either do you.
Some of you Say He nature of it all is rough but I think it bleeds in a more abstract way and you can never destroy nature it’s only going to live one way And you can only Have it here … where the bridge is opened bye the door again Yes he says I would put a plastic toy on there and let it sit for a while and let nothing else run under there—Meanwhile though he is out looking for her and for someone else as well maybe I couldn’t sleep he says maybe this time I couldn’t sleep but maybe I’ll be able to the next time.

We’ll only go so far and then say the hand of death has betrayed us and then there’s no way out from there He Watched it over and over on the Television set in their basement and then he noticed that he himself was also dying.. He tried to wake himself from it but to no avail it’s not me who you think is dying.. is it me .. again yes it was .. a lot money I threw down and moving all around Some Puppies on a chain as well and what even changes with the sea and the name of Her Life became the same as his and there was peace and he was in the mouth of the sea now and the tea too That They drank and a million years on the sea at night and now the storm is quiet and they’re all quiet and you’ve come down the sky he cried for her too Set him free and my face as cold as the Water that was green in front of me and I was there again about to lose too to be defeated and Then I got lifted up bye something The small deer run through the forest and I accept charity and the world give you something else too and I was the one person I wasn’t always like this now everyone is like this and I have to figure out how to do this correctly as I would have before and I was the one who managed to see it all come out .. Lit again and then bound in gold and the world comes through to him and they broke me he remembered and it will make you almost die he said .. and have I gotten to far from this .. and the world will make us almost go blind .. and I am here again to be the person you need me to be … and I knew when it was one other thing than it was all over again I was about to shudder and I saved all of my money and I am here and the world again Was saved bye Little fear I never felt that with her I felt other things with her .. and I was there to be in love and you shall all make me die and I was going to see if all of you would make me die or cause me too…

Yes he said it all causes us to die you mean time travel again too Yes time travel.
The idea too that sasquatch is a time traveler weighed heavily on his mind and you can believe it and was there the stars were about to Defeated and there was nothing but tears left of them

On the ground that was supple and I was so afraid to fall and the world was there with sparks all over –In the dry dirt bye the dock in the reeds too and in the water he said .. I remember him saying that the dirt was wet and that there was no dry water bye the dock all of them are like swine… and all of them are knocking you down On The End … And I am here To be the one The World was .. And he Said … Jessica… Come Back here.. and I am here to Be The World he says is the one thing that makes me wonder again yes … I am coming home again.. he says… He is here again he says .. Yes I was down here .. Bye the way I was home on the end of the road again… I am bye the home again the one in the city not the one in the town not the one where we can knock things down again and it will be a slow process again… I am here he said…. Yes he is here.. but what a slow process again one of waiting and aging too .. bye the way again he’s summer bye the way too that whole summer where you thought you were on one way and there for another… I am coming home soon he says. And he’s come home .. Again for the world .. Rain again on me .. He’s coming home tomorrow .. He says.. again.. he is there in the world that world is like home again he says.. it is Serious and there is danger again that is god and mankind too .. also the way the world worked me over though he said .. you tempted fate and the dark world again that whole edge that made me believe everything else .. again he said .. you make the world one way and you want it to be either one way or another he says.. Yes I am not as serious as you would like me to be .. again he says and he is here too and it is not me typically not an angel Which was sent however no one here to complain of either Again yes I am getting in the back of here.. I am again I am here .. He says you are the only Way .. I am the back of the car and not typically damaged and bye the world again if it is in here then it is god and you only were the one that was damaged and I was the one again who was good with trouble bye the time you came around you wanted trouble and me here too and you want to be saved yes he says.. I want to be saved and I am only here to think of things again he says and he Only comes home to life again Yes one way over there that one way over is the way over in Wheeling the Way where the world works.. again he says Yes I am back home again in wheeling .. only me again I was Home bye myself again one time and I was there yes and my bibles and I am home again too … Through this order of coming home this realization of what that consists of Yes he says I didn’t think you’d need this after all .. he says You can come down here .. again Once more When he looked up a the ceiling the chandelier Was there hanging on a thread and you were to close your eyes to the world too bye the way that home There bye your side it is you coming through don’t you worry me and you bye and bye and again he said he is in the world coming over and in the street car holding on and holding up to me .. he says again yes he does come home again yes A Little bit of Change again a change to become one person he only says to make up your mind and the world is officially Older than It was can anybody hear me now Do they hear me .. Bye the way a bad dream again Yes get out of here Won’t you he says.. you are the only one who was Born Here to BE the world bye the way the residents of this place man and all of you alone he said .. Only Then Bye World When it was older the top of everything waiting to fall down on Us .. We just felt as it was some kind of massacre and where are you going to go then no one on the way to the world will help you decide to be this person.. again he was .. bye world .. And the way home .. He came in and then he got god to make something else Sitting bye the back … of the world again and he is the treasure trove there in the whole world the ice and the universe and the big windows and the game too He says .. Yes yes.. Oh You all in the world Were the people who Became the people who were older than the one people who came before and didn’t seven days bye the Earth Therein a hospital .. Seven days in the earth and all of them were typical and can ‘t you come on When they Call for you isn’t everything just the most that you make of it in Life.. he says weren’t these things… And I am here again You are The one again to the world again he said He wanted to be there and I Reached over and he Kissed Jessica too And then I remember that someone else did as well And you were there They Were Such nice people Only you were the ones the toy Bears the toy cars and the rest of the things we’ll hold for ransom we’ll get as many of them as we held in our hands and the only amazing thing was that you’re a real moron he says you know that a real moron against life like you were never ask me for anything else he said not a single thing I am not only back on my feet til then and he said put it all on there and you were the only one who was drastic til the end about that Jessica Was there with her Black sweater on and how much of her Was just there with time and to notify her of more than that she is always coming in and coming out and getting older and getting angrier and you were there held Down Bye So much of that which you’re lost in as well and you were only me bye myself and all of that holds onto you correctly somehow doesn’t it …. I believe that all of it does and I believe that there are things that you take such advantage of you can only hold out since the war is coming again and I know there are people like us out of there and no one Only Believes to be someone else and Yes he doesn’t only want to be any enemy now and you were the ones who doubled in water and tripled and I was the one who held on all the way throughout my generation he says I am the last what happens to the last and you only put the last on don’t you don’t you and he only says that they’ll last forever won’t they he says they will last forever.. again they will last forever…


She took it all in but she wanted to see if any of them came back after she did .. Wanted to see if any of them came back after they came in her. In the Vulva where it was warm and wet and there were no bad things So it Seemed all the times she tried to break through things she did it with love She Thought she did.. she did all of it with love she insisted and how many days have passed She Wondered to herself.

“How Much has changed?” He said as he was crouched there bye a Car.. and he was going to be awake again tomorrow and how many lives has he saved and how much of it Are you going to let go sour and how much have you left alone And The love Once more was going to fade away tomorrow and you know they all wanted them to see who they are as People and I can see who they are … Yes he said come over there but don’t expect anything since Tomorrow And you are only there again to See Who you are here and I am here to come again and come home again When I left the first time I wasn’t sure how long it was going to be til I came back the next time I can’t explain it he said .. I can’t explain any of it… I have a Full day tomorrow and I stand against this world They’re crying out for me and they are freed from the rain and it would be easy to add content and the world again the whole world torn free from its content and how does the cloud even work also How does it come down and take me away and my voice explodes again and it rolls out everywhere everything has gone bad.
Where is the knowledge and the time closer and the world works evenly and I am never going to come close to you again he says never again and who are they .. though these small bits of bodies… Unicorns with Golden Horns All of that slowly fading though That imagination Which was once there and that house over near the cloud .. Where you ran down to a red Chair After you ran past a bridge and you couldn’t stay clear of what you needed to stay clear of ..
My life exploding for the better then going the bad way then going the best way too
What are the best things possible me just standing around waiting to meet people no one coming through and no one coming over either and the only coaches are the ones which are fancy Also “What about Jessica?” She was there wearing pearls on her neck and she said she wanted to find away to get home for herself. The lake too and the bridge and then the last of it and are you going to come and take what is yours and how dare you come here he said Who do you think that you are … Only then he was there in the longsleeved gown Standing near the Case of Rifles too let them all run out though too .. all of them let them run out too .. and the end of it all was near …

“The world was different then weary and not so sure of itself and I rocked you back and forth asleep and I was there in this cradle of Air ..” He said .. Listen to the wind .. again he said it’s Picking up the world is a broken glass and the times you have against you trash your character and I was there to take you home and see you when you were asleep in a cradle of snow The world can’t do a file like that he says and the end of the world has no shadow nothing moves and no one has seen you and no one has come completely clean and I moved the world a bit closer to the flight that it took and You could hear me He Could still hear Jessica when he reached down to kiss her lips which were like Silk and her dreams which he remembered So much of himself through.
You remember the other people as well and we’ve strayed in some way and all of us have come out of the fold and I am here again and I am content .. Her hair was golden and she were glasses sometimes Her Lips Were the Nicest Softness he remembered as he kissed them. What Does it feel Like He asked I heard It’s The Softest Thing ever.. and I am here Again back here looking over a bed heaven help me and I am here again at the banquet and the world tries to see who they are and you men can only free us and the world has health and I am here too and I was the one who came against her to cause the world the pain that it had.. well no one ever complains and I was there to see who we are .. and I was there again the disease and the scandal and I was there just to see a few of the girls off and the God’s of time and the world too and you surely must have tried to stop a few of us and the world was the only thing pure at heart and we need something new for us and I was the one person for us who didn’t have it out for her.. And he bent down again and he kissed her lips moved his tongue over her teeth and please help us Soon She said and you are here bye yourself You seem like jesus to me .. the third of them all seems as sick as the others can try that city in the sky and god has gone up too With That Whole Big balloon where you can blow everything else out of your ass as well as That.. aren’t you dreaming there of who you want to be and the world questioned me then the world seemed to die and the world was screaming through things and things were never going to thin out or get any easier and you can hear the choices he made he Undid Jessica’s shirt and he could hear her heart beating when he put his Head down to her Chest and the world Fat too and the Backs of boys broken He saw That Lift Which they used to Use for carrying rocks and they would kill two or three people a day that way and only the world is dead now and only the cold will kill her and the world is soggy and the Days are So Malicious and the times you were out cold you slept alone and I have never been there before When it all seemed bad and I have this scars on my body and you’ve got to send the Rest of time my way twilight time and I am here again and I am here to even do it in private if I have too I have time too in your long dark hair and I know that time is you as well…
Sometimes there’s distinction Made bye the world as a whole and the world at large and I have moved from here and I have taken the chance again where I am god and as god I left no forwarding Address again he said too The patterns of the deep posing over the dark water and oh comrades and oh partners and you only can see us bye the world again and the world that freed Me Was the Same one I think that freed Jessica it at least contained her for a while longer In that bathroom near the tub and the sink also even the patterns are screaming You can betray us even with your Voice and You Can even manage to hear the sounds of death calling. It must have been the spider that came down from the rafter and killed all the hope which was in the cloud and left nothing for her and any of us and for what though they destroyed us And left us for dead and did you know how bad they hurt us and how were the vows which would Took Different From any others –Jessica Kneeled before the alter and she paid Close attention to the truth and the world had time to Do These ideas in and the world and the skin shakes and the Times of It All Closed in too He meant too say that they came to a Close she was there in a Silk nightgown and it rubbed against her back and the world came down To Her and spun around and all these times against us You could say who are you and you pledge yourself forever and For the sake of who though and I am the one with the sake of what though the sake of science and the world has a funny way of people closing in again Against all of Us and they were all taken away from us weren’t they Weren’t They All taken away from us he said .. and you are the only one who could have true to tell me and I was here and I was there and I was putting words down on Paper and thoughts of mine .. Again me as the one person the times Which will break her though Jessica Lips her Blonde Hair Falling down too and you Believe surely don’t you as I knelt down on my knees Words Flew off of my lips and I spoke of images which in the past had slayed me and I think time is pretty great he says I think it is all so great the way that time kills us too The way that it makes us older and We last til we die I guess then don’t we.. but the spider came down from the cloud and he Was the villain and you were the one who held it all inside and you were that bad person Who was able to never go anywhere that he wasn’t Held too and I was the one person who came out of there and Choose To Be the Most Virtuous.. Said Thomas … And the world has these Ellipsis Points Written there bye It, While Hamsters ran on a wheel Thomas Feed Rats and he Spoke of the mercy Which was at hand. You know it was the spider who ruined the cloud and the way she laid next to me at one point was different entirely from the indifference which you could see that she felt towards me after That I mean the way she feels towards me Now is cold and hardened and her Heart Has Been taken from me and she was there bye the side of the water and her foot and heart.
There was never anyone as perfect As Thomas She thought and He was there, Always There indefinitely .. The World Spun and those pets of his seemed to run on their Access too And the world Swore About how beautiful she was and The Only time there was that was left over was the time without mercy too .. The only World was hard –people stepped on bugs and I laid them to waste too he thought I heard a Dog Cry and I heard Cats screech too and I Can only hear the world come out to the point and I deny it all again he said .. and they Think that I lack something And you were there You Were the Ones Who hadn’t seen me this time …
I swear I saw Jessica down there he said .. bye the time The world arrives and you came to see her too and how does everything come out with me bye the time that change weighs on it and I was there and faithful to it He remembered bathing her rubbing a sponge over her body and the world Was there as it came up Over her thigh and there Were soap suds running near her pubic hair And you could see the traces of them make there way down to her labia and Little bits of soap on her pink pussy lips those glistening Folds a Purse There to be opened a trap door or treasure?
He Became erect The Longer that he gazed at the soap Suds Clashing with Pubis The more His attention was drawn too it He gathered the thought of his own semen flecks being in there a web of Cum.. Again he wanted to part her labia lips with the ends of his fingers and finger Her wet cunt .. –The Spiders All ate the clowns as well and the ate the heads of men and I still stare at the bride he thought and the world for the sake of the world and I am dying you hear me flat and dying near the world where death comes out of my life for the sake of my life what am I to do He said ..
Yes they were flying now There were flying spiders they had wings.
He had that image of the spiders flying and the men who’d strapped buckets onto their heads They’d fastened the bucks so the open top was pointing straightforward it was directly above their brows –They Bottom of the bucket inside Contained a gel Sack, a thick muck Which hold he Spiders.. The Men stood up on Logs walked back and forth and use the buckets to catch the flying spiders Which at this point Were Incredible Large as well As big as Your Fist! He remembered Jessica Asking him “Is That Large for A Spider.”
“What You do is catch it in your bucket, then you put the bucked it down and you smash the spider while it’s held down in there Then it’s messy .. and then You’ve got to get another bucket or clean the spider guts out of that one in the time that Takes though you Will have missed a lot of chances at catching other spiders.”
Catching them was no duller than the air which sometimes had been dull as well and his life and the whole break also The whole time in his life This wasn’t what he’d bargained for not that he’d been against it though either at this point in fact there wasn’t much he was against Yes he said he was against some things.. and The World Will tell you He said and I am going to bring that whole story together and you never know the deals they make will you and you can never know what kills us all he said again he saw Her Pussy becoming red and he touched it more and more and When his fingers when inside she moaned a little bit and She was happy… He could tell she smiled as his fingers were in her Vagina. Drew the Curtains then because he knew no one wanted to see Them making love He ran his hands over her Thighs and She said Lick my pussy a little to Make it Wetter before you fuck me … He was licking it then .. Then she was touching his shoulders and he felt Horny too So much of that he Very much felt turned on and there was no betrayal In his arousal and You can never Be There Like This Thought you can’t know how I felt when I was inside of her and when I was on top of her and they were making love she clutched him tightly –Her hands over his Back and not trust broken he ran his tongue along her teeth and Then he held her again she seemed calm and She Was then screaming he could feel more and more juice gushing out of her pussy as it was wetter and wetter the more friction which was created bye their Genitals touching together Rubbing harder now .. he Was about to Cum .. now .. He Wanted to hold out for her though And Bring her to climax with his Stiff about to spurt cock still inside of her. Birds Red and Blue sang outside Again on Telephones Poles They were Trapped up there he thought But he heard the clicking sound made as they propelled themselves against the window pane as He was coming inside of her Vagina.

What is the word Sworn in secrecy and what also is the time you possess surely no time to do so .. and nothing to make it better…. There was something moving you could see it in The Open spaces in the box the black cat is moving around directly to move in In time And there were things I had to just stand back from.. and I could never turn it over so bad as that.. and here is the whole end time too.. Should have turned around faster then I just make things happen in the end he thought it will just be there in the end though to help you through Guide you and worn you… One More step from what we were doing .. and I said he was ready then wasn’t he.. and you can just stand back from things.. Oh god Yes He was screaming now coming to orgasm again too.. and he could have turned on us and have made us angry with Bolts of Light in our Hands too.. and you could have run away if you wanted too Could have fired the truth you can never take a morsel of it though can you He thought and there is the fiction still of repression and it is still warding you off.. From there as well.. One of those boxes you just peer Into and your Long Filthy Face he says and he’s coming up with steel and he has no one to Love too.. And no one comes here to Spare us either and you are the one God and He Loves us all too.. and you only come through the edge of Her. The secrets again and you only have that Design .. They Broke us down through use of two wet folds and you could have mentioned that you could have been happy and you are streaming the time in waves and you are singing into the waves and you have so little time and you can never be kind to our bodies and none the less we’re rasping here on the edge of them. And We have too many facets of the body here and the Face of fear Like the edge again That you’d taken off and you will warn me then now… He says again to warn me .. Just the time it takes it takes time now to get away from things one of them as a turtle dying and the other as a boy having fun Just as you had fun to me and you can tell them who you are and that you know me too he says Go and Have Sex Til when you can’t come back from it We’re one in the same still you know that are We united to be that way.. Yes I think you are .. And before He was too .. and Bye the time you speak … He says and the word you said were gone to you and still too plain to see and my life upon my skin doesn’t make my life any easier … What can I tell he says you’ll save me now too he thinks Here comes that cold and you are the one who never got out of There alive The Cold Sunrise over Wheeling the body That Will Stink Before the grave The one that will stink as bad as it Would if it were dead and bill gets off on this shit he’s the real ribbon of stink and iron and at the end of the day he’ll peer over and see the cue from Her and never dine So well So serene and the ice and they all make enough money to be different about things and how they plead release but so what though he says and I think we can get more of them free again as well.
If you count that Against the time where she wanted to be free again and the eye of the things that were looking in and no one ever knows her name and you are the time bleeding for us too .. Look at you dying never sing that song again he says and hey get up here and keep and eye on her and who do you think you can be to creep through them.. and He Let them touch Jessica and she was coming back from what he said.. He knew it was all as if it were a film or novel and not much else and another time you were bleak to Us a house full of you.. and who can say Yes to that And I stay up to where I am … never Though.. and I can only impact parts of other peoples lives parts which I think are decent to Impact and when you go all of one way how can you go another I guess was what I asking Jessica How Could one thing repress if the other totally Doesn’t hold us down .. When you become deaf from it all He said from the Loud Screaming and the pounding coming out of Wheeling I guess you’ll be fine.. Jessica Went downstairs to the bottom of the house and she was Looking up to The ceiling of the room she was in … And She Saw the imprint of him about to come through.. Murnier Fectus And He said that is his name somehow he appeared A lot younger Than She’d envisioned Him Still in a green coat and She was never living down on the lines and he was living like it was a lie wasn’t he Til the end of time this will be a Lie she said .. Murnier She said .. don’t you want me back he took the Pieces of Chain off of his Green Coat and he began Striking her with Them.. Causing abbreviations on Her Face and Skin Opened up and blood gushed out he wondered How they’d heal since they looked pretty serious Seemed Like all he wanted to do was .. come through that and come through here earlier too… As you go to your death you move some things down a bit and break what it is that you do have…
You had to see all of The Movies There about life and God too and time stalking you He thought Why wasn’t time much better now than it had been Before … it took it’s tool They Wandered near the embankment Bye the Green and just north of your Place He sat At one of the tables and was Freaked Out bye the men behind him .. They had nails sticking out everywhere and There Was laughter but not much of it .. A Penis Like a Banana In Her Vagina Pushing the sides apart From Having Been Folds As it goes in .. Just last night the letters he said the ones that you wrote and the money you spent on me .. too Children all running to a place he felt how wide her pussy was as His Fingers Were inside Making it Wider and Last night There were so many people and you can never believe It He said… I saw Them all Come through the door and I never saw that Life had Passed He was stuck in that moment where his hand is in her cunt and You Were waiting too and singing So Sweetly and There was so much of it .. yes I know but how can you laugh now ..
He knew it came across as being so Blatantly Bad and all the proof you need is right there glowing out from it Across to you directly and I can’t see anymore Of it .. and you can never see me walk out said the dark .. As the rain came down to I sat bye the Window and Jessica Sat on the bed.. I would walk down steps Later and up a Long Hill and to the main street and you’re all Playing with my emotions As you know what it is That I Know and You can All say that you’re all aglow and I know what you know as well and the last time that People were stepping out and You can all see what you’re waiting for as well.. and I am Waiting too For the longest time .. it is all you are they all bye you She said .. Murnier Came again Bluntly she examined Drawings Bye him as well.
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Those Images of Clowns, three images he painted his face several Times and He was wearing a Checkerboard Outfit too .. There’s a Door in the background that he enters from and leaves from as well and The last time you saw him he was up to the same things again … that one clown with the black around his eyes came and looked really close at the camera and so he came and he looked really close into my eyes and some words I had he couldn’t ignore She still felt ashamed and she soon felt the words going on too Long and he played around with it too At one point in the right corner of the frame there was a red table and a red chair as well and he was waiting for me and he was waiting for the future as well and there were prisons and He was doing math .. That Image Laid over three times and what will you do best and you Forget Everything Else too And The songs were lost and so were the times.. They had together.
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You’re fire came to rest on me ignited on me and ignored me too and some way you will know how safe I feel I really do feel safe and I walk into the sea and gave the memory away From her.. Longs Legs Mantis too and the one green one on the hood of the car and He says to Keep him up late .. But what do I do About that With all the other Freaks As it is .. and you would think his time would make him less fortunate and you would think he would call on time And what is the usual .. he thinks and I just Left this sound to no one .. and my father Takes over and You can see it as well.. new Times Plus old ones and it Was Jessica Riding on his back he picked her up and held her and Remembered Flowers that he had just plucked and let go of and it was this imaginary place .. Far from here and he couldn’t see it now as he did then There were no castles now and there Was no home Where everyone Could be That was He Recalled What He’d wanted Before to See all the people he loved in the same place together And not Think that they Lost there love for him in the process he just wanted Love but he wasn’t going to get too much of it.. I don’t know what to do with myself I feel different every time and I can feel the days as they bind me and your skin Glows Softly To me Lust again too Her pussy wet and open and his Erect Prick and her Breasts he saw as his to play with and Tired and Terrific now after sex and he liked it early on and he didn’t understand it early on although he did understand it Later on and he was human for a while then no one regretted who he was or understood it either.
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Some other place Though there was some bronze and Barney Too and He was arrogant You can only pay on the good side and my neck aches.. Too All of them Frozen in glaciers and found deep in the sun now paying for the sound of what needs to be done.. And how large do you want to make this sign and how do you want to make this sound and you are here deep in the sunshine the one that made your life what it is and defined you I will defend it all to the end She said …. Some of the Bronze Soldiers Those statues and the chairs and red tables .. They All Portray an Image Of What was all the same thing… Can I Delete This now? She asked.. and probably because of the footprints All the footprints aren’t the Same other footprints are the same and you can never wake up in the morning And what are you doing if you are.. and at last you can see nothing she said.. That Big Tank in Wheeling… “Oh They’ve Lived here For years, The aliens I mean.. they have underwater bases near the ohio river in wheeling.. And Their Craft comes out and comes through.. Here is the new image of captain America too He is there… Without the wings Which used to Be where His Ears Were..” Steve Rogers and Bill Cleary Both Woke up years later they were both frozen and Left there for a Long time.. Bill was Frozen too after the laughs and mistakes and then he showed everyone up.
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Don’t Betray us do us in or fuck us said bill..we’re the ones The Queers and that short fat woman who’s always drinking some kind of Crack head too One of them said about her.. That didn’t Stop bill the Dryer The cunt The Harder My Cock Because of My KY Jelly he said taking that whole tub out walking around with tubes of KY in a Gunbelt and Taking them out in swinging around awhile standing Erect In The Lobby of A nursing home .. “Dear me, heavens above.. Bill I can’t Stand it ..” She said .. I can’t stand the pain you bestow Or Mercy me.”

The final thing I felt was mercy and I laughed again too laughed my whole life away softly and everything depends on you She said .. Once She said.. That and there was nothing else that I could do And I am laughing at you he said .. For you to be someone Else .. and you’ll never know how happy you’ve been and it is supposedly evident for me to see who you are and everyone depends on me too.. and I will see my life come out and launch towards the wall of things.. too and my life is evidently not what you’d think it would be.. And if I saw them up there once then I probably would have thought of seeing them again.. and my life is laughing to me and she Is there too and I can see it Here he says it is Darling Don’t you think it is that yes I do think it is.. he said .. and nothing else except hot Water over me and you on top of me .. and I am here laughing at you .. yes try to go through life the way you remember it being .. Do you remember me ? he asked her and There is no doubt that he did .. A Large Sphere in the center of the Room and no matter what In the World he had going for him ..No matter what he says and there is no mention of any of it at all.. and you can see he was the only one who loved her . and you’d take care of her.. too he said and you’d think life was one way and you’d find out it was only another and no matter what happens To me .. I’m alright he said .. I am alright anyways There is just a place to dream about and it is far off from underneath a bridge and I Lived Inside of her.. and the snow fell now too It came down on the water similar to him it will always be in Love with her.. Only one time to the world Though.. It would give out once for that.. and you know once for that You have got to say that you’re the one person Who is going to love me .. and I have got to be here With her . and I am going to Live with her.. and I have got to live There.. and I Came home to them. There was hot water in pans and There were pots which I wanted to clean out too.


There were camels too He was riding on them.. Cosmos Daily was Riding them.. he thought of his life and his time on earth and the time he gave away as well. The earth gave way as well did the Everything it fell underneath him he could tell that he meant that.. bye saying that he wanted Jessica back .. he want her back there was no question about it all.. he had said before all of that.. That He’d wanted her back Even before .. He Could see their relationship in the light which he saw it in now.. and you can take these things for what they are.. but even though they are taken for granted he said.. and he thought about her for a long time and he knew that He loved her… Still through water now too He was moving through that.. Started Calling Wheeling Looking for her.. sometimes when he rang the phone Amber Reed was on the end .. Actually even through all the calls he made he never got a hold of Jessica and he ended up feeling high and dry and there love was colored.. And he was invisible and the rain fell hard again and The World Saw Light And his love as well and a better world lay ahead of him can’t you tell he said can’t you tell who is here.. Just that same Person who was there before.. me No no I am different now than I was before you really seem as if you have changed and you can see who she is from that You can go over there If you want too But if you don’t want to go over there it will just be another problem.. sound became overwhelming And don’t be surprised when you can’t differentiate Between tones and you can tell all the time It is no problem for me to do these things For you.. As I once did them… now it became a problem. It is not a problem for me .. as it is for you.. he said.. That he needed them all of the young-men in Wheeling who masturbated as frequently as men in other cities..
Cities Just like Wheeling
Masturbating young men
No semen
Nothing at all..
I am with them now The men who masturbated .. We all did it together in Wheeling obviously That was the best place to do it.
Eli Hubbard
Andy Reed
Tyson Reinhardt
Bill Cleary..
Tim Miller
There is just a thought here and there is a thought that puts me to shame
And no one is here To put you to the Test that test of strength in Wheeling When The Orange Water comes down the side of the cliff.
Bill Cleary and Eli Hubbard went up on a Hill together even though I am still frozen bye them my father and my revenge and The World Which he lives in Becomes One which I can’t inhabit .. the Monochrome Slides again as well.. Semen Sloshing Out everywhere as well… man you were pretty fucked up down there he said.. and into the world early on in life just those People.. They referred to Jessica as a working professional One Parked In The Car in Wheeling where the other people were as well They came very quickly there is no chance of them to come quickly though..
You can see them with your violence and metal shell there too You were Held bye all of us.. all of you were there bye me .. and everything ends up bad.. too He said.. the red seats and the three images of the clown.. and I am good there next to the material and you know How much I love you now you came in the same room that I came in.. he said I now sleep in the Room where you came before you knew who I was.. We never came together and if you can see me again man .. I am here to be born again Bye you now the next time .. and you wish you’d appear and I feel my heart beating.. and I am there to Say good night to science . and I am wrapped Bye people.. and my material life too And my Life is Wrapped up bye confusion… He says Good It’s us We Have arrived in Wheeling where we are forced to be happy I guess we’re forced to be happy here now I think would be a bad time to go over. The band and time both go over From there Repetition Which doesn’t have much to do with the rest of us and for a laugh you can have all of them and you know you’ll Go Far he says.. You think you will don’t you and you can never see us now you have no practice seeing us And you can See us getting offended Bye Him.. and I am here with the Shivers in my Spine and I am here on time .. Yes I said How much I liked her I remember meeting her Jessica I Recall what she was like and I liked her and I can see her without a face .. and I would see her and say grace and the eyes of mine with a face.. and you can see Her they Go and Look at them Before they moved Over now theyre Where they were before and I am confused.


Can’t you see the mistake which you’ve made I want to know what you think about that and how it is going to really affect me and can you find me on these stairs.. No no maybe I don’t want too He said… Yes you do want too I think she said… he wasn’t sure he had wanted to see her body for sometime now see her without all of those clothes and see her there buried in her own eyes and her head Feel her inside of herself and if you lose her now And I can find her too She said What if we lose each other now… And I am looking for her.

Staring Directly into an Image on the wall When she turns a basket of Roses over On her wedding day then bats fly out and he said it wasn’t right and can you come back to me and let me hold you again if they don’t want me then they’ll never want you he says.. Come back to me now will you don’t Go to him for it .. And I know why you’re looking at me And you should have seen how they were on the day before yesterday and don’t say there was any kind of word and you can never see me come back to tell me how you will and you will learn me from me than her and I like you more now then I did before and never leave me come back to me And you’ll see Who I am As a person Said Jessica. Then He Used to think will Jessica be there Will she be there He Wondered As she became paranoid .. AND I GUESS she wondered as well.. There was a videotape of men Flying They Had wings Part of their Flesh and you said You caused a sensation But I probably won’t need to call you for anything and I am living through who you are and I am never finished bye being that person and it Led me to this transient Circumstance of being here and wanting to get away from her.. Where can I go Now Joey.. how can I get away From her.. Joey, Joey.. My Ferrets.. They called and they talked to me and I never lived in that place please let go and you can use the past and you can help yourself in my world and I was there til the end and I was there for the most Time .. He said .. more time than anyone Else was in.. What ever You see here that you like you can take with you.. I think .. if you’d like to take it with you .. Of all that is here Very Little remains and you wondered your Whole Life.. Her Blonde Hair Drops Down her neck to meet at the ends of Her Nipples and you have heard of the greatest circumstance have you not Yes I mean I think I have heard of that one .. he said.. and, and I think I, I am this person He said .. when I wake up I know I am and things that will keep you asleep and I can never live a life of happiness I only live one of sadness if you cut the light then Make sure everything else you cut in half as well she said .. Make it out of there alive will you Won’t you for fuck’s sake..

Life became hard for him again in these distant times more so than ever And what caused it also .. was a bad thing he knew that it was really bad and he was walking home to bring them all there and we’re down there holding onto people and you were strange and he was open to all of it.. and the bad things came down to Her and all the tension in the room the whole world and the time which all of you came up short and you can see the whole world stopping for a dime and a world too and a scent and he is seeing the whole entire town going up in a puff of smoke a flake too a real hanger on in the world… and he was going to be breaking out of there again.. There were staffs and bolts of light and nothing else was stopping me and he thought he would break out of the world .. and he never came to see her again and the time in my whole head breaks me out again there is no way out.. again he says… How is it there bye my time…

No one judges or hears a key or wonders what it is .. he says.. and you can have something which you can do without as well and you came down to see her Don’t you want to hear it Do you want to see what it is .. from here to me and I was you.. She said Weren’t you wasted as well… Yes I was wasted and I came here to have more of It no one makes a key wander away Like you did and you should go up or come down on me as well… I saw her go down on me .. and I felt the last gasp of her mouth and I got erect more bye the idea of her drinking my cum and I could hear the slurping sound sit made and it made Sounds of big gulps taken and you can see more of her pubis and what not and They all have themselves Covered in sperm and two men have been arrested in their Connection too … He says.. the world itself is all on fire and you were Leary of them already it seemed and you can have more if you want it .. and here is the security you want as well the years again where you represented yourself and I was there bye your side as you choose to get it to represent yourself and the men came in and they discussed attacks and it worked for you to come to me .. and he is .. The World is here .. bye the time I saw god.. he is there .. He was wondering how to come over the hill and he was breaking You in to your life and your Love was academic and he Loved only her and there were 2 slots and he has the cash To Come down here and Buy her When He Wants her .. and there are True Parts to that .. she was just someone he could buy and he found that to Be a Mystery and there is just the world and it Will Give you it’s two cents and bill cleary as well and he so much was a fairy tale .. for her You were coming no one else was coming though and Reaching orgasm I didn’t want Julia to see my Cum Ejaculating from my Penis and The opportunity for her not to Was There… There were Just two small mirrors and the True Belief of you in love and By The Way what were you planning on doing.. and so it was all a fairy tale She Wondered Who they Were Again .. And she couldn’t ever see how they were fading either and it was becoming some other sense of Place and the people there Were making it work hard too I won’t be able to get on til one of them gets off he said.. and I won’t be able to do that.. and you can cause a whole entire massacre for a while he said all of it for a while and then there was a slot a huge slot and time with the Width of her vagina and her circumference as well and you came there and you sold my soul It Seemed like as well.. and he Came to see me bye myself and I was the one person who you came to see her so silently and they all come bye in peace and they drift to dream as well and you didn’t come to me As you had before and I am the Only thing Left to wonder about as you wondered here… I have something you want that you’ll never have though said bill cleary.. and I will come all over there to get close to it .. yes I will get close to it .. sometime he said.. I will get close to it. The world without my Sense of what matters here and what matters most would be a hard thing and you can see who you are A Little Later and you were in the world Which gave you difficulty and I am here reaching out for the mistakes of the time and I am losing some of them and not too many of them are mistaking and you are going to be there and you have to loaded into this new kind of technology and no one is there and no one has remained innocent too and everyone is looking for something which they cannot find and I came down to see that which I can’t find and someone Thinks it is awful and someone else thinks it is going to make them lonely as well.. I Am down here against the streets and the pavement as well and I am about to lose my mind as well and you can see us all there with our heads about to pop off With the tips of our pricks as well and I am on the run from them and I am going to see butter on the ends of my Orifices and I am going to See Them now in the end I am going to see that They all our clear and They Come around and make a turn and look for what is familiar To them and You can only see what is familiar and Bill Too And Jessica Where she was before all of that.. before she was free from all of it.. and I don’t only know if there are just so many available Slots and Bye Bill Cleary and I was Here to wait for him and I am Going to come through for you.. and I am going to see the world walk down To m e I am pleased and the Day again me where I was God and I was there too To Return and absorb the madness of Her and the world and I were never alone and I was there too As long as you thought I was.. and yesterday I am driving to the end of the line to June and you can hear them all take it apart and the world flys up against me all The time .. I closed my eyes and I thought of her and you can see him and say that you’re sorry and I only hear Who he is … We will hold up two mirrors next to her face and we’re sure of who she was and other than Jessica I am sure That There was no one in there and I am running too The world again and I am moving on And I hear The Echo Of it all and you can see the world to listen to Her … IS one Thing and To see who she is—That is Just another thing I thought it was.. something that you were over with Now.

I am moving to a familiar slot now and the water flows underneath me and I won’t give you nothing unless you are
Someone who can easily be engulfed and you were fading from time to time and can you just get on there and they don’t take the chances which I used to take and I was there with every motive and I was there Rolling over the rest of her body and the world and the cafes and the couches Hers was Orange The first time I sat on it and I proceed and I am moving From there To Where she was Before I got let down and there were Just bright bursts some More of them Some of them Coming out in Color others coming to see me bye themselves and when are you going to come out Here and the Plastics Bottles on the Ends of the Tables and they came to Be next to her .. too.. and the clothes thrown everywhere I am looking to repeat Who you are .. and I am seeing them and I am seeing you From here to See who I am as well and You knew even before that he’d liked her for a long time I could tell that he had and so much of it .. was going out on The End for her.. and you can see her defined as who she was.. don’t you feel them close in around your neck and all the ones are here who could be and I am the one who is here and the world has pretty things and World will Give them to you remember what you were promised early on .. She asked and you are not much better and the world made it look Good better than it was.. and you will wait for me .. he said.. And I am going to se who he is ..And this Whole Sense of Her Gone now It has been for a long time.. and there are Leaves and I have already Made sure of who she was and I have made sure of it .. she is going to see him at one point and see who he is .. and I was once waiting to Look out from there and then see it piece bye piece out of the window in the place where I was sleeping I saw her move with Grace and I saw her body sway in a unique way it did move uniquely in one way or another and did you really think I could make it out of here Alive and Along time to See who you are… It took a long time Personally.. Speaking I can’t see ever How they Figured out who She Was… I noticed I had a fluctuating sense of smell on some days you can see that it was made better on some days and the world was marching from here to there and back and He said it came back As if it were a ball the way he tossed it and I am not sure of anything and I am not sure of anything and I have seen the bad part of it all and I may have to advise my friends… the world was Her Too Made Generic By The Means of something else The difficulty of Doing so .. Conformity Which seemed So easy and The world where I couldn’t Conform at all either and it makes things hard on me .. and you can see how it is ridiculous and how you treat her this is terrible and you treat her so terrible and you won’t see me for the time being and I am leaving and I am going in circles and the rails Came on Strong too and you’ve got the radio Playing Loudly and I can’t get a moment of peace she always said but she knew that somehow secretly She didn’t Want a Moment of Peace and without it Things Would Be Much more inspiring and one time before last The time before she came and she came over on me He said and I was there Bye the time and the world again too .. Yes they all make love like these people and I never make the world come to see me … have you ever taken a man inside of You? She got asked again Yes of course I have.. taken a man inside of me .. I have had Many men .. she said .. but I think it is a terrible question overall and so Demeaning She said .. but he didn’t seem to think that it was that bad and the world again comes knocking at the door all the way again and he saw that it came knocking To Her near her face and it don’t think it Was the Poverty and You Can Feel it though things falling apart bye themselves in rooms Breathlessly Desperately and sorrowful and you hold your Head and Pray in one way or another In an earthly way or in the time that they turn your time around and you take me home again She Says Can you Take me Home again and she asked if you’d take her home and the world came again Putting your hand above your eyes eliminates Glare and I didn’t Even Like The Way She Was being When she left and I wasn’t upset and I wasn’t upset and I won’t tell anyone that you put your Hands Over your head bye the time that you left when you left there like that … The rest of the time you were with her Made you leave her as well. Well seeing is believing in all of that sense of peace and that sense of chaos I didn’t know but I heard her say it .. I heard her say it .. Yes I heard her Say it .. They all seem to resembled each other the Small buttons Which we pulled off and we think that an actor’s Face Was on them and we simultaneously Came In all directions They were scattered around her if you want me then you know where to find me he said and he made that directly accessible and I am directly in front of one kind of damage I have experienced and the time I was there, There Were no more ingredients to rise it .. All Of the plates unwashed and the time where you adhere to something new.. Something that you didn’t find out before all of it .. washed One color and then washed another yes I saw It all come Sparkling As to be one way and then to be another and then to come again with me in time and I saw her There and I saw the time I was against Everyone I spent it down there and I am home bye myself then.. I wanted to move across the floor I head a Disturbance in the other room and I Would walk out of there Thinking one thing then thinking another after that.. too
Not much more though where I thought you were going to be one kind of person and then see that you were another kind of person

I thought She hated me at one point and then just didn’t care at another point you were so tired and so done in .. he said and you made me a goner in time and there was no satisfaction Left for you as you left me there to be the one person the one truth left in me now it burnt me to the ground.

I’m sure there is a good shot in there somewhere Something coming down from the ceiling and no one worried in the day time.. just as it is .. and you got so much tragedy and misery and you only let it behave marvelously and I can’t find a reason to keep on going .. he said How will you live the way that I am .. and nothing happens in the day time.. and you will get there Early and you are shaking slowly and he just wanted a piece of pussy and some vagina and those Monsters The ones in Buckets and the ones who say that I miss you and the ones who say that they miss bill as well… Don’t they miss bill cleary and they only shot down and they only come from the ceiling and they Will all get their Together and You are only coming here to see me and this is all tragedy I became ill bye going there earlier and he is the one I leave with me if I do come here.. and you can never see how early they will walk out from you where you sat on the porch and said you didn’t want things to be this way well they are that way and you only made them be like that for your own specific reasons there will always be a mountain said bill no one seems to make it out of here no one seems to make it out of wheeling no one seems to care either and you can look down upon it .. and I won’t only see the way they world started here and I will look down on all of them .. all of these motherfuckers and these bastards when you’re looking for the one who loved them.. and you know the best is hard to get in on and you think you’ve discovered tragedy somewhat and I can see what went wrong She said I thought I had found a lover but I realize I hadn’t found much at all. All of them Come in time.. nothing on here to make it seem one way or another and the tiny bits of space from down below Going nowhere tonight going nowhere fast and you have to have some kind of mailing address for us to be able to get these things to you.. As I look across the way to you and I think it is time to find you and no one bothers our existence either. Aren’t these people horrible ? shouldn’t they just be shot she said and She heard some one ask again if they had The Time and I am the one catching myself and I am the one who tore right through her and I am the one who took not too much either and the bride came reining and she is not so complete and you all come down on Saturday and you are all incomplete and you are all the ones who Cause a hassle and you are the ones who make time to Big to be in any land and you are the ones Who’ve come To your Form Completely and you are the ones who Realized that People Don’t Love One another the way that you wanted Them too.. no one Loves anyone that way.. can’t you see that.. I can see that.. and I don’t have to be reminded of it .. again and I can get up against them and I can try to turn something around and these are just the times which cross me in this world and in this land .. says bill and only coming now on a weekend and then if I can get back to where I was.. and you were the first choice Until you did that.. And until you did this and The Rain came falling There .. and they knew there lives were about to be spared and Then in the Tense Past where bill was and he had things he had to Do today and I am the one who’s excited and I have been running like I ran here and I won’t be the one to catch her tight and you’re the one bill won’t let down …
Some other Footage and the world is ungrateful and I Am using you Said Jessica only for what I desire some other pink pussy shots and some other images of legs coming from underneath tables and some other images where they are driving a wedge between us .. Some other images of that.. and How can you stand them all of them.. and I need love like I had before and I need he love which I had.. and I need it all I am in love and I am the one Who Believed That.. and he Too.. took from me .. what he could and I couldn’t Take much anymore and you said .. it too and They are Down Bye the parked cars in Wheeling You’re hearing them all shout out He said.. and the questions are easy and we can get the yard and here is where that belongs too..
And Chance they Get to tell me I am wrong then they do and I am going to bring bill home she said.. and Bring America Home as well.. Bring it all home right and A Million People are Shouting sometimes by the foot of my house sometimes in my dream and I hope that I can move from that and they are up above and they are Only the ones In America and I am the only one too.. bringing me home now .. and you are the one Wonderful person .. and your life too is only the thing Where I bring you home .. This isn’t the only way I know you thought it was although I never thought it was…
I never thought that one way was the only way..
It is relatively easy to do one thing when you’re away from home in a time you are never able to find and a place you’re never able to discover and I wish the pictures could go on through the night where no one exists He could remember hearing that Hearing the tapes Loop constantly and you could hear yourself fall in love Because you are Just doing Fine .. and There were new thoughts in his head this day where time has broken through and the time he had bye himself without her seemed to disappear and they really call on you and some of you are about to stay behind me and you can all get in line as well..

Wheeling is multi cultural Said Jessica Where are the people though the ones from varied background and you haven’t stuck with your word entirely said Lynda where is bill Then in the mix of all of this .. and he is never leaving or starting over and he is never picking up as well either none of us ever leave here The Way we think we should when some one tells you You Should… Says Bill and then the rain which comes down hard in Wheeling the rain Which makes the day Go Faster too the most longest drawn out thing Someone has all of them out again he says.. it looks like someone has all of them out again he says referring too some of the books in the library books he opened to read in his lifetime but to no avail were they going to be his no one was ever going to let him keep the books which he wanted to read no one at all.. they will have the longer of two swords and two drills as well and the world has settled for not even knowing what it is .. She says and they are there in the cold water they are undistinguishable and they Are getting colder and colder as well and all of it upsets me In a Major way… Colors Falling again Churned out in code a new Code of Colors, One where I am covered bye blue and another where I am covered bye red and all of them have some kind of problem with me they all give me some kind of difficulty and they never tell me how to keep You or how to uphold my end of the bargain I can’t have any thing to do with myself when my time is taken away from me.. yes we’re doing some-things for ourselves now and we’re making some things seem better as well as soon as that is done we’re going to think of the other things as well and as soon as you have one can you burn The other, I will burn the rest of them says senior I’ll burn the rest of wheeling I don’t want much to do with those fucks anyhow so I would like to see them burn you know that I want to see those sons of bitches end up in hell senior said it once don’t make him say it again. Here are the blanks which I need for you to fill in if they are blank than everything else is blank as well. Yes you’ve seen them Before you’ve sent for them What are you going to do now.. she says… What are you going to do … He asked me then turned away as well.. And What were the films he Say .. The ones they Showed Him it showed him up in a way.. too.. Yes I know that it did cause him some kind of pain and now if you’re pain you won’t get any sympathy from me anyhow … she said .. none from me .. you hear that because I am so upset as it stands I am upset as it stands and angry as it is … you might have got some a long time ago from me but definitely not any at this point.. yes She Says.. do you want some other sympathy from me too.. To a point though a certain point I know there is no such thing as that.. once it has proven to be wrong then there is not a point to trying to get it back..

They never put us back the wind it seems IT never Leaves us and we trip out merrily She said .. and you can see us all blocking parts of ourselves off and please take time give us all time… Where we need time… And then where you can afford too.. fill some things in For us… Fill a Little Bit in for us.. and you’re the Only personal Friend I’ve had.. and telling stories to People And the Time Where the Floor Gushed with Water Where she was running across it as well and when everything was wrong and her patience.. took off too .. and you can see that they’re going to Make her a goner … A real Goner Will you even allow her to hold my hand… She said.. yes I will allow you my Favorite Time in the world and the world came out of bed and the time there made it all go wrong as well and I came inside where I was placing any blame on them either and after a while I saw them all smile … I saw them all smile and take turns shining in the darkness as well and we waited for you didn’t we … We Did wait .. Yes .. you all did wait and it is something which I appreciate she said … She was sitting at a blue Desk Holding a red Telephone as She Spoke to the other end .. You’re all I need now.. You’re all I need and I can see how I feel Blue and I Feel Blue and Cause the World is the way it is … What a Small Sad Tune of Time and Triumph as well … And yes the world Came in the blue From Shevelton and the Whole time on the End of the Phone after a certain Point were you even on the other end anymore… And where are you Now and you smile and I was alone With you.. and you promised something to me you promised that and you didn’t come through with it. Don’t you love me as the person I was before and wouldn’t you love me at all.. I am sure there is A Love there.. and the Way they Pitted all of them against you…. And you would hold your Head out high and I am there the world out high and we seem to understand and I am there to feel the awful awful crawl from one end to the other if I have to do it this way Will he make you crawl across the floor and the Films they most commonly find show grown men Fucking babies… Can You believe that.. Grown Men Fucking Infants God She Said isn’t that Horrible .. Why does it have to be Like that.. so upsetting so depressing.. to me as well… Here is how most people do it find someone to blame their current situation on didn’t you ever care who you blamed it on… I don’t know what to do .. there were just damages the charges made said to damage us do you want them to pay some kind of compensation… I saw you looking good one morning she said to her.. he saw us all sitting bye a statue and I love you more now then life the way I loved life… only more comes on to Be How it is … I am the one here to Be the one here.. and you’re Different from me .. you’re just different from me.. you can’t be what you want to be anymore… the night and the suit of armor too.. They Both Pulled apart.. we all pulled an all nighter and there were no close friends.. a lot of close friends… and you were all there .. Guns Stored With Knifes near where a Car was parked in West Virginia Modern day .. The time There too.. and he was there too Maybe you think something is wrong at home .. nothing is wrong at home .. the only thing wrong with home is home.. she said.. we’re the ones who were doing these things although nothing is wrong as we’re doing them.. as we bleed them and make them be something which they obviously never want to be More and more of who you were and what you ran from.. and you can only be in a car now .. you were down there as one of the kids with cancer and he was one of those kids too… He Looked like them and resembled them and he was one of them And he was the hero the great big hero right up there high up there and he never had too much to copy and he never did anything but pull the string out of there and he only left them bye a thread and he only left them that way.. and you will resemble him and you may wonder who he was .. and He Only Called Out to see who he was… and the time they had there was near the church down near the old end of town and the tree stopped the tire stopped too he stopped the tires down bye there He wanted to make sure there were no survivors and he wanted to make sure no one saw his life any better than it was now and we’re all just crazed from something Just masturbating for it .. all of it .. and we’re all laying down everything we have for Jessica .. we have all we need for her. He looked ahead and he saw that most lies were brilliant and this was the first time he saw them here and you might have to change things and see him and see that it is easy to leave.. and the world must never run proud and no one ever moves under ice under no on is ever held underneath there and the tracks you take too you took them down to the water and the light you saw your head gave in too.. and they just lie and wait too .. and my shower Crushes my thoughts and the world wants ice and the shed and the cooler he was locked in as a child looking down to things in the may have been success and you are the easiest one to leave and to be left behind as well to nothing else and I see the light fading out as well that feeling I get when I look at her and I find it in my heart and it is all tugging on me and I have nothing to Live here With you for .. and I told you how much I love you didn’t I tell you over and over and I was down there on my knees again and again and I might have left my heart open and I may have hidden it somewhere as well.. and you may have succeeded in changing me .. and it is easy and you are never going to leave the time of day out to fry and bill Cleary too .. she thought of him and we know he will roast now he will be left out to roast and he will Be left for dead and he’s what is easily done to People they are made to be the way he is.. he is hungout to dry and he picked them up and threw them over his back and he walked on as well.

I think about you and the ones who were killed in a fire and there world was burnt down and the whole house around them as well and it was burnt man to the ground there was nothing complex about it or anything and the night the owl the whole owl and what do you think about that.. and I am the one sucker the one heart half closed and the whole time my hand was exposed I beat that hand the one that left me for No One But Me But Myself and the one who is the Sole survivor of Life again as well.. and he Dressed in his own distress and he Thought of me Somewhat and he thought of me so much other than me who was lonely.. and he Thought of me who thinks of me no one thinks of me anymore .. The Days Separate The wishes Separate Hey Bill Cleary you don’t have to be afraid and the way the world is you don’t have to be afraid either and Then dad and bill cleary did it for the kids Dad and bill for the kids only for the kids..
Don’t put my favors off you’ve got mouths to feed though he said I have bill cleary to feed as well and I can never see the time As you run around so young and the world from home is a long long way.. and Then bill was down there hoping for the apple the world is a long long way to cross him Some of the Trees They were pulled out of the ground they were a long long Way now too.. from the rope and the side effects and And The time From Bill When he was lonely Jessica Was down there too Can you show me something that is naked I want you down there as well and I am sorry that our last words were bad ones and I am so young now .. he said .. And my Life as a person is lost and Only Holding and apple if you waited As Long as eternity no one would really walk through that door and you seem to not be able to get anymore Things Out of your life as a scientist and a Homemaker as well As long as you’re down in Wheeling Where You are down because if you’re in Wheeling you’d have to be down and the world was broken with the back of a Flea and the Science of the realization which bill had… That realization From the time being and from the time Onward didn’t bill become something that he didn’t want to be and he was on the train Weren’t we all on the train couldn’t we see who we were as we were coming around again.

He saw her in the back the next time at a table and her hair was dark now, and she came up to him to say he looked beautiful, There was something other than that too from so long ago Some pain from before when there was nothing and all of them saying you’ve really got your life together now and he didn’t feel as if he did .. He felt the same pain he’d felt before His Life again tossed out that terrible longing near the darkness the end of night All through it actually If You See her Say Hello He said… Remember all of the pain I never came through The pain which I never got over Either and he is even there in the world of people he looked at See who they are The world Sees who they are.. sometimes They Look back on it.. and you wonder if you can Come from the Dark. I remember in Wheeling when I was down and I had no home at all and no one cared either I remembered that and the smell of rubber burning all over the edges of Cards and the Decks he through down and I can never look over the total obstacles ahead of me and you and I can go over there and we will still go nowhere and I can’t even remember before what it felt like She put her arms around him and he remembered what it was like to once have all of that and then to lose it all the next moment and he knew how hard it was .. all of it.. and I know that it is difficult and he’d spent most of his life trying to make those times hurt less.. But still they hurt so bad.. And none of them tied up In Leather and the world smelled Like pain and there were tear drops in Her Eyes and here is the best piece of Life and love again too the total opposite of one thing is the remembrance of Something a lot Less The same as the pain he felt and the nights were so long as he’d left everything Behind .. Somehow she made him realize there was nothing behind him though that it was all an illusion and he Came over to the Bed room across from hers Was where He came from the darkness and always Made them Pay for some things and I made them all pay for my memories and I know the world Was the only thing I’d ever make up now I left it all behind me Down Near where they’d tried to suffocate Me And they Fastened me in a blanket and almost tried to smother me entirely As I was Rolling in the darkness and I was even inside of there For a while the time I had never lit up did it I Wanted to See the world As a friend of mine but never as an enemy but the world is too Young and I am here again One night in the room where there were three windows and one more night I Looked across the board and the chute at a Deck of Monitors There was a face on Each a pigs Face and they will never know the whole entire direction The Face of the Pig Became the Face of a Woman And her Wig was powdered and A Mole Painted on her face it lingered Some where in between that some time I recall now I threw a Dagger and pierced into the Screen and you really need me to recall that… You really need me to recall all of that.. Some one Came out of the screen also and they Had a Huge Head and There Was only one eye in the center of that A Small Red dot and I was tossed off of The plank as well a Couple of People Passed the octopus over the deck She was on the plank Riding on the plank and when I first saw you I would have made your life look grimly and pass half of that when I do .. and I lose my mind now .. he recalled I lost my mind over her and I lost it again… We Walked down the street together holding hands and that was when I knew it was free and I am coming around for you he said .. She hugged me as we ducked into a corner I miss you She said .. I felt the same way but I half felt cold too I half felt cold as well the reason I felt cold was even though I guess I had abandoned her It was really the reason that I Knew She’d abandoned me .. it definitely hit me hard at that moment when her Arms were around me and I saw you The first time He recalled I lost the end of my mind There … The octopus and the Circle of whales they were coming around in a circle and you can lose your mind over her if you want to But I will have not part of That I have never heard of anyone Being above anyone else and I have never heard of anything Getting looser Than It would had been if she hadn’t held me there and fastened it around me. The way which you swayed up in a box and sealed him off in there… He had another hard dream and then he woke up under something as well… The Whole vision he wanted to be one way .. he then tried to make it another The Men made of Wax and the men made somewhere higher up as well. Somewhere higher up these men are the only friends of His the only ones to come right out and confront him and The ones to follow and the ones He would consider to be the best friends of his and the worlds and only you can make my world seem bright and then only you can Hear the Sound of hers The one in her head and the one which was Galactic Again too.. She called up to just hear what I would say and what I would do and I would never call Her again and I would never even hear a voice she said .. She did call my name I can remember the first time in a long dress which she lifted up over herself at a party and you could even get the one part of it to me .. and the cross on his chest and then it would be so much fun and the world of wet beds too… The World Where Piss runs rampant.. And the smells are bad as well the cross they’re crossing the bridge and the Bridge is the thing you back down from and you don’t have anything this way now and I do have some things this way and I can only straighten them out as I did here With Jessica… “Jessica” I remember saying again this is so nice I am so glad that you could do this with me and this is so much fun… I remember one time when I was down I slept against her again and it would all be so much fun now too and the World Only Exists As that Was.. and He even came up against glue too … His head smashed and part of it Glued on..
“The Decision.”
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She made to not see him again… and not want to speak with him and not want to hear his voice. I could tell that she made that Decision and that she was pretty happy with her decision And that She wanted to See his head stuffed in bag after some people said that they wanted to beat him to death some people who wanted to kill him she was happy Or would have been at one point to assist them. The cars again on the road in west Virginia the slope which they were coming down there was nothing for you at that point and nothing for me either and I have nothing for you no prince of The Time when you were down and you don’t have anything for me anymore either no hard luck To where The face of mine you wore either Way was the worst luck which I had and I would never Even Let them Stay up in Here.. with me .. I would want to get them out of my head and Get them out on time makesure they weren’t causing any more damage He wanted to bring all of the boys out of there On time and make sure they could do no more Damage and the world was as black as you thought it was .. And the world was The Enemy the one hiding there in the dark as well. I Hid therein the dark and I was crushed bye the cold color Don’t you owe me Something now She said to Me… I thought you owed me Color More of that Ran around my head and Disturbed Me Own my end I was disturbed bye it all of the Men There were Disturbing to me .. he said… I will show you a world alone To it all too . A world all alone to what you perceive It To Be and the world is as black as any color and the world was the one thing you showed us where we were envious of what had happened Before My Life as any idiot as A Real big dummy as a person who wanted to get all of the things out there at once I have Told people one thing and not much wants me to make them want to tell another thing to them I don’t get back here on any days.. and I don’t ever come close to things on these days… I never even run away from them never No One Closes In on the glass here and wonders what it is .. And wonders what they should do with the Glass here and wonders What they can sever From Me the ties as well the broken ties the glass which I am held down bye And don’t Be Guilty For it.. and I never have been guilty for it and you made me an offer you couldn’t break away from or that you deal with Said Bill and he world came like my tumor .. and I dealt with all of it .. now physically speaking There Was No humor in it There was no humor in much of it .. there was no humor in the way which you held the world down and which you got the world to do what you wanted it to do.
The Way down to the shore He was there and he was content with what was going on around him and he even made everyone seem like they were the new people and he got her To run back and be something that she didn’t want to be anymore She became this person who he wanted her to be not who she wanted to be .. long after he’d worn out his welcome. Then down to the point Now Back In Wheeling as he was open for the warm reception when all the people greeted him but not too many of them even knew he was it was because of that moment that he longed for some new kind of comfort that he was not aware of before that That he’d never known of before.





I knew what was happening in one part of the world or the other the whole day was gone soon… The whole day was gone and the ideas we all had were true and the Carousal was falling down and I was there to get it shortly and I was there To get it Harder I called her up another time and I wondered if she’d been upset with me.
“No, Why Would I Be?” She said
another girl screaming at me in the background Now dreams about A Forest on fire and someone Running through the background and someone else Looking for a way out And looking and looking and looking for a way out and it all felt so right and Then The Time again and I watched them through the night He said .. I see them all come in … Some people who just seem like dots I see them running one way to reach the water then coming back here to put the fire out. The black Dots all burning in the fire They’re high up in this Cage.
Someone is smiling now He is smiling in the cage next to her near where it went down and everything is fresh from the source or too And he even became his own enemy bye large and everything was large at this source and I wish him so much luck he always thought about himself … And he needs a reason to play the colors again he always puts those on himself and he has a place which over looks the darkness and I hear them near the night He Keeps it all to himself and I know the room and the Color of the room when the sun goes down who is going down on them in wheeling Who will let the darkness break the world and set it up…
I have other dreams often too of a man in a room the Man in the room and I hope that you get it right and I know the world is a spell and I hope you get it right and I hope you get it right and I Hope the world comes out of where it was .. and you believe who you were as well and see him here tell him who he is .. Supposed to be .. and I am going to have to save her again and see her face spelled out in more blood See her face spelling out in more blood again.. there’s the fact of who He’ll have to use to get what he wants… He can Use Eli Hubbard and he Can use bill cleary all he Wants When there’s death here There’s no death and no way getting out of it… Some other time There he walked across town and he felt them all breaking in on the shore Again And the whole Bit of time Felt magic and the Whole Time he was in town was magic to Him.. and some of the people you meet there too…
He Only Came one certain way for her There was no other way that he could come and he wanted it to be somewhat ambitious And he held the whole day in his hand in a vice too Hoping that it Would work out one way and not work out another She ended As Being the kind of person he couldn’t reach Upfront From maybe a distance Only … He’d thought Though Just The Same.

Another side down bye water and another image projected bye her .. near there… --she was leaning against blackness with her Face clear and projected there were images of Pain and death too.. the same images came on down the top of the line they were projected from there These same images and this strange passion and a Different lock will be put there and A different strain on things…. I was laying in one kind of car one kind of locker one kind of different vision of light and death and one –the one Locker Where he locked everything up against them… He was never prone to do that the same images Up there against the wall up there Where there was no hope at all… will we get back in the world The other one from Wheeling where I seek things out The same time .. Andy Reed Came to see me to rescue me.. and I was the same person as I was .. And I didn’t know what was wrong with you in the world .. and we can all be fucked up.. I never knew it .. though.. I never knew how fucked I was.. he said…. Then they called up the people in Wheeling and asked them who They Wanted to fuck …
He always wondered who they wanted to fuck and his central nervous system was so fucked up.. too… I remember coming down I split my back… Too.. for a long time Crushing through my lugs I had to come down and break my back again and the world broke my back when I was down and out For the Count you should have searched something Out That you wouldn’t have searched for before I Love them all now All til the death and all of that straightened out for a time for the time being.. where are you going now to the end of the road in Wheeling.. he even saw us as people The history of the world Explained to you.. The people think it’s all a mistake and I believed every word Of it he thought I believed every word Of what Andy Reed Told me ..
He told me … to come dangling on a wire .. and come moving in on the world …. He came home .. To the world … he even let me know—Some of Us capsized in a Raft And some of us turned … Over—The monster made us capsize in the boat … We’re coming in through the storm… Some one said it’s still out there… and he came to see us then home.. Andy Reed .. You heard me didn’t you see Her, I saw Amber Reed In the hallway … I was in the hallway .. I was in the hallway.. Someone came out of the blue that was swirling… I came home …. To See the world grabbed us … I once Saw Amber … Reed… in the closet of her dad’s house she was there with the scars on her back and her head swinging down… She was there crying… In the dark … Her face was sad … After he hit her He had caused her a lot of pain… she was in pain the most pain she was in The world Was coming in The Down … side of the world .. Was that andy reed held us hostage and you got to remember that There was no Way .. of escaping… of the end of The World ..
The world Was coming here to See me one time even when I got back to my parents house he was there He even came there and pulled on me took me out of bed and blamed everything on me And no one else would help me no one else would help me except for amber Reed there was no one There to Help… me – Some of the Colors Were Swirling … and the dark and distance of the Shed and the light was coming in through the shaft … on the wall… The light was hanging there … next passed out near the darker tree .. and the shade… I was in the forest again I remember Her She was in The closet.. locked in the forest near the darker street .. Eiteniville and I am hear … to the world .. just you near The World… Even then he came and lost all of the things He once saw…
I was up In The Light
There was a light up in the window
I am there hanging on
To the ends of Andy Reed’s Life Who they came to see the friends of … You shot her in the back of the head there was some kind of confrontation here in Wheeling some fight we had some passing Problem … the problems are where we’re in the one room .. and he beats us over and over again And holds the knife to his daughters Face and then pushes my Face into a Mattress.. and tries to smother me with my Face … Down in it… The mesh in there with my skin.. I could feel some of the needles that we’re left on the pillowcase and the ones scattered on the floor too they cut into my face and I can’t ever get off of the floor now I felt some of them pierce near my eyes… this kind of suffering and myself .. I remember Amber Reed’s Face the light against it The same soft Light the hard light too all the menacing softness and the world Again The gargoyles and the time of the menace and the suffering andy reed ran me up a wall.. Saw humps Disappearing in the water a lot of cold now .. Some blurry shapes in he water According to frame rate and Shutter Speed and Then the daughters of everyone Orange water running down the hillside coming from andy reed’s house The Ice From hills large Sickles –“Is There Anyone left here?” –
I remember wondering – Some large bits of darkness Some small lights Ovals Or Circles –I remember looking into an opening and seeing the steps also The stairs Completely Brushed Anew –In Winter –There are bells ringing, some parts of a body Then gliding through the dark. I can never feel pain anymore –The Only Day That was bad … was this one left alone –Green lights coming Down –Again Then the safe Place… --There are bits of Light Flashing.. through the trees and the foliage …
Up on the hill now away from everything and away from all the causes of god and the things which cause cancer and what not the causes of all bad things and the ways where everything dies everything gets put down in this country and the world dies again like a man without any reason the world dies like that man and what century is it in … what century do you die in and how do you Live… the glasses and cups the time which has accumulated and the way they said that they may swear and I am going to cause things to be in pain and we’re going to cause things to be in pain at any Time now the possible pain is there it comes through and the days move again past me now and there are new things that we have to face as well and maybe some day we can get rid of all of these things and maybe someday we can be happy without them we can be happy without everything that holds us down.
Never in Wheeling I never saw you there I never saw the person that you were I was never sure if you were that person either and you know the only time I became a man carrying a car now too The one who holds it underneath his arm the one who makes things right it doesn’t make things right though to do them any other way and you are all alone in the way the world is hard tonight and the world will observe your pain says andy Reed the world will observe your pain and the time where I move on the run The time where I move on the run and the time where I run out anyhow and the time he came to give me the friends I’d made the ones who seems like mankind and the ones who seem as if they are friends as well and what do we do in our life and what do we do now there’s not much we can make do without Andy Reed even if we’re not sure who he is. Telling himself that someday he’ll be free again and someday he’ll be free from the weather That held him down in Wheeling and the month that you appear and the month that you held everything in and the way that you felt in Wheeling and the way that bad things became the reality of everything The reality of all the things which were bad and the world is a Situation Which Andy Reed Caused He caused The negativity of it all if he could let us not be disturbed and he would never let us not be disturbed and the situation We Held hands through the world Won’t let us not be disturbed Andy Reed is the thing that won’t let us disturbed and the man who caused himself to be in pain is Andy Reed he’s the one who caused himself to Be in Pain and you’ll remind me when not to Be Hurt bye all of it .. and you’ll remind me when not to Walk down the steps in Wheeling Each Step I take is one to my Death and one that I will be held in Hatred for and I Will hate you all you all will hate andy reed You all will hate him for who he is .. and you are my favorite and my favorite not to be seen as a senior and the world never makes anyone Cut Like a Razor at all And you will need some things to pretend all of the time.. and you will need some friends too And you will need the People Who are having sex with all of You The ones who killed you Before are the ones who killed you now still and the ones who came up short on everything the ones who came up short For their Own Lives Some of them were even unable to save their own lives Oh How we Should pity Them and how we should make them feel as if they don’t deserve to live at all and if they’ll never be friends Of the People who are Unable to live then those People won’t be friends of Andy Reed’s Either and he’ll hate us all Anyhow He’ll hate us all Anyhow Andy Reed will always hate us he’ll never be free of his hate of us .. and you’ll never know the disgrace He Bestowed upon you The disgust also the world where he came in disgust and the world where you made him think of you yet you were still holding yourself down and the world was holding you back down too and you just held yourself there a little while longer.
They’ll all offered to help Him in the life where he lives in Disgrace The live where he Kills himself and the world where he Only kills himself On the opposite end of One thing and lets Andy Reed Come Into Another and the world will make Andy Reed happy he’s living well these days I hear and the world will kill him Through the rope he dangles on and the rope He Dangles on is the one Which comes Dangling Down and if Andy Reed isn’t out of there within Six days Then we’re going to have to come and bring him down and we’re never going to let him be the person he thought He was thoroughly and if he loved himself then it would make him happy But he never loved me and he Never Loved Amber Reed Either and I hope you can feel Pain now The pain of us looking into you I felt Like saying to Him… The hard things he used against us and the hard things He Made us feel and the time he put you up in a cage and you were the one who worked against Andy Reed and you Have to feel Pain now Some of the pain you felt was definitely Caused bye Andy Reed but in am not sure what the other pain was from and I am sure you’ll let me feel that pain again Too. The world or the things which it consists of will also pay all of you will pay for what you’ve done and all of you will give me a hard time and all of you will forever Linger in there and I heard you’re getting me good and the time I had another look at Andy Reed and he’s ashamed of you and I will never be the person who’s been here Before That The Pain the Pain will eclipse The pain of me From the First time Who was I the first time Who did I become and who did I make my way to here As and I am here and I get so much from you that I forget who you are… Another Story Andy Reed On an Island somewhere after he’d built a beach in his yard after he’d taken it all too far and how much he didn’t want us to have it work out and he Never caused us to celebrate The place where he planted everything and made sure everything was alright and can you see how he appears here you can see that he’s the person the Peter Pan the one that you Don’t want around Though The one who you’ll wonder around with and I’ve been Waiting around for Andy Reed For a Long time and the Road was long and swift and it should take me out of here too and it won’t take me to a Place where I can be free of him though will there ever Be a Place Like That Where I am done with all of this and I swear if I feel the way That You feel then I’ll know that god’s done with me as well and I broke down and took andy Reed With me I’ll have to take him with me and hold him for ransom as well and makesure he never becomes the person Who I want to be here and I will make sure He Shakes His Penis In a Different Direction and that no on Lets him escape From here Alive and that no ever lets him escape from here and that no One Knows The person that he ever is. I would like to think that it was all Alright and that I was one person who would not think of The bad the ultimate bad what is Andy Reed and what is something else bad as well and all The things Which are bad and isn’t there someone I can get those things from .. I don’t think there’s someone I can get those things from I think there are just people who will Kill me for that He said and I remember the Way people looked at me here and the Way people wanted me to be .. and the way they put me down and then I remember What They thought of me and I remember The Autograph That He Signed One Says Andy Reed and it’s Written In our flesh and we’re made to feel Like Fools for who We Remember Being.

Up Above There trying to break free now Free of Andy Reed and the person Who He Thinks I Deserve to Be and the pain he thinks I deserve to Feel and the violence he’s about to bring into my Life and the pain I awaken with and the Best advice he ever had to give me the advice That I would not Live as the person I thought I Was and then Since my Embarrassment Was gone after all of the violence all of the abuse and then you Can Only Get it someone Else’s name you can only clear Your name for the sake of someone else’s and you can Never know of your disgrace and Andy Reed Will Leave it for us He’ll Knock us to the ground and make us think we’re people Who Will Pay in life and he’ll invent a new kind of Way of Living From the Source of Pain Until right now and you’ll feel him Rape us again and Then he’ll Be Removed from the Pain he felt and he will be removed From that pain didn’t you Claim you were the person who everyone Put Down Therein Wheeling and then if the Tree Guides you it guides you safely and I have Done This so many times and I have done This more times then you would have thought that I would have done it and I would feel The time where Andy Reed feels freer than He did before and he never knew a spot to Drop something off on and he never understood Either He never understood why I was in these Spots of darkness and he never understood That I was this Person Either The One left alone In The dark and he managed to be the person who you left there he was The one they thought was dead. The time that you’re waiting in is Just priceless and the time Where you used courage was priceless too and the time where he Even made So much of it Come back to Them was the time when they had it all turned on too and the time Of day now where you made it as a person and you only drew on Coffins and you only made one mistake and you only had one kind of Misunderstanding and we could’ve been doing worse and no one Understands This Place I am in .. I know it as Wheeling but what do they know it as and who do they think they can hurt that way who else do they think that they can put down like this and you will only ever be afraid also I guess you’ll just be afraid forever and whatever happens in life is Pretty Good From now On Says Amber Reed We’re past The bad Part And I don’t think we are though I think it’s just begun and the time here in reality where I have to make ends meet and I have no other way out Of That too it all makes me think of the time with Andy Reed and the Voice Of Pain and the one of reason as well and a certain voice coming through to you and the time he got back he even came On The Coffins and you are there for a while for the time you killed the culprit the one in the coffin and the one who’s day you knew you’d die during. I guess Andy Reed Thinks He can kill us with kindness or Make Something Different happen or make someone Else He Doesn’t Know Feel bad He’ll make that person feel bad Then he’ll turn it around on me then he’ll make me feel bad for him he’ll make me wish I never lived and he will make me regret my existence and my only time here will be the time where I am sad And you want to take the Time to Leave us Be the Person We are If you can believe it And Be the person you thought We Would be if we can’t be that person then what good are we.


We’ll they stuff it in me or hate me for having it stuffed in me.. It Was after all Andy Reed’s cock his huge bleeding cock.. and the way that it was hard it was hard unlike any other cock that I’ve seen Man that thing is mammoth I said .. I had never seen one like that.. all of us wondered about it now .. and the only trouble about it and the only problem was that his cock was perfect and that his cock had made me cry some and I had never felt so hurt bye someone’s cock before as I did bye his I felt really bad now and I felt like I couldn’t get rid of the taste or smell of his cock and the time I spent with his sex Really set me off I was really tired of the smell of his sex and I didn’t know what to do with it now… The stones they threw at the monsters and the stones he threw to me he threw them back to me and I was always upset and I was always lost in my tears awash there for a long time now down among them.. and start telling me so I don’t care and you can Never tell me that it’s ok can you … can you ever tell me that it is.