Goal Beyond

The Light Today, finally!

2011-04-03T16:29:00.000-07:00

The Last time around ME

The last time around her
near
you again

everything up
straight

not bent over again

or slightly slouched

i was in a hell i thought

saw myself in a Mirror and a cloudy
dark sky
and a friendship

The mirror
where
i saw
it and licking
constantly
fucking licking
up
and down
and in a joy too
the patience

of sex
saw
two legs
open
one around my neck and the joy i had for it too

not to take that away
was
great he said and i said i love it all i love all o f it i think

i think
i always
will
next
there
here on her
stomach
she
was laying
i kissd
her
neck
moved
that
hand along
her ass
the other
reached up
between
her legs

up over Labia
and
asshole

i heard the light coming
these
spiders
in the walls
the day light
blaring
against a letter unwritten
in
the morning
i heard the scuttle again

one breast hanging out from
within
the white robe !

Gay Dads

2010-09-08T14:36:00.000-07:00

No Choice(to Carrie Battle)

Beams Against rocks his gasp for breath his last time he strangled for air then the last time he came across the wall

And he wondered who he was

And I wondered as well I wasn’t sure I didn’t think

I only see the light

In motion it sets its time in motion it sets its time up quite well

He set me up quite well too

I held on to you quite well
And I wanted to know who you are

Now I am glad that I do he said

Only When we talk then we hear the cows moving over the fields

And we hear the men moving over them too

He said that’s about it that’s about you

Not about me I think

He said

He said that’s not about me

I said I knew it always was

The same way I would describe it would just
Be that way
I think but who the hell would be The room
Is
He and I hear
The room is he
And I hear too we hear it all
We
Always
Say
No one
Knows
Do they
And no one runs away

I felt that same
Snap
She
Said she’ll
Be drained
And come back as the a flock of birds that’s what will
Snap
Her
Out of it she’ll
Implode
Against the light
And then
They
Will
All implode
Against the light
I will implode
Against the light
Too

He said I will feel the thing that drains me and I will feel the room
That drains me
He said
I only
Come
Here
To see
All the light and the light again and the women who
Call me
Up
Again
And the men who said
Oh
Wait
You aren’t alive
You
Are tossed out
Yes I said I know I am
He
Said yes
I
Do know that I am but do you know
That you are too
Yes
You
Will
Always
Know that you are
And he said
I will always
Know
That I am
The thing
Is will
You
Know who you
Are if you end up
Destroyed
There
He said
I know I will know what I know about you

The same disease as the one that Got Them all( To Bobby Sands)

I had to thank you
I thought even though we’d never meet
For the fact
That you reminded me the value
Of what I had to
Lose to be who I am now
That
Was a hard thing
Birds outside
A window
Bars that hold you
In and hold me in too
Since
I refuse as did you
To
Be held down bye some thing
That thinks it’s greater than you
Are and
I
But
We were lucky
To
Learn that
It
Wasn’t
That it was just the same
As
Us
You
Had no fear in the end
When
You
Transcended it
Either
Do I
Now
I figured
Fuck
Them
All
Most of them
Won’t care
What I felt
But a lot will thanks to you
They Said Where , Now (for Andrea Musher)

Holding on he thought but why should I have to do that ?

I once wondered why I should have to
And
Then
I realized that none of us
Had any choice
If
Any of us
Did then we wouldn’t know it

Now we know that none of us
Have that choice to make
We
Know
Who we all are
We know that none of us
Love us
And we that none of us
Know who I am
But I know who all of you are
I know that
All of you
Must make sure
That I get
What I want
When
I turn the tables
I said
I will
Turn
The tables
He said
I only
Can go on
He said
Yes
I can only go
If I turn these tables
If I can
Only
Go
On
Then
Let
Me
Go on

I saw the red light
Hit the black
Light
Make
Sure it
Hits
That light
An d make sure
That
Light
Hits
Whats
There
Right in front of it
We
Won’t
Hide
In
Cars
There
Won’t
Be anything
Else
No one
Else
Will
Make us disintegrate
The
Way
I did in front of you

Just
Make
Sure
That
We make sure
That it’s not us

Light Moving in slowly

2010-07-23T12:03:00.001-07:00

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2010-07-23T11:58:00.001-07:00

To:
"Che Elias"
What was the drugs?

I dated PIC, they got me good....

Sweltering at home now,

tomorrow early evening, Kellys, what time?

Date,
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New Work inspired by Amber Reed

2009-11-24T02:14:00.001-08:00

Every Man For Himself_ to Amber

I heard You call my name

I wanted to see your face

I Know I can’t now

I Miss when I could

I think of all I’ve lost now

And I feel bad

I feel regret when I do so

And I know

I can’t do much else with myself

I can’t do much else with myself

There’s no time left

There’s no hope for me either

There’s nothing in my life

Now

I think

Then I stop feeling bad for myself

And I love things

I think

I Love you

I remember I used to

Don’t really know you now

I don’t think

I can live in the same way knowing that as I lived before

A more pure

Life

A fear too

Always pushed

Always pushed

The way

They drove me

Away the

Nail

They drove into me

He said

I only heard your voice

I don’t know of anyone

I don’t know of anyone

I only know

You’re the one

I think

Set me free now

I say

But when

I ask you / too

Now know it won’t be in the way that I asked before

I was weak then

I am strong now

I hate
People
Even more though

I feel
Even more disgust

Especially
For men

I just can’t stand to be around them

I want to take them and hurt them

And cut them up

For gods sake

I say

Only make me lay down

This is no way

Out

This is all fake

They hurt you the same as they hurt me

And We

Had in common that it didn’t

Sink in for either of us til a lot later

Never did

I have never known

Anyone

Like you

And how you’ve made me breathe

As I resented you when you were gone

I was only saying to myself

I hate her

I hate
Her

All I really wanted was to have you back

See your face
One last time

Turn around and smile

See you in the dark

But I don’t believe in happiness

God damn it

I have never heard a voice like yours

I have to tell you that they’ve all come at me

Not that they knew me

Or that they knew any better

You’d probably say

Fuck them

Wouldn’t you

Tell them

That they know nothing of me

And that you know I’ll show them what I’m made of

I can do that now

I mean I really can do that

I can show these fucks

Move them up against the wall

I’ll tell them to take a long hard look at me

The fuck me up the ass

They can cut my tongue off

They can cut out both of my eyes

They can screw me in the throat

And castrate me if they want

They won’t kill the inside of you Though

The one you left inside of me

Fuck Them all

Let them do it

I just have to say

That I don’t care

I never did

I never did

In fact I like it now

I wanted to tell you

What I think of now

Is all the men

I can take down with me

And You know the funny thing

There doesn’t seem to be any that are Worth it

No good enemies

No good friends though either

For me

Now

I think

Then I remember that’s just me being bitter

And I am thinking of some other time

When there weren’t any just

He

Who’d pinned us to the

Wall

To

The

Floor

To the whole fucking Planet spinning out of control

Shit

Will you

Just let me cut

My own Throat

Are

You

In

Danger

Anger

Are you

In hate

Like Me

I hate everyone

And him most of all

But

He’s kind of like these

Other

Fuckers

Who I see

All around me

Every day

It’s

Give me this

Give me that

Let me give them some advice

From you

It’s good that they can ask

But they won’t really get what they want that

Way

I don’t think even they know what they need

Do you think

I can bleed a little more

Sit in the dark

Cut my ties

Fall

Fall

Fall

And be reborn

I think

I can

I’ll come back to life

Thru Her Cunt

Her whole

Pussy

Blood and fire

Let it
Smother
Me

Let it eat
Me
Alive

That’s one to go out

Where are you now?

In the field

It was green

You had the building behind you

You’ve

Had

All

Of

Life

You’ve

Had

All

Of

Me

Moreso than

Anyone else has

You

Know

What Else

I

Still

Don’t

Want to

Believe

In hope

I need to think about my life now

2009-11-24T01:01:00.000-08:00

As We Walk On –(To Amber Reed)

I remembered you from the old room

Where I can only scuttle in now

Once in a while

I remembered you

When I only had fear

And when I didn’t have hope

When I didn’t think I ever would

Not that I do now

Not that I only can recall the last bit of it

He took it and shot it

And he took it all

They said I let them take it

That I made them do it

Yes I can believe that

I said

I only made them like me more

He said

I only can

Feel like your that person

I am there now

Remember the old room

The one near the edge of the house bye the window

Where day lit up

And the world expanded

I don’t want to think that anything is over

Now do I

I want to know now I think

The future too

This was no joke then

Though and isn’t now

You go forth as do

I

But I wondered if we do together

How I got all of the fear out of me

He said

I only got that fear in me

Man I really got it

It really hit me hard

Harder than anyone every hit me

I’m that kind of person

I heard of you

Before

We were in love

It was hard to lose you

It was all I knew I think

All of it tore me up

I think

Yes

Now

Real bad

I am not feeling bad now

And I am not feeling fear

In fact now

I regret nothing

And I love you

Too

Still I think

Remember the house I walk bye

Your face is destroyed like the face of everyone else

They all blur into one

When I done in the end

Yes

I am done now

I can’t wait to say that

And mean it

No Way Home –To Amber Reed

If I could hold you there now

I think

I

Would

Want

To

Be

Back there

It was the first time I ever saw anything else around me

The field near me opened up

Very wide

And I felt the ground beneath me tremble

I felt the rope come down too

Right around my neck

Where it is now

Where I always liked it

Where I only felt like here is the hate of my life

And my disgust too

How in the hell

Are you that person

I can always say

I know you are too

Moving out now

When I think of you

I only hear

You

I hear them too

But they don’t know me

They think they can

Control me

They think they can break me

And they can take everything away

I think I am in here
To
Be
Bye myself

I think that for a while

I am lonely now

I only turn ice around

I feel the marks on my face

I feel the end of my tongue

I feel
Like

I need to feel
The blood
Again

Run thru me

I feel the confusion though too

Of not knowing where to turn

And no one knows me here

And then

Something else

Opens up

Around me and

I don’t care if they don’t

Tell them

To Get Fucked

Fuck Them !

I heard myself say
It

They Won’t Know what it Them

But the sad part is either Will I

I won’t know either

I will live to regret it though

The only thing

Is I am just

Not sure

If they will

How will I know if they do

I won’t

I will

Just come around
Again

Near

You

Bye

Myself

Where I left them before

Thinking about the past

2009-11-24T00:41:00.000-08:00

All The Beds Sour Without Sheets (for Amber Reed)

I Only heard hope gets ahead of itself

I think life thinks about weighing down on us as well

I think fear makes me regret my life

And I can’t use any instance of it now

I can’t do much with it either

I can’t leave much of you he said

I can’t leave much of you if you are free

I can’t leave much of you now

Like no ribbons and no regret

And no friends nailed to the floor

No friends nailed to the ground no way out

He said

I don’t have hope I do though

We walked up the Road

Where We crossed the bridge

Where no one Said much to us

And not one person laughed either

I don’t know how to laugh now

I only now how to lose

What it is I think I’ve got

He said in the car on the road

That most people are just afraid of losing what they have

But I Knew that he wasn’t

That was what I liked about him

From the very beginning

He didn’t make anything out to be what it wasn’t

The room said You Will Speak

I wanted to speak to you

Like from a Long time ago

I remembered you as beautiful

I hadn’t Seen you

But when I heard your voice I knew you still were

I was just glad you were still speaking

Still breathing thru the dark as well

A thousand nights

A thousand notes too

All of these days were broken without you

But there was really nothing

They thought they’d seen you but they hadn’t

They thought you Loved Them

But I knew you didn’t

I Knew I prepared to pay the dues I had to myself

And the fear I owed my self

And it was just cowardice on my part

I was sorry I scared you off

All the light is like a blur and a smear now

I only know you now

Cause I loved you for so long

I never forgot I don’t think

I knew that life though was impossible

You were moving from one place to another

Across the states

Across the rooms

Under tables

Over the room

Over the water

And we know what hurt us

It lives in the same

House

In the same

Room

As

The

Same Man

It was before

Except the difference now

Is when you speak

It’s not about what you’ve lost

I just wonder

Though

What I’ve got Left?

I got my mind made up

2009-11-24T00:22:00.000-08:00

Julie Sokolow (born April 3, 1987) is a lo-fi singer-songwriter. A resident of Holmdel, New Jersey, Sokolow is a recent graduate of the University of Pittsburgh in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. Her debut album, Something About Violins, was released in November, 2006, on the Western Vinyl label. Often drawing comparisons to Cat Power and Mirah,[1][2] Sokolow has gained acclaim for her decidedly lo-fi sound; the entirety of Something About Violins was recorded using the built-in microphone of her PowerBook G4.[3] Her music, which predominantly consists simply of her vocals and acoustic guitar, has been noted for its subtletly and introspectiveness.[3][4] Sokolow has also been heralded not just for the intimacy of her music, but for her awareness of her own fragile emotional state.[5] All of the work on Something About Violins, including mixing, instrumentation, and album packaging art, was done by Sokolow herself.

A Great Discovery:Zoe Goehring

2009-11-24T00:06:00.000-08:00

....I became excited about Visual art again for the first time in years.... nothing since Henry Darger has impressed like this work.... It's a funny story but good too i kept seeing the striking young woman .... around pgh for about a year and a half and i just kept wondering who she was ... she had a face that reminded me of one of the leads of the Bresson's final two black and white films "au hasard balthazar" and "mouchette" and a Asian Like eyes .... and fiery redish hair --i wanted to talk to her but i felt weird approaching a stranger anyhow one day i was standing in a coffee shop and turned around and she was sitting there .... So i decided what did i have to lose I mean you meet people every day .... so any how i starting talking to her and We ended up hanging out shortly afterwards one on one ... She turned out to be a very radical .... visual artist and quite singular Poet .... Zoe's Art reminds me of outsider art ... kind of but not quite ... kind of like conceptual art too.... i told her it brought to mind ..... Manoel De Olivieria and Alan Clarke as well.... there were pauses in her work that recalled those two Film Artists to me .... Her poems need to be read i can't really do them justice... Kind of Like Anne Sexton or Rimbaud ... but i feel they really are singular ...... --I wanted to feature some of her pieces and say what a great artist she is ..... and good friend ... too Her stuff is really amazing... She does have a webpage so go there but i wanted to post some of the images here Anyhow go and check out her stuff she's one to watch in future and now!

Boys against Girls

2009-11-24T00:04:00.000-08:00

Homosexuality is the romantic or sexual attraction or behavior among members of the same sex, situationally or as an enduring disposition. As a sexual orientation, homosexuality is considered to lie within the heterosexual-homosexual continuum of human sexuality,[1] and refers to an individual’s identity based on those attractions and membership in a community of others who share them.[2][3]

Homosexuality is widely encountered in the animal kingdom.[4][5] Among humans, the prevalence of homosexuality is difficult to determine accurately; studies suggest between two and twenty percent of the population exhibit some degree of homosexual sensibility, though in many earlier cultures homosexual relations were prevalent. Throughout history, individual aspects of homosexuality have been admired or condemned according to various societies' sexual norms. When praised, those aspects were seen as a way to improve society;[6] when condemned, particular activities were seen as a sin or a disease, and some homosexual behavior was prohibited by law. Since the middle of the 20th century homosexuality has been gradually delisted as a disease and decriminalized in nearly all developed countries.[7] However, the legal status of homosexual relations varies widely by country and there remain jurisdictions in which certain homosexual behaviors are crimes with severe penalties including death.

Many homosexual people hide their feelings and activities out of fear of disapproval or aggression; they are commonly said to be closeted. Disclosing one's homosexual or bisexual orientation is known as coming out (of the closet). Efforts toward emancipation of homosexuality as it is currently understood began in the 1860s; since the mid-1950s there has been an accelerating trend towards increased visibility, acceptance, and civil rights for lesbian, gay and bisexual people. Nevertheless, heterosexism and homophobia persist, and in particular young people subjected to it are at greater risk of socialization difficulties including suicide.[8] Currently the most common adjectives in use are lesbian for women and gay for men, though some prefer other terms or none at all.
Contents
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* 1 Etymology and usage
* 2 Sexuality and gender identity
o 2.1 Sexual orientation, identity, behavior
+ 2.1.1 Sexual identity development: "coming-out process"
+ 2.1.2 Choice vs. innate
+ 2.1.3 Sexual orientation change efforts
o 2.2 Gender identity
o 2.3 Social construct
o 2.4 Same-sex romance and relationships
* 3 Demographics
* 4 Psychology
* 5 Etiology
* 6 Parenting
* 7 Health
o 7.1 Physical
o 7.2 Mental
o 7.3 Gay and lesbian youth
* 8 History
o 8.1 Africa
o 8.2 Americas
o 8.3 East Asia
o 8.4 Europe
o 8.5 Middle East, South and Central Asia
o 8.6 South Pacific
* 9 Law, politics, society and sociology
o 9.1 Legality
+ 9.1.1 Sexual orientation and the law
o 9.2 Political activism
o 9.3 Relationships
o 9.4 Military service
o 9.5 Religion
o 9.6 Heterosexism and homophobia
o 9.7 Violence against gay and lesbian people
* 10 Homosexual behavior in animals
* 11 See also
* 12 References
* 13 Bibliography
o 13.1 Books
o 13.2 Journal articles
o 13.3 Online articles
* 14 External links

Etymology and usage
Main article: Terminology of homosexuality
Zephyrus and Hyacinthus
Attic red-figure cup from Tarquinia, 480 BC (Boston Museum of Fine Arts)

The word homosexual is a Greek and Latin hybrid with the first element derived from Greek homos, 'same' (not related to the Latin homo, 'man', such as in Homo sapiens), thus connoting sexual acts and affections between members of the same sex, including lesbianism.[9] Gay generally refers to male homosexuality, but may be used in a broader sense to refer to all LGBT people. In the context of sexuality, lesbian refers only to female homosexuality. The word "lesbian" is derived from the name of the Greek island Lesbos, where the poet Sappho wrote largely about her emotional relationships with young women.[10][11]

The adjective homosexual describes behavior, relationships, people, orientation, etc. The adjectival form literally means "same sex", being a hybrid formed from Greek homo- (a form of homos "same"), and "sexual" from Medieval Latin sexualis (from Classical Latin sexus). Many modern style guides in the U.S. recommend against using homosexual as a noun, instead using gay man or lesbian.[12] Similarly, some recommend completely avoiding usage of homosexual as it has a negative, clinical history and because the word only refers to one's sexual behavior (as opposed to romantic feelings) and thus it has a negative connotation.[12] Gay and lesbian are the most common alternatives. The first letters are frequently combined to create the initialism LGBT (sometimes written as GLBT), in which B and T refer to bisexual and transgender people.

The first known appearance of homosexual in print is found in an 1869 German pamphlet by the Austrian-born novelist Karl-Maria Kertbeny, published anonymously,[13] arguing against a Prussian anti-sodomy law.[14][15] In 1879, Gustav Jager used Kertbeny's terms in his book, Discovery of the Soul (1880).[15] In 1886, Richard von Krafft-Ebing used the terms homosexual and heterosexual in his book Psychopathia Sexualis, probably borrowing them from Jager. Krafft-Ebing's book was so popular among both layman and doctors that the terms "heterosexual" and "homosexual" became the most widely accepted terms for sexual orientation.[15][16]

As such, the current use of the term has its roots in the broader 19th-century tradition of personality taxonomy. These continue to influence the development of the modern concept of sexual orientation, gaining associations with romantic love and identity in addition to its original, exclusively sexual, meaning.

Although early writers also used the adjective homosexual to refer to any single-sex context (such as an all-girls' school), today the term is used exclusively in reference to sexual attraction, activity, and orientation. The term homosocial is now used to describe single-sex contexts that are not specifically sexual. There is also a word referring to same-sex love, homophilia. Other terms include men who have sex with men or MSM (used in the medical community when specifically discussing sexual activity), homoerotic (referring to works of art), heteroflexible (referring to a person who identifies as heterosexual, but occasionally engages in same-sex sexual activities), and metrosexual (referring to a non-gay man with stereotypically gay tastes in food, fashion, and design). Pejorative terms in English include queer, faggot, fairy, poof, and homo. Beginning in the 1990s, some of these have been reclaimed as positive words by gay men and lesbians, as in the usage of queer studies, queer theory, and even the popular American television program Queer Eye for the Straight Guy. The word homo occurs in many other languages without the pejorative connotations it has in English. As with ethnic slurs and racial slurs, however, the misuse of these terms can still be highly offensive; the range of acceptable use depends on the context and speaker. Conversely, gay, a word originally embraced by homosexual men and women as a positive, affirmative term (as in gay liberation and gay rights), has come into widespread pejorative use among young people.
Sexuality and gender identity
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The examples and perspective in this section may not represent a worldwide view of the subject. Please improve this article and discuss the issue on the talk page.
Sexual orientation, identity, behavior
Main articles: Sexual orientation, Sexual orientation identity, and Sexual behaviour
See also: Situational sexual behavior

The American Psychological Association, the American Psychiatric Association, and the National Association of Social Workers state:
“ Sexual orientation refers to an enduring pattern of or disposition to experience sexual, affectional, or romantic attractions primarily to men, to women, or to both sexes. It also refers to an individual’s sense of personal and social identity based on those attractions, behaviors expressing them, and membership in a community of others who share them. Although sexual orientation ranges along a continuum from exclusively heterosexual to exclusively homosexual, it is usually discussed in terms of three categories: heterosexual (having sexual and romantic attraction primarily or exclusively to members of the other sex), homosexual (having sexual and romantic attraction primarily or exclusively to members of one’s own sex), and bisexual (having a significant degree of sexual and romantic attraction to both men and women). Sexual orientation is distinct from other components of sex and sexuality, including biological sex (the anatomical, physiological, and genetic characteristics associated with being male or female), gender identity (the psychological sense of being male or female), and social gender role (adherence to cultural norms defining feminine and masculine behavior).

Sexual orientation is commonly discussed as a characteristic of the individual, like biological sex, gender identity, or age. This perspective is incomplete because sexual orientation is always defined in relational terms and necessarily involves relationships with other individuals. Sexual acts and romantic attractions are categorized as homosexual or heterosexual according to the biological sex of the individuals involved in them, relative to each other. Indeed, it is by acting – or desiring to act – with another person that individuals express their heterosexuality, homosexuality, or bisexuality. This includes actions as simple as holding hands with or kissing another person. Thus, sexual orientation is integrally linked to the intimate personal relationships that human beings form with others to meet their deeply felt needs for love, attachment, and intimacy. In addition to sexual behavior, these bonds encompass nonsexual physical affection between partners, shared goals and values, mutual support, and ongoing commitment.

Consequently, sexual orientation is not merely a personal characteristic that can be defined in isolation. Rather, one’s sexual orientation defines the universe of persons with whom one is likely to find the satisfying and fulfilling relationships that, for many individuals, comprise an essential component of personal identity.[17]
”

Those with a homosexual orientation who do not identify as gay or lesbian are often referred to as closeted.[citation needed]
Sexual identity development: "coming-out process"
Main article: Coming out

Many people who feel attracted to members of their own sex have a so-called "coming out" at some point in their lives. Generally, coming out is described in three phases. The first phase is the phase of "knowing oneself," and the realization or decision emerges that one is open to same-sex relations. This is often described as an internal coming out. The second phase involves one's decision to come out to others, e.g. family, friends, and/or colleagues. This occurs with many people as early as age 11, but others do not clarify their sexual orientation until age 40 or older. The third phase more generally involves living openly as an LGBT person.[18] In the United States today, people often come out during high school or college age. At this age, they may not trust or ask for help from others, especially when their orientation is not accepted in society. Sometimes their own families are not even informed.

According to Rosario, Schrimshaw, Hunter, Braun (2006), "the development of a lesbian, gay, or bisexual (LGB) sexual identity is a complex and often difficult process. Unlike members of other minority groups (e.g., ethnic and racial minorities), most LGB individuals are not raised in a community of similar others from whom they learn about their identity and who reinforce and support that identity. Rather, LGB individuals are often raised in communities that are either ignorant of or openly hostile toward homosexuality."[19]

Outing is the practice of publicly revealing the sexual orientation of a closeted person.[20] Notable politicians, celebrities, military service people, and clergy members have been outed, with motives ranging from malice to political or moral beliefs. Many commentators oppose the practice altogether,[21] while some encourage outing public figures who use their positions of influence to harm other gay people.[22]
Choice vs. innate

The American Psychological Association, American Psychiatric Association, and National Association of Social Workers stated in an amicus brief presented to the Supreme Court of the State of California: "Sexual orientation has proved to be generally impervious to interventions intended to change it, which are sometimes referred to as “reparative therapy.” No scientifically adequate research has shown that such interventions are effective or safe. Moreover, because homosexuality is a normal variant of human sexuality, national mental health organizations do not encourage individuals to try to change their sexual orientation from homosexual to heterosexual. Therefore, all major national mental health organizations have adopted policy statements cautioning the profession and the public about treatments that purport to change sexual orientation."[3] The Royal College of Psychiatrists stated that it "shares the concern of both the American Psychiatric Association and the American Psychological Association that positions espoused by bodies like the National Association for Research and Therapy of Homosexuality (NARTH) in the United States are not supported by science. There is no sound scientific evidence that sexual orientation can be changed. Furthermore so-called treatments of homosexuality as recommended by NARTH create a setting in which prejudice and discrimination can flourish,"[23] and added that "The best evidence for efficacy of any treatment comes from randomised clinical trials and no such trial has been carried out in this field."[24]

The APA also writes that "most people experience little or no sense of choice about their sexual orientation".[25] In a joint statement with other major American medical organizations, the APA says that "different people realize at different points in their lives that they are heterosexual, gay, lesbian, or bisexual".[26]

The American Psychiatric Association (APA) has stated "some people believe that sexual orientation is innate and fixed; however, sexual orientation develops across a person’s lifetime".[27] A report from the Centre for Addiction and Mental Health states: "For some people, sexual orientation is continuous and fixed throughout their lives. For others, sexual orientation may be fluid and change over time".[28]
Sexual orientation change efforts
Main article: Sexual orientation change efforts

Major US, UK and Australian professional and scientific organizations regard attempts to change people's sexual orientation as potentially harmful, while fringe groups, often motivated by religious beliefs, believe change is possible, or homosexual attraction diminished, for those who cannot accept their sexual orientation.[17][23][24][29][30][31]
Gender identity

The earliest writers on a homosexual orientation usually understood it to be intrinsically linked to the subject's own sex. For example, it was thought that a typical female-bodied person who is attracted to female-bodied persons would have masculine attributes, and vice versa.[32] This understanding was shared by most of the significant theorists of homosexuality from the mid 19th to early 20th centuries, such as Karl Heinrich Ulrichs, Richard von Krafft-Ebing, Magnus Hirschfeld, Havelock Ellis, Carl Jung and Sigmund Freud, as well as many gender variant homosexual people themselves. However, this understanding of homosexuality as sexual inversion was disputed at the time, and through the second half of the 20th century, gender identity came to be increasingly seen as a phenomenon distinct from sexual orientation.

Transgender and cisgender people may be attracted to men, women or both, although the prevalence of different sexual orientations is quite different in these two populations (see sexual orientation of transwomen). An individual homosexual, heterosexual or bisexual person may be masculine, feminine, or androgynous, and in addition, many members and supporters of lesbian and gay communities now see the "gender-conforming heterosexual" and the "gender-nonconforming homosexual" as negative stereotypes. However, studies by J. Michael Bailey and K.J. Zucker have found that a majority of gay men and lesbians report being gender-nonconforming during their childhood years.[33] Richard C. Friedman, in Male Homosexuality published in 1990,[34] writing from a psychoanalytic perspective, argues that sexual desire begins later than the writings of Sigmund Freud indicate, not in infancy but between the ages of 5 and 10 and is not focused on a parent figure but on peers. As a consequence, he reasons, homosexual men are not abnormal, never having been sexually attracted to their mothers anyway.[35]
Social construct
Further information: Queer theory

Because a homosexual orientation is complex and multi-dimensional, some academics and researchers, especially in Queer studies, have argued that it is a historical and social construction. In 1976 the historian Michel Foucault argued that homosexuality as an identity did not exist in the eighteenth century; that people instead spoke of "sodomy", which referred to sexual acts. Sodomy was a crime that was often ignored but sometimes punished severely (see sodomy law).

The term homosexual is often used in European and American cultures to encompass a person’s entire social identity, which includes self and personality. In Western cultures some people speak meaningfully of gay, lesbian, and bisexual identities and communities. In other cultures, homosexuality and heterosexual labels don’t emphasize an entire social identity or indicate community affiliation based on sexual orientation.[36] Some scholars, such as David Green, state that homosexuality is a modern Western social construct, and as such cannot be used in the context of non-Western male-male sexuality, nor in the pre-modern West.[37]
Same-sex romance and relationships
Main article: Same-sex relationship

People with a homosexual orientation can express their sexuality in a variety of ways, and may or may not express it in their behaviors.[38] Some have sexual relationships predominately with people of their own gender identity, another gender, bisexual relationships or they can be celibate.[38] Research indicates that many lesbians and gay men want, and succeed in having, committed and durable relationships. For example, survey data indicate that between 40% and 60% of gay men and between 45% and 80% of lesbians are currently involved in a romantic relationship.[39] Survey data also indicates that between 18% and 28% of gay couples and between 8% and 21% of lesbian couples in the U.S. have lived together ten or more years.[40] Studies have found same-sex and opposite-sex couples to be equivalent to each other in measures of satisfaction and commitment in romantic relationships,[41][42] that age and gender are more reliable than sexual orientation as a predictor of satisfaction and commitment to a romantic relationship,[42] and that people who are heterosexual or homosexual share comparable expectations and ideals with regard to romantic relationships.[43]
Demographics
Main article: Demographics of sexual orientation

Reliable data as to the size of the gay and lesbian population is of value in informing public policy.[44] For example, demographics would help in calculating the costs and benefits of domestic partnership benefits, of the impact of legalizing gay adoption, and of the impact of the U.S. military's Don't Ask Don't Tell policy.[44] Further, knowledge of the size of the "gay and lesbian population holds promise for helping social scientists understand a wide array of important questions—questions about the general nature of labor market choices, accumulation of human capital, specialization within households, discrimination, and decisions about geographic location."[44]

Measuring the prevalence of homosexuality may present difficulties.[45] The research must measure some characteristic that may or may not be defining of sexual orientation. The class of people with same-sex desires may be larger than the class of people who act on those desires, which in turn may be larger than the class of people who self-identify as gay/lesbian/bisexual.[44] Studies to determine the proportion of individuals who have had a homosexual experience may misleadingly overstate the prevalence of homosexuality (as not all those who have had homosexual experiences necessarily have a homosexual preference) or understate it (as not all those with a predominantly homosexual orientation are necessarily sexually active or have physically acted on it).[citation needed]

In 1948 and 1953, Alfred Kinsey reported that nearly 46% of the male subjects had "reacted" sexually to persons of both sexes in the course of their adult lives, and 37% had had at least one homosexual experience.[46] Kinsey's methodology was criticized.[47][48] A later study tried to eliminate the sample bias, but still reached similar conclusions.[49]

Estimates of the occurrence of exclusive homosexuality range from one to twenty percent of the population, usually finding there are slightly more gay men than lesbians.[50][51][52][53][54][55][56][57][58][59][60][61][62][63][64]

Estimates of the frequency of homosexual activity also vary from one country to another. A 1992 study reported that 6.1% of males in Britain had had a homosexual experience, while in France the number was 4.1%.[65] According to a 2003 survey, 12% of Norwegians have had homosexual sex.[59] In New Zealand, a 2006 study suggested that 20% of the population anonymously reported some homosexual feelings, few of them identifying as homosexual. Percentage of persons identifying homosexual was 2–3%.[61] According to a 2008 poll, while only 6% of Britons define their sexual orientation as homosexual or bisexual, more than twice that number (13%) of Britons have had some form of sexual contact with someone of the same sex.[60]

In the United States, according to exit polling on 2008 Election Day for the 2008 Presidential elections, 4% of electorate self-identified as gay, lesbian, or bisexual, the same percentage as in 2004.”[66]
Psychology
Main article: Homosexuality and psychology
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Psychology was one of the first disciplines to study a homosexual orientation as a discrete phenomenon. The first attempts to classify homosexuality as a disease were made by the fledgling European sexologist movement in the late 19th century. In 1886 noted sexologist Richard von Krafft-Ebing listed homosexuality along with 200 other case studies of deviant sexual practices in his definitive work, Psychopathia Sexualis. Krafft-Ebing proposed that homosexuality was caused by either "congenital [during birth] inversion" or an "acquired inversion". In the last two decades of the 19th century, a different view began to predominate in medical and psychiatric circles, judging such behavior as indicative of a type of person with a defined and relatively stable sexual orientation. In the late 19th and early 20th centuries, pathological models of homosexuality were standard.

The American Psychological Association, the American Psychiatric Association, and the National Association of Social Workers state:
“ In 1952, when the American Psychiatric Association published its first Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, homosexuality was included as a disorder. Almost immediately, however, that classification began to be subjected to critical scrutiny in research funded by the National Institute of Mental Health. That study and subsequent research consistently failed to produce any empirical or scientific basis for regarding homosexuality as a disorder or abnormality, rather than a normal and healthy sexual orientation. As results from such research accumulated, professionals in medicine, mental health, and the behavioral and social sciences reached the conclusion that it was inaccurate to classify homosexuality as a mental disorder and that the DSM classification reflected untested assumptions based on once-prevalent social norms and clinical impressions from unrepresentative samples comprising patients seeking therapy and individuals whose conduct brought them into the criminal justice system.

In recognition of the scientific evidence,[67] the American Psychiatric Association removed homosexuality from the DSM in 1973, stating that “homosexuality per se implies no impairment in judgment, stability, reliability, or general social or vocational capabilities.” After thoroughly reviewing the scientific data, the American Psychological Association adopted the same position in 1975, and urged all mental health professionals “to take the lead in removing the stigma of mental illness that has long been associated with homosexual orientations.” The National Association of Social Workers has adopted a similar policy.

Thus, mental health professionals and researchers have long recognized that being homosexual poses no inherent obstacle to leading a happy, healthy, and productive life, and that the vast majority of gay and lesbian people function well in the full array of social institutions and interpersonal relationships.[17]
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The longstanding consensus of the behavioral and social sciences and the health and mental health professions is that homosexuality per se is a normal and positive variation of human sexual orientation.[68] The World Health Organization's ICD-9 (1977) listed homosexuality as a mental illness; it was removed from the ICD-10, endorsed by the Forty-third World Health Assembly on May 17, 1990.[69][70] Like the DSM-II, the ICD-10 added ego-dystonic sexual orientation to the list, which refers to people who want to change their gender identities or sexual orientation because of a psychological or behavioral disorder (F66.1). The Chinese Society of Psychiatry removed homosexuality from its Chinese Classification of Mental Disorders in 2001 after five years of study by the association.[71] According to the Royal College of Psychiatrists "This unfortunate history demonstrates how marginalisation of a group of people who have a particular personality feature (in this case homosexuality) can lead to harmful medical practice and a basis for discrimination in society.[24] There is now a large body of research evidence that indicates that being gay, lesbian or bisexual is compatible with normal mental health and social adjustment. However, the experiences of discrimination in society and possible rejection by friends, families and others, such as employers, means that some LGB people experience a greater than expected prevalence of mental health and substance misuse problems. Although there have been claims by conservative political groups in the USA that this higher prevalence of mental health difficulties is confirmation that homosexuality is itself a mental disorder, there is no evidence whatever to substantiate such a claim.[72] "

Most lesbian, gay, and bisexual people who seek psychotherapy do so for the same reasons as heterosexual people (stress, relationship difficulties, difficulty adjusting to social or work situations, etc.); their sexual orientation may be of primary, incidental, or no importance to their issues and treatment. Whatever the issue, there is a high risk for anti-gay bias in psychotherapy with lesbian, gay, and bisexual clients.[73] Psychological research in this area has been relevant to counteracting prejudicial ("homophobic") attitudes and actions, and to the LGBT rights movement generally.[74]
Etiology
Main articles: Biology and sexual orientation and Environment and sexual orientation

There is no consensus among scientists about the exact reasons that an individual develops a heterosexual, bisexual, gay, or lesbian orientation.[75] The main reasons cited include genetic and environmental factors, likely in combination.[76][77] Other factors that may play a role include prenatal hormone exposure, where hormones play a role in determining sexual orientation as they do with sex differentiation;[78][79] and prenatal stress on the mother.[80][81][82]

The American Academy of Pediatrics has stated that "sexual orientation probably is not determined by any one factor but by a combination of genetic, hormonal, and environmental influences".[83] The American Psychological Association has stated that "there are probably many reasons for a person's sexual orientation and the reasons may be different for different people". It stated that, for most people, sexual orientation is determined at an early age.[84] The American Psychiatric Association has stated that, "to date there are no replicated scientific studies supporting any specific biological etiology for homosexuality. Similarly, no specific psychosocial or family dynamic cause for homosexuality has been identified, including histories of childhood sexual abuse".[27] Research into how sexual orientation may be determined by genetic or other prenatal factors plays a role in political and social debates about homosexuality, and also raises fears about genetic profiling and prenatal testing.[85]

Innate bisexuality (or predisposition to bisexuality) is a term introduced by Sigmund Freud, based on work by his associate Wilhelm Fliess, that expounds that all humans are born bisexual but through psychological development – which includes both external and internal factors – become monosexual, while the bisexuality remains in a latent state.

The authors of a 2008 study stated that "there is considerable evidence that human sexual orientation is genetically influenced, so it is not known how homosexuality, which tends to lower reproductive success, is maintained in the population at a relatively high frequency". They hypothesized that "while genes predisposing to homosexuality reduce homosexuals' reproductive success, they may confer some advantage in heterosexuals who carry them". Their results suggested that "genes predisposing to homosexuality may confer a mating advantage in heterosexuals, which could help explain the evolution and maintenance of homosexuality in the population".[86] A 2009 study also suggested a significant increase in fecundity in the females related to the homosexual people from the maternal line (but not in those related from the paternal one).[87]
Parenting
See also: LGBT parenting

Many LGB people are parents through various means including current or former relationships, adoption, donor insemination, foster parenting, and surrogacy.[88][89][90][91] In the 2000 U.S. Census, 33 percent of female same-sex couple households and 22 percent of male same-sex couple households reported at least one child under eighteen living in their home.[26] Some children do not know they have an LGB parent; coming out issues vary and some parents may never come out to their children.[92][93] LGBT parenting in general, and adoption by LGBT couples in particular, are issues of ongoing political controversy in many Western countries, often seen as part of culture wars between conservatives and social liberals. In January 2008, the European Court of Human Rights ruled that same-sex couples have the right to adopt a child.[94][95] In the U.S., LGB people can legally adopt in all states except for Florida.[96]

The scientific research has consistently shown that lesbian and gay parents are as fit and capable as heterosexual parents.[17][97][98] Research has documented that there is no relationship between parents' sexual orientation and any measure of a child's emotional, psychosocial, and behavioral adjustment.[17][97][98][99] The literature indicates that parents’ financial, psychological and physical well-being is enhanced by marriage and that children benefit from being raised by two parents within a legally-recognized union.[17][97][99]

In 2006, the American Psychological Association, American Psychiatric Association and National Association of Social Workers stated in an amicus curiae brief presented to the Supreme Court of California:

When comparing the outcomes of different forms of parenting, it is critically important to make appropriate comparisons. For example, differences resulting from the number of parents in a household cannot be attributed to the parents’ gender or sexual orientation. Research in households with heterosexual parents generally indicates that – all else being equal – children do better with two parenting figures rather than just one. The specific research studies typically cited in this regard do not address parents’ sexual orientation, however, and therefore do not permit any conclusions to be drawn about the consequences of having heterosexual versus nonheterosexual parents, or two parents who are of the same versus different genders. Indeed, the scientific research that has directly compared outcomes for children with gay and lesbian parents with outcomes for children with heterosexual parents has been remarkably consistent in showing that lesbian and gay parents are every bit as fit and capable as heterosexual parents, and their children are as psychologically healthy and well-adjusted as children reared by heterosexual parents. Amici emphasize that the abilities of gay and lesbian persons as parents and the positive outcomes for their children are not areas where credible scientific researchers disagree. Statements by the leading associations of experts in this area reflect professional consensus that children raised by lesbian or gay parents do not differ in any important respects from those raised by heterosexual parents. No credible empirical research suggests otherwise. Allowing same-sex couples to legally marry will not have any detrimental effect on children raised in heterosexual households, but it will benefit children being raised by same-sex couples.[17]

As noted by Professor Judith Stacey, of New York University: “Rarely is there as much consensus in any area of social science as in the case of gay parenting, which is why the American Academy of Pediatrics and all of the major professional organizations with expertise in child welfare have issued reports and resolutions in support of gay and lesbian parental rights”.[100] Among these mainstream organizations are in the United States the American Psychiatric Association, the National Association of Social Workers, Child Welfare League of America, the American Bar Association, the North American Council on Adoptable Children, the American Academy of Pediatrics, the American Psychoanalytic Association, the American Academy of Family Physicians,[101] in the United Kingdom, the Royal College of Psychiatrists,[102] and in Canada, the Canadian Psychological Association.[97]
Health
Further information: Men who have sex with men and Lesbian#Health
Physical
These safer sex recommendations are generally agreed upon by public health officials for women who have sex with women to avoid sexually transmitted infections (STIs):

* Avoid contact with a partner’s menstrual blood and with any visible genital lesions.

* Cover sex toys that penetrate more than one person’s vagina or anus with a new condom for each person; consider using different toys for each person.
* Use a barrier (e.g., latex sheet, dental dam, cut-open condom, plastic wrap) during oral sex.
* Use latex or vinyl gloves and lubricant for any manual sex that might cause bleeding.[103]

These safer sex recommendations are generally agreed upon by public health officials for men who have sex with men to avoid sexually transmitted infections (STIs)

* Avoid contact with a partner’s bodily fluids and with any visible genital lesions.

* Use condoms for anal and oral sex.
* Use a barrier (e.g., latex sheet, dental dam, cut-open condom, plastic wrap) during anal–oral sex.
* Cover sex toys that penetrate more than one person with a new condom for each person; consider using different toys for each person and use latex or vinyl gloves and lubricant for any sex that might cause bleeding.[104][105]

Men who have sex with men (MSM) and women who have sex with women (WSW) refers to people who engage in sexual activity with others of the same sex regardless of how they identify themselves as many choose not to accept social identities as lesbian, gay and bisexual.[106][107][108][109][110] These terms are often used in medical literature and social research to describe such groups for study, without needing to consider the issues of sexual self-identity. The terms are seen as problematic, however, because it "obscures social dimensions of sexuality; undermines the self-labeling of lesbian, gay, and bisexual people; and does not sufficiently describe variations in sexual behavior".[111] MSM and WSW are sexually active with each other for a variety of reasons with the main ones arguably sexual pleasure, intimacy and bonding. In contrast to its benefits, sexual behavior can be a disease vector. Safe sex is a relevant harm reduction philosophy.[112] The United States prohibits men who have sex with men from donating blood "because they are, as a group, at increased risk for HIV, hepatitis B and certain other infections that can be transmitted by transfusion."[113] Many European countries have the same prohibition.[113]
Mental

When it was first described in medical literature, homosexuality was often approached from a view that sought to find an inherent psychopathology as its root cause. Much literature on mental health and homosexual patients centered on their depression, substance abuse, and suicide. Although these issues exist among people who are non-heterosexual, discussion about their causes shifted after homosexuality was removed from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM) in 1973. Instead, social ostracism, legal discrimination, internalization of negative stereotypes, and limited support structures indicate factors homosexual people face in Western societies that often adversely affect their mental health.[114] Stigma, prejudice, and discrimination stemming from negative societal attitudes toward homosexuality lead to a higher prevalence of mental health disorders among lesbians, gay men, and bisexuals compared to their heterosexual peers.[115] Evidence indicates that the liberalization of these attitudes over the past few decades is associated with a decrease in such mental health risks among younger LGBT people.[116]
Gay and lesbian youth

Gay and lesbian youth bear an increased risk of suicide, substance abuse, school problems, and isolation because of a "hostile and condemning environment, verbal and physical abuse, rejection and isolation from family and peers".[117] Further, LGB youths are more likely to report psychological and physical abuse by parents or caretakers, and more sexual abuse. Suggested reasons for this disparity are that (1) LGBT youths may be specifically targeted on the basis of their perceived sexual orientation or gender non-conforming appearance, and (2) that "risk factors associated with sexual minority status, including discrimination, invisibility, and rejection by family members...may lead to an increase in behaviors that are associated with risk for victimization, such as substance abuse, sex with multiple partners, or running away from home as a teenager."[118] A 2008 study showed a correlation between the degree of rejecting behavior by parents of LGB adolescents and negative health problems in the teenagers studied:

Higher rates of family rejection were significantly associated with poorer health outcomes. On the basis of odds ratios, lesbian, gay, and bisexual young adults who reported higher levels of family rejection during adolescence were 8.4 times more likely to report having attempted suicide, 5.9 times more likely to report high levels of depression, 3.4 times more likely to use illegal drugs, and 3.4 times more likely to report having engaged in unprotected sexual intercourse compared with peers from families that reported no or low levels of family rejection.[119]

Crisis centers in larger cities and information sites on the Internet have arisen to help youth and adults.[120] The Trevor Helpline, a suicide prevention helpline for gay youth, was established following the 1998 airing on HBO of the Academy Award winning short film Trevor.
History
Main articles: LGBT history and Timeline of LGBT history

Societal attitudes towards same-sex relationships have varied over time and place, from expecting all males to engage in same-sex relationships, to casual integration, through acceptance, to seeing the practice as a minor sin, repressing it through law enforcement and judicial mechanisms, and to proscribing it under penalty of death.

In a detailed compilation of historical and ethnographic materials of Preindustrial Cultures, "strong disapproval of homosexuality was reported for 41% of 42 cultures; it was accepted or ignored by 21%, and 12% reported no such concept. Of 70 ethnographies, 59% reported homosexuality absent or rare in frequency and 41% reported it present or not uncommon." [121]

In cultures influenced by Abrahamic religions, the law and the church established sodomy as a transgression against divine law or a crime against nature. The condemnation of anal sex between males, however, predates Christian belief. It was frequent in ancient Greece; "unnatural" can be traced back to Plato.[122]

Many historical figures, including Socrates, Lord Byron, Edward II, and Hadrian,[123] have had terms such as gay or bisexual applied to them; some scholars, such as Michel Foucault, have regarded this as risking the anachronistic introduction of a contemporary construction of sexuality foreign to their times,[124] though others challenge this.[125]

A common thread of constructionist argument is that no one in antiquity or the Middle Ages experienced homosexuality as an exclusive, permanent, or defining mode of sexuality. John Boswell has countered this argument by citing ancient Greek writings by Plato,[126] which describe individuals exhibiting exclusive homosexuality.
Khnumhotep and Niankhkhnum. Illustration from photograph © 1999 Greg Reeder.
Africa

Though often ignored or suppressed by European explorers and colonialists, homosexual expression in native Africa was also present and took a variety of forms. Anthropologists Stephen Murray and Will Roscoe reported that women in Lesotho engaged in socially sanctioned "long term, erotic relationships" called motsoalle.[127] E. E. Evans-Pritchard also recorded that male Azande warriors in the northern Congo routinely took on young male lovers between the ages of twelve and twenty, who helped with household tasks and participated in intercrural sex with their older husbands. The practice had died out by the early 20th century, after Europeans had gained control of African countries, but was recounted to Evans-Pritchard by the elders to whom he spoke.[128]

The first recorded homosexual couple in history is commonly regarded as Khnumhotep and Niankhkhnum, an Egyptian male couple, who lived around the 2400 BCE. The pair are portrayed in a nose-kissing position, the most intimate pose in Egyptian art, surrounded by what appear to be their heirs.
Americas
Dance to the Berdache
Sac and Fox Nation ceremonial dance to celebrate the two-spirit person. George Catlin (1796–1872); Smithsonian Institution, Washington, DC

Among indigenous peoples of the Americas prior to European colonization, a common form of same-sex sexuality centered around the figure of the Two-Spirit individual. Typically this individual was recognized early in life, given a choice by the parents to follow the path and, if the child accepted the role, raised in the appropriate manner, learning the customs of the gender it had chosen. Two-Spirit individuals were commonly shamans and were revered as having powers beyond those of ordinary shamans. Their sexual life was with the ordinary tribe members of the same sex.

Homosexual and transgender individuals were also common among other pre-conquest civilizations in Latin America, such as the Aztecs, Mayans, Quechuas, Moches, Zapotecs, and the Tupinambá of Brazil.[129][130]
Balboa setting his war dogs upon Indian practitioners of male love in 1513; New York Public Library

The Spanish conquerors were horrified to discover sodomy openly practiced among native peoples, and attempted to crush it out by subjecting the berdaches (as the Spanish called them) under their rule to severe penalties, including public execution, burning and being torn to pieces by dogs.[131]
East Asia

In East Asia, same-sex love has been referred to since the earliest recorded history.

Homosexuality in China, known as the pleasures of the bitten peach, the cut sleeve, or the southern custom, has been recorded since approximately 600 BCE. These euphemistic terms were used to describe behaviors, not identities (recently some fashionable young Chinese tend to euphemistically use the term "brokeback," 斷背 duanbei to refer to homosexual men, from the success of director Ang Lee's film Brokeback Mountain).[132] The relationships were marked by differences in age and social position. However, the instances of same-sex affection and sexual interactions described in the classical novel Dream of the Red Chamber seem as familiar to observers in the present as do equivalent stories of romances between heterosexual people during the same period.

Homosexuality in Japan, variously known as shudo or nanshoku, terms influenced by Chinese literature, has been documented for over one thousand years and was an integral part of Buddhist monastic life and the samurai tradition. This same-sex love culture gave rise to strong traditions of painting and literature documenting and celebrating such relationships.

Similarly, in Thailand, Kathoey, or "ladyboys," have been a feature of Thai society for many centuries, and Thai kings had male as well as female lovers. While Kathoey may encompass simple effeminacy or transvestism, it most commonly is treated in Thai culture as a third gender. They are generally accepted by society, and Thailand has never had legal prohibitions against homosexuality or homosexual behavior.
Europe
Further information: Homosexuality in ancient Greece, Homosexuality in ancient Rome
Roman man penetrating a youth, possibly a slave, middle of the 1st century AD. Found in Bittir (?), near Jerusalem

The earliest Western documents (in the form of literary works, art objects, and mythographic materials) concerning same-sex relationships are derived from ancient Greece.

In regard of male homosexuality such documents depict a world in which relationships with women and relationships with youths were the essential foundation of a normal man's love life. Same-sex relationships were a social institution variously constructed over time and from one city to another. The formal practice, an erotic yet often restrained relationship between a free adult male and a free adolescent, was valued for its pedagogic benefits and as a means of population control, though occasionally blamed for causing disorder. Plato praised its benefits in his early writings[133] but in his late works proposed its prohibition.[134] In the Symposium (182B-D), Plato equates acceptance of homosexuality with democracy, and its suppression with despotism, saying that homosexuality "is shameful to barbarians because of their despotic governments, just as philosophy and athletics are, since it is apparently not in best interests of such rulers to have great ideas engendered in their subjects, or powerful friendships or physical unions, all of which love is particularly apt to produce".[126] Aristotle, in the Politics, dismissed Plato's ideas about abolishing homosexuality (2.4); he explains that barbarians like the Celts accorded it a special honour (2.6.6), while the Cretans used it to regulate the population (2.7.5).[126]
Youth females are depicted as surrounding Sappho in this painting of Lafond "Sappho sings for Homer", 1824

Little is known of female homosexuality in antiquity. Sappho, born on the island of Lesbos, was included by later Greeks in the canonical list of nine lyric poets. The adjectives deriving from her name and place of birth (Sapphic and Lesbian) came to be applied to female homosexuality beginning in the 19th century.[135][136] Sappho's poetry centers on passion and love for various personages and both genders. The narrators of many of her poems speak of infatuations and love (sometimes requited, sometimes not) for various females, but descriptions of physical acts between women are few and subject to debate.[137][138] There is no evidence that she ran an academy for girls.
Sappho reading to her companions on an Attic vase of c. 435 BC.

In Ancient Rome the young male body remained a focus of male sexual attention, but relationships were between older free men and slaves or freed youths who took the receptive role in sex. All the emperors with the exception of Claudius took male lovers. The Hellenophile emperor Hadrian is renowned for his relationship with Antinous, but the Christian emperor Theodosius I decreed a law on August 6, 390, condemning passive males to be burned at the stake. Justinian, towards the end of his reign, expanded the proscription to the active partner as well (in 558), warning that such conduct can lead to the destruction of cities through the "wrath of God". Notwithstanding these regulations, taxes on brothels of boys available for homosexual sex continued to be collected until the end of the reign of Anastasius I in 518.

During the Renaissance, wealthy cities in northern Italy—Florence and Venice in particular—were renowned for their widespread practice of same-sex love, engaged in by a considerable part of the male population and constructed along the classical pattern of Greece and Rome.[139][140] But even as many of the male population were engaging in same-sex relationships, the authorities, under the aegis of the Officers of the Night court, were prosecuting, fining, and imprisoning a good portion of that population. The eclipse of this period of relative artistic and erotic freedom was precipitated by the rise to power of the moralizing monk Girolamo Savonarola. In northern Europe the artistic discourse on sodomy was turned against its proponents by artists such as Rembrandt, who in his Rape of Ganymede no longer depicted Ganymede as a willing youth, but as a squalling baby attacked by a rapacious bird of prey.

The relationships of socially prominent figures, such as King James I and the Duke of Buckingham, served to highlight the issue, including in anonymously authored street pamphlets: "The world is chang'd I know not how, For men Kiss Men, not Women now;...Of J. the First and Buckingham: He, true it is, his Wives Embraces fled, To slabber his lov'd Ganimede" (Mundus Foppensis, or The Fop Display'd, 1691).

Love Letters Between a Certain Late Nobleman and the Famous Mr. Wilson was published in 1723 in England and was presumed by some modern scholars to be a novel. The 1749 edition of John Cleland's popular novel Fanny Hill includes a homosexual scene, but this was removed in its 1750 edition. Also in 1749, the earliest extended and serious defense of homosexuality in English, Ancient and Modern Pederasty Investigated and Exemplified, written by Thomas Cannon, was published, but was suppressed almost immediately. It includes the passage, "Unnatural Desire is a Contradiction in Terms; downright Nonsense. Desire is an amatory Impulse of the inmost human Parts."[141] Around 1785 Jeremy Bentham wrote another defense, but this was not published until 1978.[142] Executions for sodomy continued in the Netherlands until 1803, and in England until 1835.

Between 1864 and 1880 Karl Heinrich Ulrichs published a series of twelve tracts, which he collectively titled Research on the Riddle of Man-Manly Love. In 1867 he became the first self-proclaimed homosexual person to speak out publicly in defense of homosexuality when he pleaded at the Congress of German Jurists in Munich for a resolution urging the repeal of anti-homosexual laws. Sexual Inversion by Havelock Ellis, published in 1896, challenged theories that homosexuality was abnormal, as well as stereotypes, and insisted on the ubiquity of homosexuality and its association with intellectual and artistic achievement.[143] Although medical texts like these (written partly in Latin to obscure the sexual details) were not widely read by the general public, they did lead to the rise of Magnus Hirschfeld's Scientific Humanitarian Committee, which campaigned from 1897 to 1933 against anti-sodomy laws in Germany, as well as a much more informal, unpublicized movement among British intellectuals and writers, led by such figures as Edward Carpenter and John Addington Symonds. Beginning in 1894 with Homogenic Love, Socialist activist and poet Edward Carpenter wrote a string of pro-homosexual articles and pamphlets, and "came out" in 1916 in his book My Days and Dreams. In 1900, Elisar von Kupffer published an anthology of homosexual literature from antiquity to his own time, Lieblingminne und Freundesliebe in der Weltliteratur. His aim was to broaden the public perspective of homosexuality beyond its being viewed simply as a medical or biological issue, but also as an ethical and cultural one. In a backlash to this, the Third Reich specifically targetted LGBT people in the Holocaust.
Middle East, South and Central Asia
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Further information: Homosexuality and Islam

Among many Middle Eastern Muslim cultures egalitarian or age-structured homosexual practices were, and remain, widespread and thinly veiled. The prevailing pattern of same-sex relationships in the temperate and sub-tropical zone stretching from Northern India to the Western Sahara is one in which the relationships were—and are—either gender-structured or age-structured or both. In recent years, egalitarian relationships modeled on the western pattern have become more frequent, though they remain rare. Same-sex intercourse officially carries the death penalty in several Muslim nations: Saudi Arabia, Iran, Mauritania, northern Nigeria, Sudan, and Yemen.[144]

A tradition of art and literature sprang up constructing Middle Eastern homosexuality. Muslim—often Sufi—poets in medieval Arab lands and in Persia wrote odes to the beautiful wine boys who served them in the taverns. In many areas the practice survived into modern times, as documented by Richard Francis Burton, André Gide, and others.

In Persia homosexuality and homoerotic expressions were tolerated in numerous public places, from monasteries and seminaries to taverns, military camps, bathhouses, and coffee houses. In the early Safavid era (1501–1723), male houses of prostitution (amrad khane) were legally recognized and paid taxes. Persian poets, such as Sa’di (d. 1291), Hafez (d. 1389), and Jami (d. 1492), wrote poems replete with homoerotic allusions. The two most commonly documented forms were commercial sex with transgender young males or males enacting transgender roles exemplified by the köçeks and the bacchás, and Sufi spiritual practices in which the practitioner admired the form of a beautiful boy in order to enter ecstatic states and glimpse the beauty of god.

Today, governments in the Middle East often ignore, deny the existence of, or criminalize homosexuality. Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad, during his 2007 speech at Columbia University, asserted that there were no gay people in Iran. Gay people do live in Iran, but most keep their sexuality a secret for fear of government sanction or rejection by their families.[145]

The Laws of Manu, the foundational work of Hindu law, mentions a "third sex", members of which may engage in nontraditional gender expression and homosexual activities.[146]
South Pacific

In many societies of Melanesia, especially in Papua New Guinea, same-sex relationships were an integral part of the culture until the middle of the last century. The Etoro and Marind-anim for example, even viewed heterosexuality as sinful and celebrated homosexuality instead. In many traditional Melanesian cultures a prepubertal boy would be paired with an older adolescent who would become his mentor and who would "inseminate" him (orally, anally, or topically, depending on the tribe) over a number of years in order for the younger to also reach puberty. Many Melanesian societies, however, have become hostile towards same-sex relationships since the introduction of Christianity by European missionaries.[147]
Law, politics, society and sociology
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Legality
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Most nations do not impede consensual sex between unrelated persons above the local age of consent. Some jurisdictions further recognize identical rights, protections, and privileges for the family structures of same-sex couples, including marriage. Some nations mandate that all individuals restrict themselves to heterosexual relationships; that is, in some jurisdictions homosexual activity is illegal. Offenders can face the death penalty in some fundamentalist Muslim areas such as Iran and parts of Nigeria. There are, however, often significant differences between official policy and real-world enforcement. See Violence against LGBT people.

Although homosexual acts were decriminalized in some parts of the Western world, such as Poland in 1932, Denmark in 1933, Sweden in 1944, and the United Kingdom in 1967, it was not until the mid-1970s that the gay community first began to achieve limited civil rights in some developed countries. On July 2, 2009, homosexuality was decriminalized in India by a High Court ruling.[148] A turning point was reached in 1973 when the American Psychiatric Association removed homosexuality from the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, thus negating its previous definition of homosexuality as a clinical mental disorder. In 1977, Quebec became the first state-level jurisdiction in the world to prohibit discrimination on the grounds of sexual orientation. During the 1980s and 1990s, most developed countries enacted laws decriminalizing homosexual behavior and prohibiting discrimination against lesbian and gay people in employment, housing, and services. On the other hand, many countries today in the Middle East and Africa, as well as several countries in Asia, the Caribbean and the South Pacific, outlaw homosexuality. In six countries, homosexual behavior is punishable by life imprisonment; in ten others, it carries the death penalty.[149]
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* Employment discrimination refers to discriminatory employment practices such as bias in hiring, promotion, job assignment, termination, and compensation, and various types of harassment. In the United States there is "very little statutory, common law, and case law establishing employment discrimination based upon sexual orientation as a legal wrong."[150] Some exceptions and alternative legal strategies are available. President Bill Clinton's Executive Order 13087 (1998) prohibits discrimination based on sexual orientation in the competitive service of the federal civilian workforce,[151] and federal non-civil service employees may have recourse under the due process clause of the U.S. Constitution.[152] Private sector workers may have a Title VII action under a quid pro quo sexual harassment theory,[153] a "hostile work environment" theory,[154] a sexual stereotyping theory,[155] or others.[150]
* Housing discrimination refers to discrimination against potential or current tenants by landlords. In the United States, there is no federal law against such discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation or gender identity, but at least thirteen states and many major cities have enacted laws prohibiting it.[156]
* Hate crimes (also known as bias crimes) are crimes motivated by bias against an identifiable social group, usually groups defined by race, religion, sexual orientation, disability, ethnicity, nationality, age, gender, gender identity, or political affiliation. In the United States, 45 states and the District of Columbia have statutes criminalizing various types of bias-motivated violence or intimidation (the exceptions are AZ, GA, IN, SC, and WY). Each of these statutes covers bias on the basis of race, religion, and ethnicity; 32 of them cover sexual orientation, 28 cover gender, and 11 cover transgender/gender-identity.[157] In October 2009, the Matthew Shepard and James Byrd, Jr. Hate Crimes Prevention Act, which "...gives the Justice Department the power to investigate and prosecute bias-motivated violence where the perpetrator has selected the victim because of the person's actual or perceived race, color, religion, national origin, gender, sexual orientation, gender identity or disability," was signed into law and now makes a hate crime based on sexual orientation, amongst other offenses, a federal crime in the United States.[158]

Political activism
Further information: LGBT social movements

Since the 1960s, many LGBT people in the West, particularly those in major metropolitan areas, have developed a so-called gay culture. To many, gay culture is exemplified by the gay pride movement, with annual parades and displays of rainbow flags. Yet not all LGBT people choose to participate in "queer culture", and many gay men and women specifically decline to do so. To some it seems to be a frivolous display, perpetuating gay stereotypes. To some others, the gay culture represents heterophobia and is scorned as widening the gulf between gay and non-gay people.

With the outbreak of AIDS in the early 1980s, many LGBT groups and individuals organized campaigns to promote efforts in AIDS education, prevention, research, patient support, and community outreach, as well as to demand government support for these programs. Gay Men's Health Crisis, Project Inform, and ACT UP are some notable American examples of the LGBT community's response to the AIDS crisis.

The bewildering death toll wrought by the AIDS epidemic at first seemed to slow the progress of the gay rights movement, but in time it galvanized some parts of the LGBT community into community service and political action, and challenged the heterosexual community to respond compassionately. Major American motion pictures from this period that dramatized the response of individuals and communities to the AIDS crisis include An Early Frost (1985), Longtime Companion (1990), And the Band Played On (1993), Philadelphia (1993), and Common Threads: Stories from the Quilt (1989), the last referring to the NAMES Project AIDS Memorial Quilt, last displayed in its entirety on the Mall in Washington, D.C., in 1996.

Publicly gay politicians have attained numerous government posts, even in countries that had sodomy laws in their recent past. Examples include Peter Mandelson, a British Labour Party cabinet minister, and Per-Kristian Foss, formerly Norwegian Minister of Finance.

LGBT movements are opposed by a variety of individuals and organizations. Some social conservatives believe that all sexual relationships with people other than an opposite-sex spouse undermine the traditional family[159] and that children should be reared in homes with both a father and a mother.[160][161] There is concern that gay rights may conflict with individuals' freedom of speech,[162][163][164][165][166] religious freedoms in the workplace,[167][168] the ability to run churches,[169] charitable organizations[170][171] and other religious organizations[172] in accordance with one's religious views, and that the acceptance of homosexual relationships by religious organizations might be forced through threatening to remove the tax-exempt status of churches whose views don't align with those of the government.[173][174][175][176]

Critics charge that political correctness has led to the association of sex between males and HIV being downplayed.[177][178]
Relationships

In 2006, the American Psychological Association, American Psychiatric Association and National Association of Social Workers stated in an Amicus Brief presented to the Supreme Court of the State of California: "Gay men and lesbians form stable, committed relationships that are equivalent to heterosexual relationships in essential respects. The institution of marriage offers social, psychological, and health benefits that are denied to same-sex couples. By denying same-sex couples the right to marry, the state reinforces and perpetuates the stigma historically associated with homosexuality. Homosexuality remains stigmatized, and this stigma has negative consequences. California’s prohibition on marriage for same-sex couples reflects and reinforces this stigma". They concluded: "There is no scientific basis for distinguishing between same-sex couples and heterosexual couples with respect to the legal rights, obligations, benefits, and burdens conferred by civil marriage."[17]
Military service
Main article: Sexual orientation and military service

Policies and attitudes toward gay and lesbian military personnel vary widely around the world. Some countries allow gay men, lesbians, and bisexual people to serve openly and have granted them the same rights and privileges as their heterosexual counterparts. Many countries neither ban nor support LGB service members. A few countries continue to ban homosexual personnel outright.

Most Western military forces have removed policies excluding sexual minority members. Of the 26 countries that participate militarily in NATO, more than 20 permit openly gay, lesbian and bisexual people to serve. Of the permanent members of the United Nations Security Council, two (United Kingdom and France) do so. The other three generally do not: China bans gay and lesbian people outright, Russia excludes all gay and lesbian people during peacetime but allows some gay men to serve in wartime (see below), and the United States (see Don't ask, don't tell) technically permits gay and lesbian people to serve, but only in secrecy and celibacy. Israel is the only country in the Middle East region that allows openly LGB people to serve in the military.

While the question of homosexuality in the military has been highly politicized in the United States, it is not necessarily so in many countries. Generally speaking, sexuality in these cultures is considered a more personal aspect of one's identity than it is in the United States.
Religion
Main article: Religion and homosexuality

Though the relationship between homosexuality and religion can vary greatly across time and place, within and between different religions and sects, and regarding different forms of homosexuality and bisexuality, current authoritative bodies and doctrines of the world's largest religions generally view homosexuality negatively. This can range from quietly discouraging homosexual activity, to explicitly forbidding same-sex sexual practices among adherents and actively opposing social acceptance of homosexuality. Some teach that homosexual orientation itself is sinful,[179] while others assert that only the sexual act is a sin. Some claim that homosexuality can be overcome through religious faith and practice. On the other hand, voices exist within many of these religions that view homosexuality more positively, and liberal religious denominations may bless same-sex marriages. Some view same-sex love and sexuality as sacred, and a mythology of same-sex love can be found around the world. Regardless of their position on homosexuality, many people of faith look to both sacred texts and tradition for guidance on this issue. However, the authority of various traditions or scriptural passages and the correctness of translations and interpretations are hotly disputed.
Heterosexism and homophobia
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In many cultures, homosexual people are frequently subject to prejudice and discrimination. Like members of many other minority groups that are the objects of prejudice, they are also subject to stereotyping, which further adds to marginalization. The prejudice, discrimination and stereotyping are all likely tied to forms of homophobia and heterosexism, which is negative attitudes, bias, and discrimination in favor of opposite-sex sexuality and relationships. Heterosexism can include the presumption that everyone is heterosexual or that opposite-sex attractions and relationships are the norm and therefore superior. Homophobia is a fear of, aversion to, or discrimination against homosexual people. It manifests in different forms, and a number of different types have been postulated, among which are internalized homophobia, social homophobia, emotional homophobia, rationalized homophobia, and others.[180] Similar is lesbophobia (specifically targeting lesbians) and biphobia (against bisexual people). When such attitudes manifest as crimes they are often called hate crimes and gay bashing.

Negative stereotypes characterize LGB people as less romantically stable, more promiscuous and more likely to abuse children, but research has generally contradicted such assertions.[181][182] Research suggests LGB people develop enduring romantic relationships.[183] Gay men are often alleged as having pedophilic tendencies and more likely to commit child sexual abuse than the heterosexual male population, a view rejected by mainstream psychiatric groups and contradicted by research.[184][185][186] Claims that there is scientific evidence to support an association between being gay and being a pedophile are based on misuses of those terms and misrepresentation of the actual evidence.[187]
Violence against gay and lesbian people
Main article: Violence against LGBT people

In the United States, the FBI reported that 15.6% of hate crimes reported to police in 2004 were based on perceived sexual orientation. Sixty-one percent of these attacks were against gay men.[188] The 1998 murder of Matthew Shepard, a gay student, is one of the most notorious incidents in the U.S.
Homosexual behavior in animals
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Roy and Silo, two New York Central Park Zoo male Chinstrap Penguins similar to those pictured, became internationally known when they coupled and later were given an egg that needed hatching and care, which they successfully did.[189]

Homosexual behavior in animals refers to the documented evidence of homosexual, bisexual and transgender behavior in non-human animals. Such behaviors include sex, courtship, affection, pair bonding, and parenting. Homosexual and bisexual behavior are widespread in the animal kingdom: a 1999 review by researcher Bruce Bagemihl shows that homosexual behavior has been observed in close to 1500 species, ranging from primates to gut worms, and is well documented for 500 of them.[4][5] Animal sexual behavior takes many different forms, even within the same species. The motivations for and implications of these behaviors have yet to be fully understood, since most species have yet to be fully studied.[190] According to Bagemihl, "the animal kingdom [does] it with much greater sexual diversity -- including homosexual, bisexual and nonreproductive sex -- than the scientific community and society at large have previously been willing to accept."[191]
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Online articles

* Burr, Chandler. Homosexuality and biology. The Atlantic, June 1997, ISSN 10727825. An overview of recent research in layman's language.
* BBC News (Feb 1998): Fingerprints Study
* BBC News (Apr 1999): Doubt cast on 'gay gene'
* WebMD (March 2000): Pointing the Finger at Androgen as a Cause of Homosexuality
* BBC News (Oct 2004): Genetics of homosexuality
* James Davidson, London Review of Books, June 2, 2005, "Mr and Mr and Mrs and Mrs" – detailed review of The Friend, by Alan Bray, a history of same-sex marriage and other same-sex formal bonds

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* Gay, Lesbian and Bisexual/History at the Open Directory Project
* Answers to Your Questions About Sexual Orientation and Homosexuality The American Psychological Association
* Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy - Homosexuality

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The Room Where i lost everything

2009-11-23T23:04:00.001-08:00

I had no luck in changing anything

I think I heard the rain falling I wondered but I couldn’t open my eyes at least at that point—I think I heard bits of the sky crashing as well –Crashing and swooping the whole bit of the world Right as Thunder Coming in Clearly—He said Yes now wait a minute he said only the sound of you only like the day that has gone but what about me I said I only heard them wait now they are waiting down here—I think she hadn’t turned around in years I hadn’t seen her in years I didn’t want to see them anymore either They were the ones who were there When I turned around he said –only you he said You fucking monster I said Only wait Who the fuck was that that came thru the floor I only heard them the room now made the most of what we said I am the only person there and the only one there now too I said that and I said wait I can hear it can’t I get the part of who you are He said I only am the one who mad e the most of what I said I am the only one turning time now up and down and I thought I was very sorry for all of that he said and you were only making me come thru to wait here clearly I was making you come thru there too.
Hadn’t seen her in years then she was standing there I said It was after a long pause it had been a while he said –it’s just been a long time I said I am the only one waiting left to stand here next to you down there near where I came from in the end I came from there didn’t you come from here in the end didn’t you come from here I said yes I did come from here I was them they were me I think that’s at least how it all began I heard that one sound come back being the way it was before with just no one I was that one I said I was the only one left he said I can’t hold on much longer he said I am the only one going much longer I said I never heard of you again it was the longest time he said I only was the one now the one next to nothing Boards and Nails he said I am written here and that’s where I exist There’s nothing else nothing new and nothing perplexing.

(To Julie)

In The Light near the house

Where you were eaten up bye the darkness before

When you Thought of her

You Thought of them

As well

As the time You thought of me

Nothing though

No Joke now

I only feel Fear

Though

Now

I only feel you too

You in the hole and me down

There With You

Only Me as the one against you

I Only feel fear now

I only feel the loss of time

I Only feel The loss of hope and Regret too

Only the feeling of Fear and Doubt too

He only said I wait for them

But you stand Still For no one

Not me

No one At all

I only Hold On For You

She Said

I don’t wait for anyone Else

Who do you think

Will Be Killed Bye You

Inside Of Her again

2009-11-22T22:05:00.000-08:00

It's
about time to be posting
again
a lot of bad
breaks
bad relationships
disappointments
addictions
dislikes
even
disgust in the last few months

Only a few good things to report

did
meet a really great
artist
named Zoe Goehring and am doing a book in collaboration with her Plus doing a book of her own work in the spring
also
Bill
Hughes Next book
and some others
sam pink
jason jordan
scott mcclanahan
too

after
a few days ago i thought i was almost no more
almost

had a bad reaction to a
chemical
called C2i
and nearly
got wiped
out
in can't recommend it to anyone

but some old friends are back in my life
too
which is good

the last few months seperated friends from frauds

I Look forward to posting more often

mom and dad

2009-11-22T21:55:00.000-08:00

Kevin Michael "GG" Allin (August 29, 1956 – June 28, 1993) was an American punk rock singer-songwriter who performed and recorded with many punk groups during his career. Allin is best remembered for his notorious live performances which typically featured wildly transgressive acts, such as Allin defecating and urinating onstage, rolling in feces and often consuming excrement, performing naked, committing self-injury, and attacking audience members. Although more notorious for his stage antics than for his music, he recorded prolifically, not only in the punk rock genre, but also in spoken word, country, and more traditional-style rock. His extremely politically incorrect lyrics, which often covered subjects such as misogyny, pedophilia and racism, created varied opinions of him within the highly politicized punk community. Though he had a devoted cult following, Allin's music was often poorly recorded and has received mostly negative reviews from critics.[1][2][3] However, his status as a cult figure is such that a number of bands have covered his songs. Among them, the 69 Eyes have covered "Gimme Some Head," and Beck has covered "Tough Fucking Shit."
Contents
[hide]

* 1 Life
o 1.1 Childhood
o 1.2 Early music career
o 1.3 Mid era
o 1.4 1989 trial
o 1.5 Documentary
o 1.6 Death
* 2 Beliefs
* 3 Media
* 4 Discography
* 5 References
* 6 External links

[edit] Life
[edit] Childhood

GG Allin was born as Jesus Christ Allin at Weeks Memorial Hospital in Lancaster, New Hampshire. He was given this messianic name because his father, Merle Colby Allin Sr., then 33 years old, told his wife, Arleta Gunther, then 20 years old, that Jesus Christ himself had visited him and told him that his newborn son would be a great and all powerful man in the vein of the Messiah.[1][4]

His older brother Merle Colby Allin, Jr. was unable to pronounce "Jesus" properly and kept calling him "Jeje", which became "GG". The family lived in a log cabin with no water or electricity in northern New Hampshire. Allin's father, who forbade all conversation in the home after dark, was a religious fanatic and an antisocial man, and was physically abusive towards his wife and children, though GG himself never used this as an excuse for any of his personal troubles. At age 12, Allin contracted Lyme disease and claimed to have never fully recovered from the effects of having the disease at such a young age.

In 1961, Arleta filed for divorce from Merle Sr., as his mental instability was worsening. GG Allin and his brother were from that time raised by their mother and stepfather, and settled in East St. Johnsbury, Vermont in 1966.[1] Arleta changed her younger son's legal name to Kevin Michael Allin on March 2, 1962 during his first year of schooling. Arleta had allowed his birth name to stand until this point, but finally changed it in order to give her son a chance at a normal, mockery-free childhood.

Allin was a poor student at school, being placed in special education classes and having to repeat the third grade. He was regarded as a misfit by his peers and suffered intense bullying from classmates[citation needed]. In his sophomore year he began attending school in drag, which he said was inspired by the New York Dolls[citation needed]. When asked about his childhood, GG has been quoted as saying "Very chaotic. Full of chances and dangers. We sold drugs, stole, broke into houses, cars, etc. Did whatever we wanted to for the most part - including all the bands we played in. People even hated us back then."[5]
[edit] Early music career

Some of Allin's earliest recorded musical endeavors were as a drummer. During high school, he had a penchant for provocative theatrics early on. While performing with his first band at a high school prom, he pulled down the decorations provoking positive reactions from the crowd.

Allin graduated from Concord High School in nearby Concord, Vermont in 1975, and shortly after formed the band Malpractice with several high school friends and his older brother Merle. He was the drummer for Malpractice until the band separated in 1977. He later became the drummer for the band Stripsearch, and was able to write and perform two songs: "Galileo" and "Jesus in New York."

His first years as a frontman were with The Jabbers (1977 – April 1984). The Jabbers recorded a number of tracks for which Allin played drums and performed vocals. In 1980 came Allin's debut release, Always Was, Is and Always Shall Be. At the time, Allin was a standard punk rock frontman in the vein of Iggy Pop and Stiv Bators and his music was a catchy, danceable mix of power pop and hardcore punk. He was managed at one point by industry veteran (and The Dead Boys producer) Genya Ravan. Tensions within The Jabbers began to mount as Allin became increasingly uncontrollable, vicious, and uncompromising. The Jabbers discontinued, and the members parted ways. Allin's drug use started during this period.

During the early to mid 1980s, Allin fronted many acts. These included early albums varying from The Cedar Street Sluts to The Scumfucs in 1982, and The Texas Nazis in 1985. However, Allin remained in the underground hardcore scene and was not yet a viable icon of the east coast hardcore scene.

Though still a marginal figure, Allin gained wider attention with the release by Reachout International Records (ROIR) of Hated in the Nation (1987), a cassette-only release at the time, which contained several tracks from Allin's then-out-of-print back catalogue with The Jabbers, The Scumfucs and Cedar Street Sluts. The tape also featured several new recordings, both in-studio and in-concert, with an all-star band assembled by producer, Maximum RocknRoll columnist, and early Allin patron Mykel Board. This band featured J Mascis of Dinosaur Jr. on lead guitar, and Bongwater record producer/musician Mark Kramer on bass.

Tracy Deneault was a teenage girl Allin began seeing when his wife, Sandra Farrow, divorced him. On March 13, 1986, a daughter was born to Allin and Deneault. Little is known about the child, Nicoann Deneault. It has been speculated that the small picture in GG's left hand at his funeral may have been of Nicoann, though it is most likely a picture depicting Allin himself at a younger age.[6] Allin and Tracey Deneault never married.
[edit] Mid era

By the mid to late 1980s, Allin was addicted to heroin and alcohol and generally abused any intoxicants provided to him, sometimes taking pills without even asking what they were. His hygiene was atrocious and he only rarely bathed. At this point, Allin also began eating laxatives before performances - as defecation was becoming a regular stage act. Allin described himself as "the last true rock and roller". By this, he meant that rock and roll music itself had started as an embodiment of danger, anti-authoritarianism, rebelliousness but had become largely taken over by corporations and business concerns. Allin's music and performances were thus meant to return rock and roll to what he saw as its roots, reclaiming it from the corporate system.

Allin idolized country music legend Hank Williams, Sr, and saw himself as a kindred spirit. Both were relative loners and outsiders, both were habitual users of intoxicants, both lived with few, if any, possessions and both traveled the country relentlessly. GG Allin's acoustic output, documented particularly on the EP The Troubled Troubador, was heavily influenced by Williams. He recorded his own rewrites of Hank Williams, Jr.'s "Family Tradition" and David Allan Coe's "Longhaired Redneck", calling his own versions "Scumfuc Tradition" and "Outlaw Scumfuc" respectively. Later GG Allin also released another country album Carnival of Excess.
A typically bloodied GG Allin c. 1992

During this period, Allin collaborated with Bulge (also known as Psycho under a different name, on the album Freaks, Faggots, Drunks and Junkies), The Aids Brigade (the 7" EP Expose Yourself To Kids) and The Holymen (You Give Love a Bad Name). Allin also began performing many spoken word pieces. Video footage of these are available but rare. Unwilling to seek steady employment, Allin supported himself by selling his own records. He also claimed to have committed criminal acts such as breaking and entering, robbery and mugging. Allin was also fascinated with serial killers. He wrote and visited John Wayne Gacy in prison a number of times and Gacy painted a portrait of Allin, which became the album cover to the soundtrack of the film, Hated: GG Allin And The Murder Junkies (see murderabilia). According to Gacy, Allin was "a good kid" but that he "smelled like the worst piss-soaked wino".

By this point, Allin's performances, which often resulted in considerable damage to venues and sound equipment, were regularly stopped after only a few songs by police or venue owners. Allin was charged with assault and battery or indecent exposure a number of times. His constant touring was only stopped by jail time or by long hospital stays for broken bones, blood poisoning, and other physical trauma.

Another attraction to Allin performances was his continual threats of suicide. In 1988, Allin wrote to Maximum RocknRoll stating that he would commit suicide on stage on Halloween 1989. However, he was in jail when that day came. He continued his threat each following year but ended up imprisoned each following Halloween. When asked why he does not follow through with his threats, or sometimes his on-stage defecations, Allin stated, "With GG, you don't get what you expect—you get what you deserve."[7] He also stated that suicide should only be done when one had reached their peak, meeting the afterlife at their strongest point and not at their weakest.[8]
[edit] 1989 trial

In late 1989, Allin was arrested and charged with rape and torture of a female acquaintance in Ann Arbor, Michigan.

In a psychological evaluation made as part of the trial,[9] Allin was judged as having at least average intelligence, and was described as "courteous, cooperative and candid". The unnamed evaluator noted Allin did not appear psychotic, and seemed comfortable with his unorthodox lifestyle. However, the evaluator asserted Allin did have behaviors consistent with masochism and narcissism, and displayed symptoms of borderline personality disorder and bipolar disorder.

Allin initially denied the charges, claiming the woman was a willing participant in sexual activities with him, only later changing her account of events.[10] According to Allin, he cut her, burned her, and drank her blood, however she did the same thing to him. Allin also claimed inconsistencies in the woman's statements to authorities supported his assertions, and the judge in the case agreed there were substantial inconsistencies in the woman's account.[10] Ultimately, however, Allin plea bargained to reduced felony assault charges,[10] and he was imprisoned from December 20, 1989 – March 26, 1991.

It was during this time in prison that Allin began feeling re-energized about his life and "mission", as he put it. He wrote and published The GG Allin Manifesto[11] (1990) during this period.
[edit] Documentary

After his release from prison, Allin skipped parole to go on another tour, footage of which made it into Todd Phillips' documentary Hated: GG Allin and the Murder Junkies. The documentary also contained graphic scenes from other Allin appearances as well as interviews with Allin, his brother and fellow band member Merle Allin, and the Murder Junkies' naked drummer Dino. The film came out in 1994 and was released on DVD in 1997. As of 2009 the film can be seen "On Demand" through many national and local cable providers.

During the 1990s GG Allin recorded his Murder Junkies album released by New Rose Records and featuring the band ANTiSEEN. This album contained 10 musical tracks and 10 spoken-word pieces. Other than Freaks, Faggots, Drunks and Junkies, Allin considered this album to be his most polished professionally recorded album that explored his persona and stated his philosophy on life. It was also during this period that Allin recorded the War In My Head - I'm Your Enemy album released on Awareness Records and featuring the band Shrinkwrap. This particular album consists of one 45 minute track that is a collage of spoken-word pieces which Shrinkwrap put to music.

Meanwhile, Allin's growing notoriety led to appearances on Geraldo, The Jerry Springer Show and The Jane Whitney Show. He was cheered and booed by fans and enemies at the same time. Merle appeared in the audience during a show, prompting Geraldo Riviera to sarcastically comment to him "that's a great mustache".
[edit] Death
GG Allin's final resting place in Littleton, New Hampshire.

Despite threats of an onstage suicide, Allin died of a heroin overdose in Manhattan on June 28, 1993, in the Alphabet City apartment of John Handley Hurt and Dwanna Yount three days after attending the premiere of the documentary Hated, whose director gives an account of Allin's attendance in Bizarre Magazine. He was found lying in an acquaintance's apartment on the night of the 29th but had actually died the previous night in his sleep. He was 36 years old. His last show was at a small club called "The Gas Station" (which was literally inside of a former gas station), located across the street from Hurt and Yount's apartment. Video footage of the soundcheck, concert, and aftermath is appended to the DVD release of Hated. During the show's second song the power went out, after which he trashed the venue, walked across the street entirely naked, and then continued on (shirtless and covered in blood and feces) through the neighborhood, followed by a large group of fans whom he both discouraged and openly embraced.[12] On VH1's Freakiest Concert Moments, Allin's final show ranked at number four.

After arriving at the apartment, Allin injected the large dose of heroin that killed him. Some party-goers later posed for photos with Allin, not knowing that he was already dead. The next morning, some noticed that Allin still lay motionless in the same place where they had left him, and called for an ambulance. Allin was pronounced dead at the scene.[13]

At his funeral, Allin's bloated, discolored corpse was dressed in his black leather jacket and trademark jock strap. He had a bottle of Jim Beam beside him in his casket, per his wishes (openly stated in his self-penned acoustic country ballad, "When I Die"). As part of his brother's request, the mortician was instructed not to wash the corpse (which smelled strongly of feces), or apply any makeup. The funeral became a wild party. Friends posed with the corpse, placing drugs and whiskey into its mouth. As the funeral ended, his brother put a pair of headphones on Allin. The headphones were plugged into a portable cassette player, in which was loaded a copy of The Suicide Sessions. The video of his funeral is widely available for purchase, and is an extra feature on the Hated DVD and some bootleg VHS tapes.[13]

His grave is frequently "vandalized" with feces and alcohol by fans[14].

At the time of his death, Allin was making plans for a spoken-word album, and a somewhat unlikely European tour. Reports say he was enthusiastically talking about them to a friend in the hours before his death.[15]
[edit] Beliefs

Through his lyrics, television appearances, and documentary, GG Allin expressed an archaically unified philosophy closely resembling the libertine beliefs of the notorious French writer Marquis de Sade, though Allin never expressed a particular liking for de Sade's works. Allin believed that he was the rock and roll messiah, come to reclaim punk and rock'n'roll music from commerciality and corporatism (see megalomania). During the height of his notoriety in the early 1990s, Allin had a small following of young female fans with whom he had sexual relations. On The Jane Whitney Show, Allin spoke freely of having a seventeen-year-old girl urinate in his mouth and having her watch him masturbate. [16]

Allin was an extreme individualist and anti-authoritarian, promoting lawlessness and violence against police officers in many of his lyrics, and in his essay, The GG Allin Manifesto, was intended to summarize his personal philosophy. He stated on Geraldo that he believed that his body was a temple of rock and roll worship, which he used to promote his beliefs in individualist anarchism and destruction. Another reason he gave for his onstage antics was that he wanted to draw a parable between his actions and "a society that's going crazy with violence." [17]

Only I waited on it

2009-04-15T22:21:00.001-07:00

Long
days
but fast though too .. a lot of breathing .. living .. dying and wanting to come back again
Losing myself
amazingly so
I Think
ARE You dating in there
are
You just in yr head

Fear and nothing more ... Really taking things a lot better.. lately... so many great images
of devastation and things enlightening too ... no more time to think about hope only time to move without ... no more fear

in Near back again

2009-04-15T22:05:00.000-07:00

Dark first moving fast
feeling exhausted
everything you've
got
You've
had to give
only
hope
but nothing else
no one lonely

no one making mistakes
breathing barely yet holing on someone destroyed bye somebody else

they
all
said
and no one
moving bye with fear
who
the hell knows who you are anyways
we
laughed
but not at the people
we
Loved
even when they shoved us out
death
shoved us in

Love and Death

2009-04-15T22:01:00.000-07:00

A long bout of confusing days ... i just havent had any time to deal with .. this blog, but i want too

DEATH POEM TO BILL HUGHES

hard not hear
the edges of bits of life pour in thru us
Are you inside yet
they all wanted to ask us

Are we inside yet ....
ARE You
near them

Sitting on a bed he said
I think
I can find out later
near
Water
I think
or holes burnt in beds
Life
just smiling simply
the
night darker
moving past the window
the fastest
thing
when we knew
moving
past
them was upon
us
how
do you let death slip
away

She Who is Destroyed

2009-04-03T00:36:00.000-07:00

why
is
this pain Just like us for weeks
why
does it linger We can't really say... all the time weeping i felt i think I was weeping or something i wasn't sure though
I can't
remember
Much of anything

I can't remember much of anything at all
At all
I remember
nothing
No
One
but
then i saw her
Face
It wasnt easy
to see it again
and again
why all over
why are these
th e things That alway s destroy me
what do i have to do now
I said
to myself
what does she have to do as well
what
Kind of color destroyed
bye
me
are you Like Light
yes
I said
I am
Like Light
but
then the same as dark
I am
just nothing i think
I think i am just nothing
I mean i know that now
dont i
dont you think

As the same as All the people i Meet

2009-04-03T00:30:00.000-07:00

I Think i must have been held under some kind of oppression for the last few weeks thats what Bill Hughes tells me ... I think we saw death together ... I think i saw something that was amazing too ... I think We both saw are Life Flash before us They have just risen up... didnt they say that to Amber Reed... didnt they tell her She's risen up but not against us ... not against us only the same as us aren't we the ones who will Hold you To me Yes We will i think ... I can say that Why Though Amber Reed ....
Why Me ?
I ask
again and again
I ask Dana that too
I Must have
surely
have asked that Question
We
walked
bye that Pond
coverd in mud
saw
the debris strewn in it too
We
Held hands too and thought
I think
We touched on something
that would have been impossible
other wise
I dont Know what the price
is
now
I Knew before
I Think
I am willing to pay it if i havent
Paid it
yet
I at least thought i'd paid it before
but
now
I Know that maybe i hadn't
I think
I Know about fear
that
make s me feel
Closer to Amber Reed
when i think of Fear
When i stand there
and
someone
else
told
it's all so
terrible but it's only one voice speaking
it's
only
one
voice
but is it really You?

NO NO GOOD JOB GOB LIN

2009-03-31T01:29:00.000-07:00

THERES NOTHING
TO STOP
THIS GOBLYN
HE
BURNS
MY LUST
HE
LAYS
MY EGG

HE'S JUST LIKE SOMETHING FROM JENNY CRAIG
EVEN
WHEN HE TELLS ME I SHOULD JUMP SHIP
SHOULD
i BREAK A LEG
sexually
THEY
SAY
DO THEY SPEAK OF NO ONE
NOHOW
ON
LIKE
A goblyn
i"d
HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THAT THEYD say

WE
do
we
only hold on

When i'm suicidally DEPRESSED IN BILL HUGHES CAR

2009-03-31T01:22:00.000-07:00

Sometimes
we
drive
out to the suburbs
in
his
spiffy
YOUBERGER
Sometimes
He buys a milkshake
from the caterbean
sometimes
he
buys ham sandwhichs
from Whole
Foods
Some times
he opens
a bag
and pulls his SEX FROM THE AIRE

HE ASKED WHO YOU'll date
do you
spin
around this Whole
this COMMODE
this
Last
tear
drop
my dear
goblyn
as we drove up the hill
nothing can
save us now
this last
inch
where
we
move in
there's
no one standing here
now
When
I'm
broke
and alone
Remember me for one
thing
Gobyln i will always Have your DATE

Fully Magnified

2009-03-31T01:18:00.000-07:00

That
Boy named Goblyn
Drove
me down and out of my pain again today

WE
Rode
a dad line together
We
didnt stop
there
was no mercy
I laid his floor
with
a cup
of his Juice

I sat
against his wall
with
A glass of his water

He took notes
about The BAND
Weight
and Then we listened to him talking to his dad
on the phone
then
he said
get up and go on

WE SPIN around the date
we
are Consumed bye Goblyns

BILL H BILL H !!!

We were alive barely

2009-03-24T00:52:00.001-07:00

To a Lost friend

There was a really bad man

he broke us pretty good

neither one of us

could go on

with the other

because neither one of us

knew what to do

Alone

so

we couldnt think of doing it together

we lost each other

these pieces of me then
are gone
tossed up grinded to bits
I dont know what to make of the ones of you
now
Knowing the Little i Know

I Only
Know
I
Won't Live
without myself
anymore
Like
I did
when i was broken
after Him BYE what he'd done

as I write this I feel Driven

2009-03-24T00:44:00.001-07:00

It's
as if there's light coming in from all sides when you see William Hughes Face... he's fresh faced barely 22..... or he will be soon.. Why so fucking receptive you might ask to all things insane things, beautiful things... horrible things... thoughts feelings and words --HE Destroys the notions I held true about my life in the last two years leading up to meeting him .. i was a recoving alcoholic and a bitter one too .. i resented that i couldnt Go out any more or do much of anything and felt that I was burnt out... William Bill The Goblyn breathed new life back into me and too Pittsburgh Where i've lived for ten years He's doing a reading coming up in the next few weeks... his book Vagrancy is out now .. he has At least three others his Publshing this Year... he's one of those people who has your back in such entirety that it feels like he's all you've got sometimes At any rate Goblyn William You Define Me and make this City a better Place and this world a better World.

I Know that i fail

2009-03-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

nothing may come of must of what i do I dont really do anything at all .. watch some strange images and hear odd sounds try to work things out in my life and get nowhere come back to square one but i like doing it ... other people are frustrated a lot of people are bitter ... but i feel .. that i want to do something with my life i mean that
I've tried to for years
I Mean
I've published a lot of peoples book
which
I guess means i opened
a door for them
but i lost a lot of myself in doing so
so it's a double edged sword
Obvious
it's
just true that to gain you have to lose
obviously
I have some friends who dont really feel that
way
and i dont get it
and they frustate me
This is a loop of Frustration

We Go on Loveing each other

2009-03-24T00:27:00.000-07:00

i wondered tonight how any of else can really go on--i mean moving ahead and never knowing what really does lie next.... i felt like taking chances.. at one point in my life and i still do now ... they just have to come to me in a different sense --i live in this world with a lot of people I do meet a lot of people who i dont like ... but i really love the people in my life at this point --They each define a part of me ... Bill Hughes is great Angele Ellis is great Andrew Sydlik is great Miles is great too and of course dana killmeyer and kristin Mamaula .... Havent really seen my parents much lately.. but i still love them too ....

lets talk to about who we dont love the bad memories that come back in where some else tried to break you imposed their pain ont o you i have a lot of moements lkke that i mean ... it --where i feel Broken

They forced
all
in said no one make a sound
into a small round room
and there was a room to the said with a light in it and a man sitting there
we
were on a dirt floor
the came bye and beat us and tried to get us up
and i was scared too
I wondered
someone touched part of me
my penis in the shower
I Think
they punched it
it
was in their
hand
I Must have wept then
I Must have wept
Like
Bleeding though now
so different i Weep though too
for
dana
for
jessica
for Bill too

I am done weeping i think
unless
someone
wants to borrow my mind
and fuck it all up
I am in hell too
just imprisoned every day
and i rarely
find a moment like
I do now where i am at peace

Crest Fallen

2009-03-22T01:41:00.001-07:00

Six and Six is the name of the second album by reclusive Houston musician Jandek, though it was the first to be released under that moniker (the previous, Ready for the House, was credited to "The Units" on its first pressing). It was released by Corwood Industries (#0740). There have been two CD reissues so far, each adding more silence between the tracks.

The album was released in 1981, three years after Jandek's debut Ready for the House, and is comprised mainly of slow songs, most of which dealt with topics like regret and hopelessness. The music is stark and slow, with a flattened-out dissonant blues sound. The cover image, reminiscent of the famous photo of Robert Johnson, is a photo of Jandek himself. It is one of the most well known images of him.

[edit] Track listing

1. "Feathered Drums" – 3:34
2. "Point Judith" – 4:16
3. "I Knew You Would Leave" – 10:14
4. "Can I See Your Clock" – 3:00
5. "Wild Strawberries" – 6:02
6. "Forgive Me" – 4:05
7. "Hilltop Serenade" – 5:31
8. "You're the Best One" – 3:06
9. "Delinquent Words" – 3:58

[edit] External links

Looking into Darkest night

2009-03-22T01:41:00.000-07:00

Waiting
for nothing
Hell
too
waiting on something else

SAW
CHE PART ONE Tonight
it
was really
amazing actually i can't believe the sense
of
history it conveyed
at
the same time
being so entertaining too

saw
bill
hughes
yesterday
seeing him again tomorrow

Wrote a poem for him too

NO ONE
DATES

death Called me in wheeling

2009-03-17T12:05:00.000-07:00

POEM to Matt Wellins And JAG

Death
Called me
in Wheeling
the
other
day
I didn't stop to answer

Death
called me
in wheeling the other
day
and i said is matt wellins there?
it
said
no
I said
Oh
wait
what about Bill Hughes
Matt Wellens
Said
he's
out somewhere in the back just hanging around
I am here
too
over there where he is
trying find JAG

Oh
Wheeling
Burn your
Town
down

OH Wheeling
Burn yr
town down
oh wheeling streets your
made of Gloom

Yr So
Doomy
Yr
so impossible

With that Wheeling Hassel and all

Matt Wellins

2009-03-17T11:53:00.000-07:00

He is as evasive as any stalker/ poet and as goalbic.. as any former pittsburgher.. he lives in baltimore now.. or Bal Tim Ore.. as they say .... My favorite films bye him are the Ferris wheel art ones... usually after he shows them to me i ask him who he's dating, i always tell him he should do a book but he always gives me a fragment and tells me i should edit it to be real book.. i never get around to doing this thus til he does we won't have a book

High Speed

2009-03-16T16:11:00.000-07:00

I Guess i had a bad day overall... pretty bleeding terrible.... trying to just make things right
but why can't i just make things right
I want too
I mean it
if someone would
Let
me
Someone
must
Know i am out there and that i want to be there friend... someone must know how lonely i am Baby Hughy seems to know that .. i am happy that he does know that ... what do though when he's away ... Baby KEcky Seems to know what too REferring to William Keckler and William Hughes those two are good friends and people... now I am down in oakland we are having a party on the weekend i am looking forward to it i am getting paid something soon enough to make bills and rent i am happy about t hat too

A new peace about Life and thoughts too IS THAT ALL YOU CAN CALL IT

2009-03-15T18:12:00.001-07:00

Hey the first time i heard of crowly was back a long time ago .... it must have been during a kenneth anger film.... i think .... now i know a lot more about crowly from parsons and what not it still scares me was he really so bad or was he just so good ... hopefully... we'll find out when we meet up i hope to meet him but i have to say more later

tonight Woke up With Eyes

2009-03-15T18:05:00.000-07:00

What are these pieces of out lives that we construct out of memory one being a picture of andrea who i wonder if i really do know anymore... one being a picture... of A novel that i Took out of Print a Long time ago and i dont know if i ever will bring it back into print.... I Am not sure... one is that image from that bresson film.....
that film defines my life

To Andrea Musher

Dark Just comes right up
and steals you away from
me
I think it always
did
remember the one time
we drove back from the south hills you
bought
the clash
another green world
and i bought captain beefheart
I Had
just ran into you in the lobby of the harris
and i was seeing twin falls idaho
and i told you to come inside but you said you had to
be in
bed
i watched Cassavetes husbands that night
that was the only time i ever saw
it
but that was the beginning of our friendship
I guess
it came slowly
but
i guess
Not much of it is coming back now

These images
are amazing
all
i've
got to do now is live and die as fast as i can

some feelings on Friendships

2009-03-15T17:58:00.001-07:00

There are just things that We are left with in life after someone is gone it's like more or mediation on life on Amber Reed.... since she was a big lost for me ... but what the fuck, Losing a friend Like her then making a friend like Bill Hughs... i mean bills one of the best guys i know he is always supportive and availalbe ... probably the Best person in pgh i think .... I can't go on sometimes without his support it's Crazy how much he does for people and never thinks of himself.. right now he's on the way back to pgh.... He was out on spring break seeing important friends in his life ...... I Posted some images along with these Post that have stuck with me and Him

these increible nights

2009-03-15T17:53:00.000-07:00

Rode my bike down to meet my partner... hanging out now .. thought i'd do a post .. i was thinking about Manoel De Olivieria(SP) on the way down the masterful filmmaker who just turned 100 years old...... and whos Films have always touched me .... I am glad that he's still out making films i especially injoyed a talking picture.... also was thinking of the first book i ever wrote Rockets Construe Vala.. it would be nice to dust that thing off for a reprint

This is a story of loss and regret

2009-03-15T16:39:00.001-07:00

Amber
Reed
are you listening , then why ... i have to say .. all i get is a message saying you can't make it and then i get an email a few hours later Where you tell me thats how things are going to be for now ... We never said are Last words
I Know i have some strong ones for you

ARE you dating
are you in bed
are you seeing

I have a tendency to scream and Yell Constantly
I have History of watching The abstract religiously

are you out there
do you ever want to get even
Well, for everything

sometimes i think about you a lot

Scooter

2009-03-15T15:21:00.000-07:00

Laying Low A world
and a woman
thinking about Amber Reed Today... again.. wondering what she would make of all of this --i mean how come she never leaves comments is it because she never Reads blogs ... or doesn't Know what Goal Beyond.. means.. it's likely it could be one or the other maybe Both Dana Says.... At any rate we watched this great dvd Called the pacific Mood tapes last night it was essentially shots of the ocean with water lasping against the rocks... it was very intense i thought it calmed me down a lot too --Before that We saw that Film Two Lovers By James Gray(SP) we walked from Point Breeze To squirrel Hill and then The whole block was really hopping we stopped in ten thousand villages and john allen Called us up to make plans with us for Next week...
The movie was great
it really
held you Good performances all around

then i had a dream that my PO Box was like a card catalog and the po pulled the rug out from underneath me as far as my box went it was strange .... Damn Waiting on dana now Going to go out and ride my bike later

The World Raps me to murder it

2009-03-14T01:09:00.000-07:00

I heard the world said OH BOY YOU JUST GOT IT COMING DON'T YOU BOY THE WORLD SAID WAIT YOU JUST GOT IT COMING THE ROOM SAID ... WAIT YOU JUST GOT IT COMING BYE THE TIME THEY SAID THAT IT WAS OVER

A bit shallow now amber reed
a bit shallow weren't Ye
time to take the liking to the bit of the liking
time to take it to the source
what made her
sore
how can they tell us just one more street up
but they
dont blame us at all
or do you

We all came From me They said DAD

2009-03-14T01:03:00.001-07:00

Grossly
Lit
sometimes
near the library
in wheeling
well
inside of it
that one
woman with the cut up
face
then
hers
just peeling yrs
just reeling
yr
Life
just so good

God Damnit you ;ve
got to get yourself out there

no more

they said then we all SHOUT!
THEY
WON'T sHOW ME ANY HANDS NOW EVEN WHERE I AM WANTED
THEY
JUST THERES NO ANSWER
WE TRIED TO CALL YOUR MO M THERES NO
ANSWERS
THEY LEFT ME LAYING ON A SLAB
AND THE SAD
LIKE AT THE MAN THEY MADE
FROM LAYING TO THAT BOY

IT WAS THE FIRS TIME
WE LEARNED
ABOUT FEAR
US AND OUR DIM SOME
JUST
THEM
BOYS
WE

The Whole i Bleed from

2009-03-14T00:52:00.000-07:00

Wow
that junk is outstanding
and i heard
Ellen's not dead
just heard her cunt grows up
really
red and Big For you TO STICK YOUR BIG DINGY IN

The one more road
the one i like near madsion
the room
said
we're not wet and worried
the
other
room
I Like
these are just fractions of those stations
of those places of life
and be pleased bye them
be pleased bye them after all

What You Wouldnt believe if i told you i was made of it

2009-03-14T00:44:00.000-07:00

Cameron
Was like Rock
you
Know
But she was like ice
I am like that Ice
that Ice
where i am a Fool
the fool
who crawlled out of her
and the one who came out of her
Like that gental night
I am the one
who Laughs intoxicating
and how do i laugh at
dana
I Think i can't
I Love her too much
but
I do
it's good to laugh when i love
her all of these men
drive ships
their Ships
drive me insane
their Ships
drive me crazy
their ships
drive me half
up the wall
I was talkign a look around here
I walled up my Life too
much too EXTREAME

DO YOU WANT TO SET THEM FREE THE MEN
DROVE
AROUND IN CIRCLES
THEY ALWAYS CIRCLE
ME AND I THINK OF THOSE GRAVE STONES
THAT
i CANT CIRCLE WITH ANYMORE
OH
YOUR JUST FREEDOM
EVERY TIME I SEE YOUR FACE
YOU ARE THE FREEDOME FOR ME TO NOT
GO ON
OR NOT TALK OF THAT WHERE I WISH TO TALK

We Run Like Rabbits in a maze

2009-03-14T00:37:00.000-07:00

"up"
"There"
Not HERe... though
or where was it
We
got into Chicago in the morning
we
came in the cold
we waited for the bus To take us to the Rental Car
We
were going to have a good time .... Then staying the whole night
that time i t really floored
us
we saw that Semi Conductor Show At the gene Siskel film center
we did it on No Sleep
and then saw From London to Brighton i dosed in one and dana
dosed in the other
I really
Loved
the next day though being in Madison
What a great fucking town
If
I Ever wanted to move out of pgh it would be to madison
I Mean that
We
were Moved
We couldnt say or Describe it

Some of things We saw Were amazing i think
and the Love we shared too
and the rage

Oh Madison You must be the one for us

Blast off

2009-03-14T00:31:00.001-07:00

Her names Dana Killmeyer ..... We've Been domestic Partners for a long time.... I didnt write this to really talk about that... Perse ... Just to rave about her and What an inspirational person she is ... This world I've seen her create and how i am glad to be part of it ... Every Day... I Know there's no turning back in life So it's great To Tuirn Towards Something else .... She';s the Most amazing beautiful Soul i've come across... i hear her talk for hours about love sex food poetry film nature yoga medicine And What not ... She Never Never Bores me.... I Bore Her alot though and drive her up a wall When I sing .. her songs.. i have a terrible voice but i like to sing parodies about People we know... i dont have any kind of regular thing other than the press.. And Dana Works her ass off.. Every day i walk down to oakland to meet her and walk home with her Walking through PGH at night is fucking beautiful.... having her bye my side it's like i am walking in a dream.... She's sitting bye on the couch right now reading a book for a class but she doenst lke the book too much i feel like distractiing her but i know she has to get it done

A Room Forever

2009-03-14T00:25:00.001-07:00

I have no choice but to write about a west virginia native and great writer Breece D'j Pancake -he had a short troubled life and died younger than i am now --he was one of the all time greats To come out of my home state .... His Sole collection the stories of--should be on every bodys bookshelf but i am more so writing here ... about a bio i read of him A Room Forever ... IT was very in depth for a man so little is known about it sadly revealed a troubled soul .... He just stepped out back one day in his mom's house.... and took the hunting rifle and blew his head off.. it was dark and horrible and he was so great .... he really had so much going for him ... Although i felt there were some problems such as alcoholism and depression which i've dealt with myself that The Young man may have had to come to Terms With, All the while... here's to You Breece Can't nobody do it like you ... WV!!

Peter Kubelka

2009-03-14T00:12:00.001-07:00

Dana Gave me a dvd of his films... a long time ago when we first got together.. i really loved our trip to africa she told me first she went down a long list of her favorite avant garde movies.... but then ... she wanted to find the disc of all of his films... our friend Chris Hughes Helped us out as well.... We finally did see it all us and andrea musher as well ... Andrea said something negative ... but i felt changed..bye it His Films Were Mosaics from a lost time ... a time .... When People put a lot in to what they were doing as artists ... he's a great outsider artist i mean it ..... A true one .. He's a professional chef Who didn't make a movie for almost 25 years but the andy warhol museum screened that movie During a screening of 35mm prints of avant garde movies ..... it was an amazing night I remember me Dana Kristin April and Her Husband Jym all went.... Wow .. those were the days getting your Car being whisk away to the warhol to see a 35mm print a New film by Peter Kubelka / hopefully he'll make another one in my life time

HE is among the greatest living poets in the world

2009-03-14T00:03:00.001-07:00

but you may have never heard of him.. i never had until he reviewed my book juliet remember in his now legendary magazine the burning bush.... He's great he's unstopple Seriously...Micheal Begnal is one of the most solid People i know i mean regardless of how i spell his name or if i am having a bad day or if he's having one ... He's written three great books.... That you should check out .... We have a publisher in common and also a lot of other things, The first night we ever met we taped into each others pain he once told me that / I changed his life because i proved to him that you could break thru pain and abuse and do whatever you wanted to do in life / I told him he changed mine When he said that because i didnt feel like such a fool anymore... he's one of my best friends and my favorite living poet .... The Guy's like Rimbaud .... Alan Clarke and Thompson all doing Acid together i mean it --The word defines Does not do him justice i am very excited to see him in a few weeks .

Recent Nicolas Roeg films

2009-03-13T22:39:00.001-07:00

I downloaded the nicolas roeg Film Puffball the other day his first in many years... the one i had seen before that was Two deaths ... why did roeg fade into obscurity .. i've wondered How does one do the great work like he did .... Like Eureka --walkabout-- Don't Look Now-- Bad Timing and the man who fell to earth .. just to name a few and be So unjustly overlooked ... he's the greatest Director ever to come out of The UK i think ... i mean it too ... when i say It there was some suspense wondering if there would still be ... any kind of vision ... any kind of angles that would grab us up and take us somewhere else ... well there were all those things in puffball ... i mean it 's technically about Sex Which is what most Roeg Films deal with they either are or they turn into Some Kind of Psycho Mind Trip of .... But this film was different it was modern .. and almost Bland in it's cinematography other than in a few shots .. but that Lent to it's overall affect it's an eerie movie about paganism i think ... i was glad i saw it --Roeg has still got .. it made me think about two deaths the one that i'd seen before.... That Long time ago.. I remembered Michael Gambon was in it and there was some kind of imagery of a dying dove and some Men talked a lot about sex Ate a lot of food and talked a lot more about sex....

Some People Blew My Mind When i was fourteen

2009-03-13T22:30:00.001-07:00

There are some common images we see in avant garde film These are two of them The opening of scorpio rising and a uniquely Strange image from el topo A man without arms is Tied to a man without legs Together they Make one person--There are a lot of strange images in these films.... I remember I first heard of them in the book Midnight Movies that Bryan Truex Lent me When i was 13 years old... the first time i was to see them were on poorly done vhs transfers ... They Both Electrified me and charge me with the Grueling images and then i realized one in the Kenneth Anger Film that i was Homosexual, NOT Gay but Homosexual.... I realized in El Topo That i was a bit of a nihilist myself ... as much as jodorowsky is on a spiritual quest in that thing he's also on a death trip if any thing ... But i guess they are one in the same I can't understand someone not getting into them or them not being part of some one's Landscape mentally..... I Love both of those movies they both mean a lot to me I wouldnt have been the same person if it wasnt for them.. i still see them probably a few times a year .... I 've seen anger in person and even met Jodorowsky ... Seen most films bye them too --I guess i just wanted to write a piece about them ... since they are Always on mind What darlings?

Normal Love and Jack Smith

2009-03-12T18:12:00.000-07:00

not to belittle you Jack, but there was once this very peculiar boy from columbus Oh and i know what it means to be a strange boy from ohio .... I come from Lansing OH a long time ago --Who was So different that He made his way to the Big city NY and made some movies that Along the way changed the face of cinema.. the sad part is that no one gets to see his movies.. only because of tony conrad and christopher hughes .. who i bow down too have i ever been able to see a jack smith movie ... Tony Gave Chris Normal .. love... Chris gave it to me ... I Was singing and dancing when i saw it .... it'S about a wolfman a mummy and mermaid and a snake charmer ... Warhol Waters and Anger took a lot from it well maybe anger is just coincidental but the other two definitely were envious .... now don't get me wrong i Love the films jack made with Ron Rice(god rest his soul) and the Great Ken Jacobs... Who is just an inspiring human Being .....as much as he is film maker .... Pittsburgh Filmmakers Ran that Jack Doc titled Jack SMith and the destruction of Atlantis There Were plenty of Freaks and queers like myself in the audience .. We all Wept and were brought to the floor bye jack's life story .... some one make these movies available We have The power too -if jack had the Hope to make them .. We should at least remember them for what they are .. i mean i love the fact that they are a myth but i want to be able to go on netflix or a dvd joint and get a jack smith vol 1 dvd....

Odile & Yvette at the Edge of the World

2009-03-12T17:54:00.000-07:00

The Thought of this movies existence just popped into my head.. it was made close to 15 years ago I've seen it one or two times.. and i want to see it again... maybe i will tell Bill Hughes about it and he Will want to help me track it down --I Know it is out there, it's about two girls who run away from their father and kind of cross into an alternate dimension --The filmmaker Andre Burke Passed away a while back it's the sole Work i've seen bye him.. i think he was a jazz musician or something I don't really know too much about the Making of the movie it is a brilliant movie all i can really Compare it to is Heavenly Creatures... or Maybe.. Rabbits Moon... if i remember correctly there wasnt much dialog and the people were amazingly beautiful .. it struck my young mind at the time .. so i would like to see it now to see what it is about From a different perspective if any one has a copy and wants to trade or wants to trade any tapes in general You know where to find me .

Why Am Obsessed With This Man's Life and art

2009-03-12T17:45:00.001-07:00

I remember When i first bought the record six and six at pauls cds in bloomfield i didnt think I would like it But the clerks urged me to hear it ... I Didnt Like it or dislike i Just didnt get it... a few weeks passed I played it one night when i was feeling pretty down.. and i was Whisk away ... bye the pain in this music and the damn beauty... two songs in particular which are now regarded as classics point judith and i knew you would leave... Really Spoke to me --The artist Known As Jandek --became a lasting obsession for me as he has for some others as well... i quickly snatched up The available jandek records and waited for the back catalog to become in print - i have now heard every jandek cd release--Even Seen Him Live Which was shattering .. take the hardest LSD trip you've had multiply it Times 100 and you have the power of Jandek Live ..... --all of his records are great Blue Corpse ... Living End.. and Glad to get away.. i find myself wanting to play constantly.. i really like his voice CDS too ... Yes the ones without music which people often say are Like a car Crash... Whenever i feel Bad i think of Him and i automatically.. feel good There's already a lot out there about him .. See him though when he plays some where near you ... if possible

Rare Films Again

2009-03-12T17:35:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about it as i was running from friendship to shadyside to wash the couch cover, in preparation for two get-togethers we plan to have this weekend, i am so glad that Bill Hughes... Bought that michael powell boxset ..... which features Matter of life and death and age of consent We would have been waiting forever on netflix... surely powell has enough buzz that some people would want to see them--i had seen both films before a bootleg of age of consent and an official vhs copy of matter of life and death what struck me in both was powells sublime accuracy for portraying Love so simply --I kept thinking thats what all powell films are about either people who have to make a choice based on love IE The Red Shoes --People afraid of Love IE black narcissus and People Incapable of it As in Peeping Tom, there are still some rare Powell Films that i havent seen ... --I Hope too i did recently See Gone to Earth Which was great a Region Two Copy there is no Region one which is fucking ridiculous there Really should be .. why isnt Oh Rosalinda available? or the queens guards.... I havent seen those They're a Weird mob or the boy who turned Yellow They are All on my Long and Getting Longer List of films to see before i Die So some day hopefully.. i urge anyone who hasnt Seen a matter of life and death or age of consent to go and get this set ....

The Season Cylcle

2009-03-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

Another Solstice approaches which Dana Killmeyer Plans to have a party for --entering a new season and two things consistently stay on my mind Amber Reed ... and Robert Bresson--One a great filmmaker whose Singular vision --and meticulous style taught me a lot about the choices i had to make in life, the other a singular female who hung me out to dry to quote kurt cobain but left me with images such as her holding a rose as her brown hair was taken up in a gust of wind--Both of them destroy me and i keep finding similarities to them or i see things i know i know are because them every day in my regular existence --some parts of life you want to do away with and Others you just have to accept as you move on this i have learned.

What Me and BH SAW the other day

2009-03-12T01:03:00.000-07:00

Every Tuesday... typically... i meet Bill Hughes In oakland ... near 5th avenue ... sometimes in between his classes or sometimes on his breaks from school, and it's one of my stops on my long treks into nothing ness.... but mainly the sights and sounds we see are amazing and we share so much love between... us... i have coined an affectionate name for him The Goblyn... He (the Goblyn) referrs to as DAD.... every time we meet in oakland We have an amazing adventures In Life Politics Friendship poetry and Bob Dylan lyrics sometimes things Like Kenneth Anger Bill Cleary and Kristin Mamula Even Come up, Or Say Dr. John Angele Ellis and The beatles --This week anyhow he was on springbreak and he went home to akron and then athens to see his WOMAN and then To Miami OH --But I had goblyn rejection one night he even Dropped his cell phone in a toilet he wrote to tell me that Cause usually we talk late at night i started to have a melt down and think that he was just saying that because he was done talking to me --but he called and explained the next day... i think we talked a few more times, i had a nother melt down.. and then i called him cause i needed his reassurance i find myself needing that constantly The Goblyn Fearnot never Lets me down... REad His books.. ask him out on a date ... and Buy him a drink ... Or Two DATE HIM DATE HIM OH GOBISH BOY

GERALD VAN SCYOC

2009-03-11T19:43:00.000-07:00

I've
always felt My Friend Gerald Van Scyoc should be come more widely known for his art work--His stuff is simply fucking great--they only thing i enjoy more is his company --At any rate he's done films, book designs, video, painting ... i really want to see a day when some mainstream drone ask him to illustrate their stuff cause they know he can make it humorous illumination and exciting --He's definitely one of the best artist in the tri State or Tri Date area as I like to call it --Everyone please ask him to Do illustrations --paintings .. for them etc... if he says he won't accept cash.. mail it to him anonymously --as i've hoped to do

When Will it happen (alan clarke?)

2009-03-11T19:31:00.001-07:00

Thanks to some friends I may Finally get to see some Extremely rare Alan Clarke films --which i have wanted to see for years, i am very excited-- Alan Never Got his Due respect, he Died before his time, if he could have lasted a bit longer i think he would have gotten this respect--two of his contemporaries who were equally great artists and equally indebted to him-Ken Loach and Mike Leigh--broke into the mainstream consciousness in the 1990s both making a string of successful films, alan had done outstanding tv work in the UK since the late sixties really coming into his own though in the 70s and 80s --Scum, Made In Britain, Christine, Road And the Firm are all Excellent of examples of the singular style composed of long takes and stedicam shots that he brought to a production definitely in his final works --The film Elephant -is one of the most daring movies ever made for any medium --The later works of Gus Van Sant --obviously are greatly indebted to alan --Van Sant did a kind of remake of Elephant at least in style and spirit I felt Last Days and Paranoid Park relied greatly on Clarke's spirit too.. I am just glad i am finally getting to see these films hopefully a lot of people will some day --i anticipate a time when the name Alan Clarke -is known as well as The likes of Michael Powell and Alfred Hitchcock.

Dana Killmeyer --gearing up for new book

2009-03-11T19:24:00.001-07:00

Dana Has been working on a collection of poetry titled Pendulums of Euphoria for the last three years--she's worked on some of the poems ... reworking them The whole time i've known her almost, This collections is great --We hope to have the proof of it in just a matter of days and plan to do a launch for it in early May--This is her first piece since Paradise Or the Part that dies-which now was released over three years ago almost--I Am really anticipating holding a copy of this collection in my hands --Congrads to her!

Renee Alberts Great Book And Reading

2009-03-11T19:18:00.001-07:00

There Are plenty of poets in pittsburgh, thats one thing we don't have a shortage of currently--but a few which i think that are wholely original-one of those Renee Alberts --just published a book thru Speed & Briscoe press in Pgh.... No Water is the title of the book --I went out for the launch at the Andy Warhol Museum and had a great time --I had read the collection about a week Before and thoroughly enjoyed it but after hearing Renee read selections from it aloud that night --Immediately had the urge to re-read it There are a lot of great poems in this collection --it's rare to find such personal writing in a time of massively re-edited For public approval Books, renee and no water are both originals, Read This Book !

2009-03-11T19:06:00.000-07:00

This Poet i met Last Year Bill Hughes, who i just ran into at a reading at the local university --Surprised me bye giving me a great book when i asked him for one ... Fucking amazing --Vagrancy as it became known is a life changing work-his poetry is like bob dylan who he is greatly influenced by think early dylan and also some rimbaud and kerouac thrown... in But thats a disservice cause bill hughes is truly original i am proud of this poet i have really seen him grow in the last year his poetry is a reason to keep reading in a time of bad poets... Bill if you are out there This is about you for You, He's one of those people i found my self psychically connected too after just once sitting down with him to have coffee it blossomed into a full on association him reading my books and me reading all of his manuscripts... 3 more which we plan to publish--he's a great friend and writer who deserves wide recognition....

Pat Lawrence Releases new book

2008-06-12T17:26:00.000-07:00

I first met Pat Lawrence Via the Internet of Course --it's typically the way i meet most writers who aren't of my region(and many who are too.)He was living in L.A. at the time and i wanted to go out there for a while --to make a long story short --we became close friends when we did meet up and i was indebted to him for showing me around Los Angeles And Then hosting me for a week on a second trip--So I am kind of among those who would have to admire a Writer's book Because i admire the artist on personal terms , I really dug his original book Bedford that he Brought out a Long time back At least what seems like a long time to me --I was looking forward to him releasing something new for a While --Now Blazevox books has published Journals From the Time of The Radar Dog --a book he'd been working on since i've known him --the book is as i expected dense and challenging like many post modern novels set out to be; I Knew in a sense it would be a difficult read Since he'd let me sample selections from it as it was a work in progress--The book reminds of a john barth book and some later nabokov I mean it's classically written in the structure of an anti novel --Lawrence writes and introduction saying What you are about to read are pieces of a diary/ journal that a late friend left to him --Then the pieces are out of sequential order -To make things more confusing --Radar Dog reads like the suicide Letters of a desperate man --That man i feel is not lawrence though I admired pat for writing out side of himself not to say that he hasnt been that man at some point since i feel we all have but i felt it was hard too .... And Meandered in some places but i admired that Lawrence found a lot of clever ways to describe the repetition of the protagonist's nervous breakdown Radar Dog is a giant artistic step forward --it shows that Pat Lawrence can capture desolation As good as any aspirant poet But i know Lawrence to be a grizzled veteran and was thoroughly impressed with his prose Style In this largely ambitious tedious and monumental sophomore work!

See For yourself!

long dark pool hall

2008-06-12T17:24:00.000-07:00

Love represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.[1] The word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure to intense interpersonal attraction. This diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

As an abstract concept love usually refers to a strong, ineffable feeling towards another person. Even this limited conception of love, however, encompasses a wealth of different feelings, from the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love to the nonsexual. Love in its various forms acts as a major facilitator of interpersonal relationships and, owing to its central psychological importance, is one of the most common themes in the creative arts.
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The English word love can have a variety of related but distinct meanings in different contexts. Often, other languages use multiple words to express some of the different concepts which English relies mainly on love to encapsulate; one example is the plurality of Greek words for "love". Cultural differences in conceptualizing love thus make it doubly difficult to establish any universal definition.[2] American psychologist Zick Rubin try to define love by the psychometrics. His work states that three factors consititute love: attachment, caring and intimacy.[3][4]

Although the nature or essence of love is a subject of frequent debate, different aspects of the word can be clarified by determining what isn't "love". As a general expression of positive sentiment (a stronger form of like), love is commonly contrasted with hate (or neutral apathy); as a less sexual and more emotionally intimate form of romantic attachment, love is commonly contrasted with lust; and as an interpersonal relationship with romantic overtones, love is commonly contrasted with friendship, though other definitions of the word love may be applied to close friendships in certain contexts. When discussed in the abstract, love usually refers to interpersonal love, an experience felt by a person for another person. Love often involves caring for or identifying with a person or thing, including oneself (cf. narcissism).

John Major has his own idiosyncratic definition of love.[5] According to this version, the best sort of relationship involves both pints (of beer) and sex; a suboptimal relationship has only beer or sex; but love is what is left in the relationship once beer and sex are removed.

In addition to crosscultural differences in understanding love, ideas about love have also changed greatly over time. Some historians date modern conceptions of romantic love to courtly Europe during or after the Middle Ages, though the prior existence of romantic attachments is attested by ancient love poetry.[6] Because of the complex and abstract nature of love, discourse on love is commonly reduced to a thought-terminating cliché, and there are a number of common proverbs regarding love, from Virgil's "Love conquers all" to The Beatles' "All you need is love". Bertrand Russell describes love as a condition of "absolute value", as opposed to relative value. Theologian Thomas Jay Oord said that to love is to "act intentionally, in sympathetic response to others, to promote overall well-being".[7]

In the Holy Bible1 Corinthians 13 Love is defined as:

1If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. 4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 9For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 10but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 11When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 12Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

A person can be said to love a country, principle, or goal if they value it greatly and are deeply committed to it. Similarly, compassionate outreach and volunteer workers' "love" of their cause may sometimes be borne not of interpersonal love, but impersonal love coupled with altruism and strong political convictions. People can also "love" material objects, animals, or activities if they invest themselves in bonding or otherwise identifying with that item. If sexual passion is also involved, this condition is called paraphilia.[8]

Interpersonal love
Grandmother and grandchild, Sri Lanka
Grandmother and grandchild, Sri Lanka

Interpersonal love refers to love between human beings. It is a more potent sentiment than a simple liking for another. Unrequited love refers to those feelings of love which are not reciprocated. Interpersonal love is most closely associated with interpersonal relationships. Such love might exist between family members, friends, and couples. There are also a number of psychological disorders related to love, such as erotomania.

Scientific views

Main article: Love (scientific views)

Throughout history, philosophy and religion have done the most speculation on the phenomenon of love. In the last century, the science of psychology has written a great deal on the subject. In recent years, the sciences of evolutionary psychology, evolutionary biology, anthropology, neuroscience, and biology have added to the understanding of the nature and function of love.

Chemistry

Biological models of sex tend to view love as a mammalian drive, much like hunger or thirst.[9] Helen Fisher, a leading expert in the topic of love, divides the experience of love into three partly-overlapping stages: lust, attraction, and attachment. Lust exposes people to others, romantic attraction encourages people to focus their energy on mating, and attachment involves tolerating the spouse long enough to rear a child into infancy.

Lust is the initial passionate sexual desire that promotes mating, and involves the increased release of chemicals such as testosterone and estrogen. These effects rarely last more than a few weeks or months. Attraction is the more individualized and romantic desire for a specific candidate for mating, which develops out of lust as commitment to an individual mate forms. Recent studies in neuroscience have indicated that as people fall in love, the brain consistently releases a certain set of chemicals, including pheromones, dopamine, norepinephrine, and serotonin, which act similar to amphetamines, stimulating the brain's pleasure center and leading to side-effects such as an increased heart rate, loss of appetite and sleep, and an intense feeling of excitement. Research has indicated that this stage generally lasts from one and a half to three years.[10]

Since the lust and attraction stages are both considered temporary, a third stage is needed to account for long-term relationships. Attachment is the bonding which promotes relationships that last for many years, and even decades. Attachment is generally based on commitments such as marriage and children, or on mutual friendship based on things like shared interests. It has been linked to higher levels of the chemicals oxytocin and vasopressin than short-term relationships have.[10] In 2005, Italian scientists at Pavia University found that a protein molecule known as the nerve growth factor (NGF) has high levels when people first fall in love, but these levels return to as they were after one year. Specifically, four neurotrophin levels, i.e. NGF, BDNF, NT-3, and NT-4, of 58 subjects who had recently fallen in love were compared with levels in a control group who were either single or already engaged in a long-term relationship. The results showed that NGF levels were significantly higher in the subjects in love than as compared to either of the control groups.[11]

Psychology

Further information: Human bonding

Psychology depicts love as a cognitive and social phenomenon. Psychologist Robert Sternberg formulated a triangular theory of love and argued that love has three different components: intimacy, commitment, and passion. Intimacy is a form in which two people share confidences and various details of their personal lives. Intimacy is usually shown in friendships and romantic love affairs. Commitment, on the other hand, is the expectation that the relationship is permanent. The last and most common form of love is sexual attraction and passion. Passionate love is shown in infatuation as well as romantic love. All forms of love are viewed as varying combinations of these three components.

Following developments in electrical theories, such as Coulomb's law, which showed that positive and negative charges attract, analogs in human life were developed, such as "opposites attract". Over the last century, research on the nature of human mating has generally found this not to be true when it comes to character and personality; people tend to like people similar to themselves. However, in a few unusual and specific domains, such as immune systems, it seems that humans prefer others who are unlike themselves (e.g. with an orthogonal immune system), since this will lead to a baby which has the best of both worlds.[12] In recent years, various human bonding theories have been developed described in terms of attachments, ties, bonds, and affinities.

Some Western authorities disaggregate into two main components, the altruistic and the narcissistic. This view is represented in the works of Scott Peck, whose works in the field of applied psychology explored the definitions of love and evil. Peck maintains that love is a combination of the "concern for the spiritual growth of another", and simple narcissism.[13] In combination, love is an activity, not simply a feeling.

Scientific models
"Sacred Love versus Profane Love" by Giovanni Baglione
"Sacred Love versus Profane Love" by Giovanni Baglione

Biological models of love tend to see it as a mammalian drive, similar to hunger or thirst.[citation needed] Psychology sees love as more of a social and cultural phenomenon. There are probably elements of truth in both views — certainly love is influenced by hormones (such as oxytocin), neurotrophins (such as NGF), and pheromones, and how people think and behave in love is influenced by their conceptions of love. The conventional view in biology is that there are two major drives in love — sexual attraction and attachment. Attachment between adults is presumed to work on the same principles that lead an infant to become attached to its mother. The traditional psychological view sees love as being a combination of companionate love and passionate love. Passionate love is intense longing, and is often accompanied by physiological arousal (shortness of breath, rapid heart rate). Companionate love is affection and a feeling of intimacy not accompanied by physiological arousal.

Studies have shown that brain scans of those infatuated by love display a resemblance to those with a mental illness. Love creates activity in the same area of the brain that hunger, thirst, and drug cravings create activity in. New love, therefore, could possibly be more physical than emotional. Over time, this reaction to love mellows, and different areas of the brain are activated, primarily ones involving long-term commitments. Dr. Andrew Newberg, a neuroscientist, suggests that this reaction to love is so similar to that of drugs because without love, humanity would die out.

Cultural views

Persian

- "Even after all this time the sun never says to the earth you owe me. - Look what happens with a Love like that, - It lights the whole Sky." - Iranian ( Persian ) Poet and Mystic, Hafez - Rumi, Hafez and Omar Khayyam are just symbols of the passion and love that the Persian culture and language presents.

Over seven centuries ago, Sa'di, an Iranian poet, wrote the following verses:

- "The children of Adam are limbs of each other - Having been created of one essence. - When the calamity of time afflicts one limb - The other limbs cannot remain at rest. - If thou hast no sympathy for the troubles of others - Thou art unworthy to be called by the name of a man."

Love in Persian is the word Eshgh. In the Persian culture, everything is encompassed by love and all is for love, but for starters we practice loving our friends and family, then our husbands and wives, our country and culture, and eventually the ultimate love of divine love which is the ultimate goal in life.

Chinese and other Sinic cultures
The traditional Chinese character for love (愛) consists of a heart (middle) inside of "accept", "feel", or "perceive", which shows a graceful emotion.
The traditional Chinese character for love (愛) consists of a heart (middle) inside of "accept", "feel", or "perceive", which shows a graceful emotion.

In contemporary Chinese language and culture, several terms or root words are used for the concept of "love":

* Ai (愛) is used as a verb (e.g. Wo ai ni, "I love you") or as a noun, especially in aiqing (愛情), "love" or "romance." In mainland China since 1949, airen (愛人, originally "lover," or more literally, "love person") is the dominant word for "spouse" (with separate terms for "wife" and "husband" originally being de-emphasized); the word once had a negative connotation, which it retains among many on Taiwan.

* Lian (戀) is not generally used alone, but instead as part of such terms as "being in love" (談戀愛, tan lian'ai—also containing ai), "lover" (戀人, lianren) or "homosexuality" (同性戀, tongxinglian).

* Qing (情), commonly meaning "feeling" or "emotion," often indicates "love" in several terms. It is contained in the word aiqing (愛情); qingren (情人) is a term for "lover".

In Confucianism, lian is a virtuous benevolent love. Lian should be pursued by all human beings, and reflects a moral life. The Chinese philosopher Mozi developed the concept of ai (愛) in reaction to Confucian lian. Ai, in Mohism, is universal love towards all beings, not just towards friends or family, without regard to reciprocation. Extravagance and offensive war are inimical to ai. Although Mozi's thought was influential, the Confucian lian is how most Chinese conceive of love.

Gănqíng (感情), the "feeling" of a relationship, vaguely similar to empathy. A person will express love by building good gănqíng, accomplished through helping or working for another and emotional attachment toward another person or anything.

Yuanfen (緣份) is a connection of bound destinies. A meaningful relationship is often conceived of as dependent strong yuanfen. It is very similar to serendipity. A similar conceptualization in English is, "They were made for each other," "fate," or "destiny".

Zaolian (Simplified: 早恋, Traditional: 早戀, pinyin: zǎoliàn), literally, "early love," is a contemporary term in frequent use for romantic feelings or attachments among children or adolescents. Zaolian describes both relationships among a teenaged boyfriend and girlfriend, as well as the "crushes" of early adolescence or childhood. The concept essentially indicates a prevalent belief in contemporary Chinese culture that due to the demands of their studies (especially true in the highly competitive educational system of China), youth should not form romantic attachments lest their jeopardize their chances for success in the future. Reports have appeared in Chinese newspapers and other media detailing the prevalence of the phenomenon and its perceived dangers to students and the fears of parents.

Japanese

In Japanese Buddhism, ai (愛) is passionate caring love, and a fundamental desire. It can develop towards either selfishness or selflessness and enlightenment.

Amae (甘え), a Japanese word meaning "indulgent dependence", is part of the child-rearing culture of Japan. Japanese mothers are expected to hug and indulge their children, and children are expected to reward their mothers by clinging and serving. Some sociologists have suggested that Japanese social interactions in later life are modeled on the mother-child amae.

Ancient Greek

Greek distinguishes several different senses in which the word love is used. For example, ancient Greek has the words philia, eros, agape, storge and xenia. However, with Greek as with many other languages, it has been historically difficult to separate the meanings of these words totally. At the same time the ancient Greek text of the Bible has examples of the verb agapo being used with the same meaning as phileo.

Agape (ἀγάπη agápē) means love in modern day Greek. The term s'agapo means I love you in Greek. The word agapo is the verb I love. It generally refers to a "pure", ideal type of love rather than the physical attraction suggested by eros. However, there are some examples of agape used to mean the same as eros. It has also been translated as "love of the soul".

Eros (ἔρως érōs) is passionate love, with sensual desire and longing. The Greek word erota means in love. Plato refined his own definition. Although eros is initially felt for a person, with contemplation it becomes an appreciation of the beauty within that person, or even becomes appreciation of beauty itself. Eros helps the soul recall knowledge of beauty, and contributes to an understanding of spiritual truth. Lovers and philosophers are all inspired to seek truth by eros. Some translations list it as "love of the body".

Philia (φιλία philía), a dispassionate virtuous love, was a concept developed by Aristotle. It includes loyalty to friends, family, and community, and requires virtue, equality and familiarity. Philia is motivated by practical reasons; one or both of the parties benefit from the relationship. Can also mean "love of the mind". Storge (στοργή storgē) is natural affection, like that felt by parents for offspring.

Xenia (ξενία xenía), hospitality, was an extremely important practice in ancient Greece. It was an almost ritualized friendship formed between a host and their guest, who could previously be strangers. The host fed and provided quarters for the guest, who was only expected to repay with gratitude. The importance of this can be seen throughout Greek mythology, in particular Homer's Iliad and Odyssey.

Turkish (Shaman & Islamic)

In Turkish the word "Love" comes up with several meanings. A person can love the god, a person,the parents or the family. But that person can "Love" just one person from the opposite sex which they call the word " Ask ". Ask is a feeling for to love, as it still is in Turkish today. The Turks used this word just for their romatic loves in a romantic or sexual sense. If a turk says that he is in Love (Ask) with somebody, it is not a love that a person can feel for his or her parents. It is just for one person and it indicates a huge infactuation.

Ancient Roman (Latin)

The Latin language has several different verbs corresponding to the English word 'love'.

Amare is the basic word for to love, as it still is in Italian today. The Romans used it both in an affectionate sense, as well as in a romantic or sexual sense. From this verb come amans, a lover, amator, 'professional lover', often with the accessory notion of lechery, and amica, 'girlfriend' in the English sense, often as well being applied euphemistically to a prostitute. The corresponding noun is amor, which is also used in the plural form to indicate 'love affairs' or 'sexual adventures'. This same root also produces amicus, 'friend', and amicitia, 'friendship' (often based on mutual advantage, and corresponding sometimes more closely to 'indebtedness' or 'influence'). Cicero wrote a treatise called On Friendship (de Amicitia) which discusses the notion at some length. Ovid wrote a guide to dating called Ars Amatoria (The Art of Lovers), which addresses in depth everything from extramarital affairs to overprotective parents.

Complicating the picture somewhat, Latin sometimes uses amare where English would simply say to like; this notion, however, is much more generally expressed in Latin by placere or delectare, which are used more colloquially, and the latter of which is used frequently in the love poetry of Catullus.

Diligere often has the notion 'to be affectionate for', 'to esteem', and rarely if ever is used of romantic love. This word would be appropriate to describe the friendship of two men. The corresponding noun diligentia, however, has the meaning 'diligence' 'carefulness' and has little semantic overlap with the verb.

Observare is a synonym for 'diligere'; despite the cognate with English, this verb and its corresponding noun 'observantia' often denote 'esteem' or 'affection'.

Caritas is used in Latin translations of the Christian Bible to mean 'charitable love'. This meaning, however, is not found in Classical pagan Roman literature. As it arises from a conflation with a Greek word, there is no corresponding verb.

Religious views

Christian

The Christian understanding is that love comes from God. The love of man and woman, eros in Greek, and the unselfish love of others, agape, are often contrasted as 'ascending' and 'descending' love, respectively, but are ultimately the same thing. [14]

There are several Greek words for Love that are regularly referred to in Christian circles.

* Agape - In the New Testament, agapē is charitable, selfless, altruistic, and unconditional. It is parental love seen as creating goodness in the world, it is the way God is seen to love humanity, and it is seen as the kind of love that Christians aspire to have for one another.
* Phileo - Also used in the New Testament, Phileo is a human response to something that is found to be delightful. Also known as "brotherly love".
* Two other words for love in the Greek language -- Eros (sexual love) and storge (needy child-to-parent love) were never used in the New Testament.

Christians believe that to Love God with all your heart, mind, and strength and Love your neighbor as yourself are the two most important things in life (the greatest commandment of the Jewish Torah, according to Jesus - c.f. Gospel of Mark chapter 12, verses 28-34). Saint Augustine summarized this when he wrote "Love God, and do as thou wilt".

Paul the Apostle glorified love as the most important virtue of all. Describing love in the famous poem in 1 Corinthians he wrote, "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres." - 1 Cor. 13:4-7 (NIV)

John the Apostle wrote, "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son." - John 3:16-18 (NIV)

John also wrote, "Dear friends, let us love one another for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love." - 1 John 4:7-8 (NIV)

Saint Augustine says that one must be able to decipher the difference between love and lust. Lust, according to Saint Augustine, is an over indulgence, but to love and be loved is what he has sought for his entire life. He even says, “I was in love with love.” Finally, he does fall in love and is loved back, by God. Saint Augustine says the only one who can love you truly and fully is God, because love with a human only allows for flaws such as, “jealousy, suspicion, fear, anger, and contention.” According to Saint Augustine to love God is “to attain the peace which is yours.” (Saint Augustine Confessions)

Christian theologians see God as the source of love, which is mirrored in humans and their own loving relationships. Influential Christian theologian C.S. Lewis wrote a book called The Four Loves.

Benedict XVI wrote his first encyclical on God is love. He said that a human being, created in the image of God who is love, is able to practice love: to give himself to God and others (agape), by receiving and experiencing God's love in contemplation (eros). This life of love, according to him, is the life of the saints such as Teresa of Calcutta and the Blessed Virgin Mary, and is the direction Christians take when they believe that God loves them.[15]

Buddhist

In Buddhism, Kāma is sensuous, sexual love. It is an obstacle on the path to enlightenment, since it is selfish.

Karuṇā is compassion and mercy, which reduces the suffering of others. It is complementary to wisdom, and is necessary for enlightenment.

Adveṣa and maitrī are benevolent love. This love is unconditional and requires considerable self-acceptance. This is quite different from the ordinary love, which is usually about attachment and sex, which rarely occur without self-interest. Instead, in Buddhism it refers to detachment and unselfish interest in others' welfare.

The Bodhisattva ideal in Mahayana Buddhism involves the complete renunciation of oneself in order to take on the burden of a suffering world. The strongest motivation one has in order to take the path of the Bodhisattva is the idea of salvation within unselfish, altustic love for all sentient beings.

Indic and Hindu

In Hinduism kāma is pleasurable, sexual love, personified by the god Kama. For many Hindu schools it is the third end in life (artha).

In contrast to kāma, prema or prem refers to elevated love. However, the term bhakti is used to mean the higher, divine love.

Karuna is compassion and mercy, which reduces the suffering of others.

Bhakti is a Sanskrit term from Hinduism meaning 'loving devotion to the supreme God'. A person who practices bhakti is called bhakta. Hindu writers, theologians, and philosophers have distinguished nine forms of devotion that they call bhakti, for example in the Bhagavatha-Purana and according to Tulsidas. The philosophical work Narada Bhakti Sutras written by an unknown author (presumed to be Narada) distinguishes eleven forms of love.

Arabic and Islamic views

In a sense, love does encompass the Islamic view of life as universal brotherhood which applies to all who hold the faith. There are no direct references stating that God is love, but amongst the 99 names of God (Allah), there is the name Al-Wadud or 'the Loving One', which is found in Surah 11:90 as well as Surah 85:14. It refers to God as being "full of loving kindness". In Islam, love is more often than not used as an incentive for sinners to aspire to be as worthy of God's love as they may. One still has God's love, but how the person evaluates his own worth is to his own and God's own counsel. All who hold the faith have God's love, but to what degree or effort he has pleased God depends on the individual itself.

Ishq, or divine love, is the emphasis of Sufism. Sufis believe that love is a projection of the essence of God to the universe. God desires to recognize beauty, and as if one looks at a mirror to see oneself, God "looks" at itself within the dynamics of nature. Since everything is a reflection of God, the school of Sufism practices to see the beauty inside the apparently ugly. Sufism is often referred to as the religion of Love. God in Sufism is referred to in three main terms which are the Lover, Loved, and Beloved with the last of these terms being often seen in Sufi poetry. A common viewpoint of Sufism is that through Love humankind can get back to its inherent purity and grace. The saints of Sufism are infamous for being "drunk" due to their Love of God hence the constant reference to wine in Sufi poetry and music.

Jewish

In Hebrew Ahava is the most commonly-used term for both interpersonal love and love of God. Other related but dissimilar terms are Chen (grace) and Hesed, which basically combines the meaning of "affection" and "compassion" and is sometimes rendered in English as "loving-kindness".

Judaism employs a wide definition of love, both between people and between man and the Deity. As for the former, the Torah states: "Love your neighbor like yourself" (Leviticus 19:18). As for the latter, one is commanded to love God "with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your might" (Deuteronomy 6:5), taken by the Mishnah (a central text of the Jewish oral law) to refer to good deeds, willingness to sacrifice one's life rather than commit certain serious transgressions, willingness to sacrifice all one's possessions and being grateful to the Lord despite adversity (tractate Berachoth 9:5). Rabbinic literature differs how this love can be developed, e.g. by contemplating Divine deeds or witnessing the marvels of nature.

As for love between marital partners, this is deemed an essential ingredient to life: "See life with the wife you love" (Ecclesiastes 9:9). The Biblical book Song of Songs is considered a romantically-phrased metaphor of love between God and his people, but in its plain reading reads like a love song.

The 20th century Rabbi Eliyahu Eliezer Dessler is frequently quoted as defining love from the Jewish point-of-view as "giving without expecting to take" (from his Michtav me-Eliyahu, vol. 1). Romantic love per se has few echoes in Jewish literature, although the Medieval Rabbi Judah Halevi wrote romantic poetry in Arabic in his younger years (he appears to have regretted this later).

come and date me out

2008-05-19T10:42:00.000-07:00

On March 18 2002, legendary Italian theatre director, actor and writer Carmelo Bene died at age 64. Between 1968 and 1973 he also made films, five experimental works that marked him as the wildest of Italian cinema's several wild geniuses. When asked why he gave up filmmaking he replied, “To relax. The way I make cinema is extremely exhausting.” (1) This statement evokes not only the production circumstances of his movies, on which he worked outside the structures of commercial filmmaking as writer, producer, director, actor and decorator, but also the intense energy which animates every scene of his oeuvre. This energy emanates from the cartoonish dementia of the performances, the disorientating speed with which one phantasmagoric image replaces another and the jarringly non-naturalistic use of sound and music. No director has ever come closer to the heightened expressive freedom of animation in live action cinema than Bene.
By the time he made his first film, Bene had been a prominent figure in Italian experimental theatre for a decade. He was born in Campi Salentina near Lecce in 1937. After a brief stint in Rome's National Academy of Dramatic Art he formed his own theatre company. A staging of his adaptation of Camus' Caligula in 1959 had first brought him notice. His subsequent career earned him the reputation of being a provocateur, with the police closing down several of his productions, notably Christ 63 in 1963. His work also drew much acclaim, with Pasolini hailing Bene's “autonomous and original” (2) theater as the only exciting work being done in an otherwise worthless experimental theatre scene. Bene played Creon in Pasolini's Oedipus Rex (Edipo Re, 1967).

His first film, Our Lady of the Turks (Nostra Signora dei Turchi, 1968), is a fragmented series of scenes centred around the cathedral at Otranto in which the protagonist (Bene) tries repeatedly but unsuccessfully to meet Saint Margherita. It was adapted from Bene's own 1965 novel. His second film, Capricci (1969), works with ideas from Manon and the Elizabethan play Arden of Faversham. The third, Don Giovanni (1971), is taken from a story by 19th century author and dandy Jules Barbey D'Aurevilly, Le plus bel amour de Don Juan, and Salome (1972) is a version of Oscar Wilde's play. The brilliantly titled One Hamlet Less (Un Amleto di meno, 1973) combines Shakespeare with Jules Laforgue.

Bene's films are critical explorations of the texts they are based on. He operates by returning these stories to a sort of primordial dramatic and intellectual state of chaos where ideas, narratives and characters struggle to come into being. As Deleuze pointed out (3), Bene is concerned not with beginnings or endings, but with the middle, an engagement with a perpetual becoming, a world of constantly shifting potentiality. He achieves this by questioning and throwing off balance every aspect of his films. The frequently hysterical performances of his actors – or 'actorial machines' – are caricatures amplified to the level of the grotesque. Rather than playing characters, the actors become stylised embodiments of some of their defining characteristics, shrieking, slobbering, whispering and drooling their way through a series of events that resemble variations on certain themes or gestures rather than a developing narrative. Bene described his films as “music for the eyes” (4) put together with a “surgical indiscipline of montage” (5). He constantly strives for a glorious visual excessiveness, with unusual camera angles, shifts between black and white and colour, interesting superimpositions and either overtly theatrical – Don Giovanni, One Hamlet Less – or otherwise expressionistically employed settings – the cathedral in Our Lady of the Turks. This anti-naturalistic approach is further heightened by the asynchronous use of sound, which incorporates heavily amplified sounds such as breathing and coughing, shouted or stammered dialogue and sudden bursts of mainly classical music, most commonly opera.

If Bene's cinema is one of constant becoming, of repetition and incompletion, perhaps the most common recurring theme in his scenes is frustration. Frustrated desire is the key element in the stories of Salome and Don Giovanni and all of his films feature memorable images of frustration – victims of a car crash returning to life in order to crash again but with their corpses in more deathlike positions in Capricci; a man in armour attempting to have sex with a woman in Our Lady of the Turks; Don Giovanni repeatedly trying and failing to put down his tea cup in Don Giovanni; a follower of Christ attempting to nail himself to the cross in Salomè only to discover he cannot nail his last hand down.

After these five exhilarating films, Bene returned to the theatre and writing. Although his later life was dogged by ill health, his work continued to receive attention and acclaim. Yet the films that comprise his self described “cinematic parenthesis” are seldom screened or written about, especially in the English-speaking world. For a director whose work matches the visual power and representational complexity of Kenneth Anger or Derek Jarman's best work, this a particularly unfortunate oversight.

Ya Got Ta Come on up Ta The House

2008-01-26T13:37:00.000-08:00

Castration (also referred as: gelding, neutering, orchiectomy, orchidectomy, and oophorectomy) is any action, surgical, chemical, or otherwise, by which a male loses the functions of the testes or a female loses the functions of the ovaries.
Contents
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1 Castration in humans
1.1 Reasons
1.1.1 Medical
1.1.2 As punishment
1.1.3 Sexual Play
1.1.4 For religious reasons
1.2 Chemical
1.3 Medical consequences
2 Castration in psychoanalysis and literary theory
3 Castration in veterinary practice
4 Miscellaneous
5 See also
6 External links
6.1 On religious castration
7 Notes
[edit]Castration in humans

The practice of castration has its roots before recorded human history.[1] Castration was frequently used in certain cultures of Europe, the Middle East, India, Africa and China, for religious or social reasons. After battles in some cases, winners castrated their captives or the corpses of the defeated to symbolise their victory and 'seize' their power. Castrated men — eunuchs — were often admitted to special social classes and were used particularly to staff bureaucracies and palace households: in particular, the harem. Castration also figured in a number of religious castration cults. Other religions, for example Judaism and Islam, were strongly opposed to the practice. The Leviticus Holiness code, for example, specifically excludes eunuchs or any males with defective genitals from the priesthood, just as castrated animals are excluded from sacrifice.
Eunuchs in China have been known to usurp power in many eras of Chinese history, most notably in the Later Han, late Tang and late Ming Dynasties. There are similar recorded Middle Eastern events.
In ancient times, castration often involved the total removal of all the male genitalia. This involved great danger of death due to bleeding or infection and, in some states, such as the Byzantine Empire, was seen as the same as a death sentence. Removal of only the testicles had much less risk.
In China, male castration of a person who entered the caste of eunuchs during imperial times involved the removal of the whole genitalia, that is, the removal of the testes, penis, and scrotum. The removed organs were returned to the eunuch to be interred with him when he died so that, upon rebirth, he could become a whole man again. The penis, testicles, and scrotum were euphemistically termed bǎo (寶) in Mandarin Chinese, which literally means 'precious treasure'. These were preserved in alcohol and kept in a pottery jar by the eunuch. [2]
[edit]Reasons
[edit]Medical
Testicular cancer is generally treated by surgical removal of the cancerous testicle(s) (orchidectomy), often followed by radiation or chemotherapy. Unless both testicles are cancerous, only one is removed.
Either surgical removal of both testicles or chemical castration may be carried out in the case of prostate cancer [3], as hormone testosterone-depletion treatment to slow down the cancer. Similarly, testosterone-depletion treatment (either surgical removal of both testicles or chemical castration) is used to greatly reduce sexual drive or interest in those with sexual drives, obsessions, or behaviors, or any combination of those that may be considered deviant. Castration in humans has been proposed, and sometimes used, as a method of birth control in certain poorer regions.
Male-to-female transsexuals often undergo orchiectomy, as do some other transgendered people. Orchiectomy may be performed as a part of more general sex reassignment surgery, either before or during other procedures, but it may also be performed on someone who does not desire, or cannot afford, further surgery.
[edit]As punishment
Involuntary castration also appears in the history of warfare, sometimes used by one side to torture or demoralize their enemies. It was also practiced to extinguish opposing male lineages and thus allow the victor to sexually possess the defeated group's women.
Tamerlane was recorded to have castrated Armenian prisoners of war who had fought as allies of the Ottoman Sultan Bayezid I, while others were buried alive.[citation needed]
Edward Gibbon's famous work Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire reports castration of defeated foes at the hands of the Normans. Castration has also been used in modern conflicts, as the Janjaweed militiamen currently (as of 2005) attacking citizens of the Darfur region in Sudan, often castrating villagers and leaving them to bleed to death [4].
Sima Qian, the famous Chinese Historian, was castrated by order of the Emperor of China for dissent. Another famous victim of castration was the medieval French philosopher, scholar, teacher, and (later) monk Pierre Abélard, castrated by relatives of his lover, Héloïse.
Another famous castration victim was Bishop Wimund, a 12th Century English adventurer and invader of the Scottish coast.
When Zheng He was captured by the Ming Army as a child in 1381 he was castrated; he later became an admiral, who led a large fleet on several voyages of exploration.
"Voluntary" chemical or surgical castration has been in practice in many countries—reports are available from American, Scandinavian, and European countries, in particular, for the past eighty-plus years (chemical for the last thirty or so years)—as an option for treatment for people who have broken laws of a sexual nature, allowing them to return to the community from otherwise lengthy detentions[citation needed]. The effectiveness and ethics of this treatment are heavily debated.
A temporary chemical castration has been studied and developed as a preventive measure and punishment for several repeated sex crimes, such as rape or other sexually related violence.[5][6] Chemical castration was Alan Turing's punishment when he was convicted of "acts of gross indecency" (homosexual acts between consenting adults) in 1952; it resulted indirectly in his suicide.
Physical castration appears to be highly effective as, historically, it results in a 20-year re-offense rate of less than 2.3% vs. 80% in the untreated control group, according to a large 1963 study involving a total of 1036 sex offenders by the German researcher A. Langelüddeke, among others [7], much lower than what was otherwise expected. Compare to overall sex offender recidivism rates.
[edit]Sexual Play
Castration play is one of many fetishes within the BDSM community although it is not as well known by the mainstream. In Castration Play, one simulates the effects of castration without going all the way to castration.
[edit]For religious reasons
In Europe, when females were not permitted to sing in church or cathedral choirs in the Roman Catholic Church, boys were sometimes castrated to prevent their voices breaking at puberty and to develop a special high voice. The first documents mentioning castrati are Italian church records from the 1550s.[8] In the baroque music era these singers were highly appreciated by Opera composers as well. Famous castrati include Farinelli, Senesino, Carestini, and Caffarelli. The last castrato was Alessandro Moreschi (1858-1922) who served in the Sistine Chapel Choir.[9] However, in the late 1800s, the Roman Catholic Church, which had always considered castration to be mutilation of the body and therefore a severe sin, condemned the production of castrati; their castrations had been performed clandestinely in contravention of Church law.
A number of religious cults have included castration as a central theme of their practice. These include
The cult of Cybele, in which devotees castrated themselves in ecstatic emulation of Attis: see Gallus.
Some followers of early Christianity considered castration as an acceptable way to counter sinful desires of the flesh. Origen is reported by Eusebius [10] to have castrated himself based on his reading of the Gospel of Matthew 19:12, although there is some doubt concerning this story (Schaff[citation needed] considers the account genuine but cites Baur et al.[citation needed] in opposition). Boston Corbett was likewise inspired by this same verse to castrate himself (Corbett was the 19th-century American soldier who is generally believed to have fired the shot that killed John Wilkes Booth.) Bishop Melito of Sardis (d. ca 180) was a eunuch, according to the church history of Eusebius of Caesarea, though, significantly the word "virgin" was substituted in Rufino's Latin translation of Eusebius.
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Heaven's Gate (cult)
On the contrary, Deuteronomy 23:1 expels castrated men from the assembly of Israel.
[edit]Chemical
Main article: Chemical castration
In the case of chemical castration, ongoing regular injections of anti-androgens are required.
Chemical castration seems to have a greater effect on bone density than physical castration. Since the development of teriparatide, this severe bone loss has been able to be reversed in nearly every case. At this time there is a limitation on the use of this medication to 24 months until the long-term use is better evaluated.
With the advent of chemical castration, physical castration is not generally recommended by the medical community unless medically necessary or desired.
[edit]Medical consequences
A subject of castration who is castrated before the onset of puberty will retain a high voice, non-muscular build, and small genitals. They may well be taller than average, as the production of sex hormones in puberty—particularly testosterone—stops long bone growth. The person may not develop pubic hair and will have a small sex drive or none at all. Castrations after the onset of puberty will typically reduce the sex drive considerably or eliminate it altogether. Also castrated people are automatically sterile, because the testes (for males) and ovaries (for females) produce sex cells needed for sexual reproduction. Once removed the subject is infertile. The voice does not change. Some castrates report mood changes, such as depression or a more serene outlook on life. Body strength and muscle mass can decrease somewhat. Body hair sometimes may decrease. Castration prevents male pattern baldness if it is done before hair is lost; however, castration will not restore hair growth after hair has already been lost due to male pattern baldness. [11] Castration eliminates the risk of testicular cancer.
Historically, eunuchs who additionally underwent a penectomy reportedly suffered from urinary incontinence associated with the removal of the penis, and they had their own specialist doctors. [12]
Without Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT), typical symptoms (similar to those experienced by menopausal women) include hot flashes; gradual bone-density loss, resulting in osteopenia or osteoporosis; potential weight gain or redistribution of body fat to the hips/chest. In males, gynecomastia, the development of breast tissue, may also occur. Replacement of testosterone in the form of gel, patches, or injections can largely reverse these effects, although breast enlargement has also been reported as a possible side effect of testosterone usage [13].
[edit]Castration in psychoanalysis and literary theory

The concept of castration plays an important role in psychoanalysis; see, e.g., castration anxiety.
Castration also plays an important role in psychoanalytically-influenced literary theory, for example Harold Bloom's The Anxiety of Influence. Poetry can also be seen as castrating, with male poets either being castrated through being outdone by their male predecessors (as in Bloom), or male poets (and even mere readers) being castrated by the force of the female sublime as conveyed to them through poetry (as in Maxwell). Catherine Maxwell identifies Philomela as being castrated by Tereus when he rapes and mutilates her.
[edit]Castration in veterinary practice

Castration is commonly performed on domestic animals not intended for breeding. Domestic animals are usually castrated in order to avoid unwanted or uncontrolled reproduction; to reduce or prevent other manifestations of sexual behaviour such as territorial behaviour or aggression (eg. fighting between groups of entire (uncastrated) males of a species); or to reduce other consequences of sexual behaviour that may make animal husbandry more difficult, such as boundary/fence/enclosure destruction when attempting to get to nearby females of the species.
Male horses are usually castrated (gelded), because stallions are rather aggressive and troublesome. The same applies to male mules, although they are sterile. Male cattle are castrated to improve muscling and docility for use as oxen.
Breeding individuals are kept entire and used for breeding: they may fetch higher prices when sold.
Livestock may be castrated when used for food in order to increase growth or weight or both of individual male animals and because of the undesirable taste and odor of the meat from sexually mature males. In domestic pigs the taint is caused by androstenone and skatole concentrations stored in the fat tissues of the animal after sexual maturity.[14] It is released when the fat is heated and has a distinct odor and flavor that is widely considered unpalatable to consumers.[15] Consequently, in commercial meat production, male pigs are either castrated shortly after birth or slaughtered before they reach sexual maturity.[15] Recent research in Brazil has shown that castration of pigs is unnecessary because most pigs do not have the 'boar taint'. This is due to many breeds of pigs simply not having the heredity for the boar taint and the fact that pigs are normally slaughtered at a young market weight.[16]
In the case of pets, castration is usually called neutering, and is encouraged to prevent overpopulation of the community by unwanted animals, and to reduced certain diseases such as prostate disease and testicular cancer in male dogs (oophorectomy in female pets is often called spaying). Testicular cancer is rare in dogs, but prostate problems are somewhat common in unaltered male dogs when they get older. Neutered individuals have a much lower risk of developing prostate problems in comparison. Unaltered male cats are more likely to develop an obstruction in their urethra, preventing them from urinating to some degree; however neutering does not seem to make much difference statistically because many neutered toms also have the problem. A specialized vocabulary has arisen for neutered animals of given species:
Barrow (pig)
Bullock (cattle)
Capon (chicken)
Dinmont (sheep, goat)
Gelding (horse)
Gib (cat, ferret)
Havier (deer)
Lapin (rabbit)
Stag (cattle, sheep, horse)
Steer (cattle)
Wether (sheep, goat)

Methods of veterinary castration include instant surgical removal, the use of an elastrator tool to secure a band around the testicles that disrupts the blood supply, the use of a Burdizzo tool or emasculators to crush the spermatic cords and disrupt the blood supply, pharmacological injections and implants and immunological techniques to inoculate the animal against its own sexual hormones.
Certain animals, like horses and swine, are usually surgically treated with a scrotal castration (which can be done with the animal standing while sedated and after local anaesthetic has been applied), while others, like dogs and cats, are anaesthetised and recumbent when surgically castrated with a pre-scrotal incision in the case of dogs, or a pre-scrotal or scrotal incision used for cats.
In veterinary practice an "open" castration refers to a castration in which the inguinal tunic is incised and not sutured. A "closed" castration refers to when the procedure is performed so that the inguinal tunic is sutured together after incision.
[edit]Miscellaneous

Orthodox Judaism[citation needed] and Islam[citation needed] forbid the castration of either humans or animals. In ancient Judaism, castrated animals were deemed unfit for sacrifice in the Temple (Lv. 22:24); Castrated members of the priestly caste were forbidden to enter certain parts of the Temple, to approach the altar, or to make sacrifices, although they could eat their share of the offerings (Lv. 21:16–24). Traditionally, no eunuch is allowed to convert to Judaism (Dt. 23:2, or Dt. 23:1, NRSV).
Castration is used as a treatment for prostate cancer.[1]
Some parasitic nematodes chemically castrate their hosts, see microphallus.
[edit]See also

Castrato, a castrated male singer
Eunuch
Birth control
Spaying and neutering (for animals)
Castration anxiety
List of transgender-related topics
Neuticles
Ashley X
Gelding
Emasculators
[edit]External links

Castration Through the Ages
Questions often asked about castration by Sherry
The Journal of Clinical Endrocrinology and Metabolism
Neutering NOT Org Website arguing against the castration of domestic animals
Eunuch.org Website for eunuchs and people with castration fetishes/fantasies. Includes a database of erotic stories, discussion forums, and more.
Elastrator
Boar taint in pigs selected for components of efficient lean growth rate
[edit]On religious castration
Susan Elliott, Cutting Too Close for Comfort: Paul's Letter to the Galatians in Its Anatolian Cultic Context Reviews in Review of Biblical Literature [2]
[edit]Notes

Farhet Rafi

2007-12-05T10:00:00.000-08:00

A look at elves and fairies
Column: HPI Chronicles
Posted on Tuesday, 4 December, 2007 | 4:11 | Comments: 3
Paul Dale Roberts: Yep! I am snatching up two more titles to place under my belt. Call me an Elficologist and a Fairyologist. Because I am going to give you, the reader a fast history lesson on elves and fairies. Have I ever hunted fairies and elves? Well sort of. When I went to Ireland, I was looking for the elusive leprechaun. Of course I never found a leprechaun, but I did travel down fairy path at Dublin Castle. Then the most recent Mount Shasta excursion, in which a dozen paranormal investigators went looking for ghosts, UFOs, Bigfoot, the Last of the Lemurians and fairies. Dwarfs and fairies have been seen going in and out of the caverns near Mount Shasta. But, I believe these dwarfs and fairies have their origins to the infamous 'grays' of UFO lore.

There is a lot that connects fairies to UFO lore, let's look over some of the examples.
Fairy Circles could be interpreted in modern times as crop circles or UFO landing spots.
Fairies are known to be mischievous at times. They have abducted humans. Grays are known to abduct humans.
Fairies have been known to fly in lighted globes. Aliens man UFOs.
Fairies are known to snatch human babies. Aliens experiment with human DNA and are responsible for false pregnancies. Aliens are known to create hybrids, half human and half alien species to populate their dying race.
Fairies cause temporary paralysis. Aliens also cause temporary paralysis.
Fairies cause time loss and the forgetting of the abduction experience. Abductees of the 'grays' make claim to the same thing.
Fairies return their abductees to the point of origin. Aliens do the same thing.
Some people say that fairies at times look reptilian. Some aliens are known to look reptilian.

Hmmm..is that a coincidence? To be truthful, I believe there is a connection between UFOs and fairies. I also believe that UFOs are connected to our Norse - Roman/Greek - Egyptian - Mayan - Aztec myths, but that's a whole other story. Let's briefly talk about elves.

Elves and fairies on certain levels can be somewhat similar. My theory is that elves are a branch from the fairy bloodline. Elves originated with Germanic mythology. In fact if you travel to Europe, there are many people that still believe in elves. Elves were known as minor nature and fertility gods. They were looked upon as youthful and having great beauty. They are somewhat small in stature and have pointy ears. They are known to reside in underground places, caves, wells and springs. Some elves embrace the forest. In Germany's Black Forest it is rumored that a race of elves live in this mystical forest. Other reports from the Black Forest is about a man that was covered in fire, that actually flew from the forest trees to a church steeple. When the townsfolk tried to stone him, he flew away never to be seen again. Some people have called this man on fire, the Fire Elf. It is thought that elves are immortal and have magical powers.

Since I believe Elves and Fairies are actually in the same family, we will look at the variety of fairies and elves, placed together conveniently for you the reader.

Altheia: She is the fairy of revelation. She is protector of criminals that harbor in deception and fraud.
Asrais - Are known to be small delicate female fairies. When these fairies are captured and exposed to sunlight, they will melt away into a pool of water.
Banshee - When someone close in the family is dying, a Banshee, (female spirit) will make a wailing sound. This wailing sound is the signal that death is approaching.
Blue Ladies, Ice Virgins & Mountain Fairies: All are in the same family. They are the size of a wasp, in fact humans mistake them for wasps. They do not like humans touching their hair and will lead humans astray into the Valley of Forbidden Shadows.
Blue Trolls - These are worker trolls, used by high command elves for slave labor. Note: Small blue creatures have been seen by abductees that are used for workers for the 'Grays'.
Boggarts: A breed of half elf and half fairy. These creatures were the same ones that gave a sleeping liquor beverage to Rip Van Winkle (written by Washington Irving), which caused him to sleep for 20 years.
Bogles - Villainous goblins that will do harm to liars and murderers.
Brownies - They love humans and their households. They are known to be benevolent and harmless. If anything, they are helpful.
Bully Bogey: Inspires brutality and oppressive actions. Known to have a fetid breath.
Dwarfs - They are short, stocky and strong. They mature at the age of 3 and at the age of 7, they are old, bearded and gray haired. If they are struck by sunlight, they will turn to stone. They practice magical spells and potions that at times make them immune to daylight.
Dryads - Spirits that live in the trees. They prefer oak trees. Druids utilize Dryads for inspiration.
Elves - There appearance makes them look like a normal man or woman. Small in stature and have pointy ears. They are divided by the Seelie and Unseelie Courts.
Elvenkind of Shangri-La - A Tibetan mystical land that are guarded by the invisible Elvenkind of Shangri-La. These elves carry swords, spears and shields and will defend Shangri-La.
Elven Warriors of the First Blood - They seek conquest of lands belonging to other little people. Their weapons are the bow and arrow, spears, swords, shields. They are able to go from our world into another dimension through a dimensional rift. When people see them on their horses, it looks like they are vanishing, when in reality they are entering another dimensional world. They are known to wear long flowing capes and frightening masks.
Filendieres & Spinners of the Night: They are average human size. They are known to punish the lazy. They will encourage people that work hard and give them strength. They appear as ghosts. They are seen as ladies of long white dresses, extremely beautiful, pale with blonde hair.
Fir Darrig - (Pronounced Fear deang) They play horrific jokes that may cause a human to have a stroke or a heart attack. They can assume any visage they wish.
Flower Myrths - Harmless fairies that live off the pollen of flowers. They are mistaken for humming birds, until people take a closer look and see a human like creature with beating wings.
Gnomes - Earth Elementals. They live underground and guard the treasures and history of the Earth. Gnomes are wonderful metal workers, especially of swords and breastplates.
Goblins - Goblins are an uglier species of fairy. They are small and malicious, and usually band together as they have lost their abilities to operate independently. Usually they are controlled by a Mage for evil doings.
Gobbly Gooks: Small shadowy creatures that usually hide in human's closets and underneath their beds. They are known to enter your dreams and nightmares and will pull pranks on humans.
Gremlins - Tormented WWII pilots by messing with the mechanisms of their warplanes, causing some warplanes to crash.
Gwragedd Annwn - (Pronounced: Gwageth anoon) Are traditionally Welsh water fairies, who occasionally take human men for husbands.
Gwyllion - A Scottish water fairy. They are mostly seen as a hairy men or hideous female spirits who waylay and mislead travelers by night on the mountain roads. Mountain fairies like to sit on rocks on either side of a mountain path and silently watch people as they pass by.
Helpful Hob: These little people help in the kitchen and love to eat bread and buns.
Hobgoblins - Small, grotesque but friendly brownie-type creatures.
Hobbit - Fictional little people created by author J.R.R. Tolkien. See the books The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings.
Knockers (Buccas) - These creatures protect and look over the welfare of miners. They will even making knocking noises where rich ore can be located.
Leprechauns - They have a fond appreciation of gold and will horde gold away from humans. If you capture a leprechaun, they are commanded to grant you one wish and share their wealth with you. They can be tricky and can use your wish against you, if you don't command the wish correctly.
Mer-People- Also known as mermaids. They dwell in the water and are half human from the waist up and have a tail of a fish. They are mesmerizing singers who sometimes lure fishermen to their deaths (See the Lorelei of Germany that lured sailors to their deaths against the rocks of the Rhine River). Also called the Murdhuacha (Pronounced: muroo-cha) or Merrows.
Naga: They can appear as a cobra. When in human form, the female Naga is a graceful and elegant dancer. They will lure a male human to them with their dancing and swiftly turn into a cobra and strike a lethal blow.
Nang-faa & Phi-bird: They are tiny. Their skin is golden. They have jet black hair and are gorgeous womenfolk. Some of their body like arms and legs are made up of feathers.
Nymphs: Two type of Nymphs. The Nereids, which are tall. The Limoniades which are small and live on flowers. Other Nymph breeds are the Dyrads, who live in forests. They are 2 to 3 feet in height. They are known to protect trees.
Pixies - Pixies can shapeshift to look like hedgehogs. They are mischievous fairies who enjoy playing practical jokes on humans. They also love to steal horses to ride.
Phouka - Can appear in various animal forms and are considered to be dangerous.
Primrose: Primrose fairy will touch certain rocks with a primrose and open gateways to fairylands.
Queen Brighid the Bright: She is from Tir Tairngiri - The Land of Promise. She carries a wand, one half of the wand will dealt out authority, while the other half will dealt out purity and justice.
Redcap - One of the most evil of the old Border Goblins. He lives in old ruined towers and castles, particularly those with a history of wickedness. He re-dyes his cap in human blood. Redcaps have been known and seen around the Tower of London.
Shefro - Male fairies who wear green coats and red caps.
Sídhee (shee) - The name for fairies and their subterranean dwellings. A barrow or hill which has a door to a beautiful underground realm of the Tuatha or fairies. J.R.R. Tolkien used this concept with the Hobbit.
Sluagh - The Host of the Unforgiving Dead. The most formidable of the Highland fairies.
Spriggans - Are fabled to be ugly, grotesque and small in their natural state, but can inflate themselves to gigantic proportions. Spriggans are an infamous band of villains, skilled thieves, thoroughly destructive and often dangerous. They are capable of robbing the dwellings of humans, kidnapping human children and exchanging the human child with a repulsive baby Spriggan.
Tempestaries - They are gigantic to human size. They live in cloud castles and are known to eat Souffles & vol-au-vents.
The Willies & the Dancers of the Mist: They are the size of a 'sheaf of mist'. They are vaporous creatures and are known to eat mist. They can shapeshift to a doe or a swan.
Trolls - Have an aversion to daylight. They are frequently observed performing a curious lop-sided dance called 'Henking'.
Trows - Similar to the Trolls and have an aversion to daylight. They also perform the dance known as the 'Henking'. Trolls and Trows are perhaps cousins. Trolls have a flatter head, while Trows have a more angler head.
Urisk - Is a solitary fairy who haunts lonely pools. He will often seek out human company, but his frightful appearance will scare off humans that come into contact with his kind.
Water Fairies - Are the providers of food, nourishers of crops and takers of lives. They combine beauty with treachery and lethality. They can be friend or foe.
Wart Wogs - Grotesque elves that stand at 4 feet in height. They are known to have warts all over their bodies. When they touch a human, they will pass on the wart infliction to their human victim.
Wind Banshee - A beautiful female elf that is invisible to the naked eye and will travel with the wind. When she stops and manifests in front of a human she will talk in a soft voice and tell the human about an impending disaster or tragedy that will occur in their life. She will then fade with the wind and vanish.
Yellow Blurker: Filled with negativity, known to enter your dreams and nightmares.
At some point of time, I plan to travel to Iceland, an island that is filled with little people that live beneath the stones. In Iceland there are elves, lovelings, gnomes, trolls, huldufolk and light fairies. Icelanders take little people very seriously and when they think they are invading the space of little people, they will reroute a shopping mall to keep the little people happy.
If you ever go hunting for little people, use my list to identify what kind of little people you are dealing with. You can then make claim that you are an Elficologist or Fairyologist that has the ability to identify and deal with the small folk you have encountered. Happy little people hunting! Bag one for me!

We'll go Dancing tonight

2007-12-05T09:57:00.000-08:00

Denis Johnson (born 1949 in Munich, West Germany) is an American writer who has written numerous novels, short stories and poems. He was raised in Tokyo, Manila, and Washington. He holds a masters' degree from the University of Iowa. His work was influenced by the novelist Leonard Gardner. He has received many awards for his work, including a Lannan Fellowship in Fiction in (1993) and a Whiting Writer’s Award (1986). His most famous work is the collection of short stories Jesus' Son. In 2006-2007, he held the Mitte Chair in creative writing at Texas State University in San Marcos, Texas.
In 2002 Johnson won the Aga Khan Prize for Fiction from The Paris Review for Train Dreams
In 2007 Johnson won the National Book Award for his novel Tree of Smoke.[1]
Contents
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1 Works
1.1 Novels
1.2 Short stories
1.3 Poems
1.4 Plays
1.5 Non-fiction
2 References
3 External links
[edit]Works

[edit]Novels
Angels (1983)
Fiskadoro (1985)
The Stars at Noon (1986)
Resuscitation of a Hanged Man (1991)
Already Dead: A California Gothic (1998)
The Name of the World A Novella, (2000)
Train Dreams A Novella, (2002)
Tree of Smoke (2007)
[edit]Short stories
Jesus' Son (collection of short stories) (1992) was adapted for the screen and produced by Evenstar Films, and released by Lions Gate Films in 1999. It was named one of the top ten films of the year by The New York Times, The Los Angeles Times, Roger Ebert and others. The cast included Jack Black, Billy Crudup, Dennis Hopper, Holly Hunter, Denis Leary, Samantha Morton, Will Patton, and featured a cameo by Adewale Ayuba. Johnson himself plays a cameo role in the film as a man who has been stabbed in the eye by his wife. The title Jesus' Son comes from the song "Heroin" by The Velvet Underground.
"Dirty Wedding" /short story) (1990) published in The New Yorker 1990: The narrator tells how he liked to ride the El trains in Chicago, when he was in his mid-20s and living with a girl named Michelle.
[edit]Poems
The Man Among the Seals
Inner Weather
The Incognito Lounge
The Veil
The Throne of the Third Heaven of the Nations Millennium General Assembly: Poems Collected and New
[edit]Plays
Johnson's plays have been produced in San Francisco, Chicago, New York, and Seattle. He is the Resident Playwright of Campo Santo, the resident theater company at Intersection for the Arts in San Francisco.
Hellhound on my Trail
Shoppers Carried by Escalators into the Flames
Soul of a Whore
Psychos Never Dream
Purvis
Des Moines (To be produced by Intersection for the Arts October 19 and 20, 2007)
Everything Has Been Arranged (An adaptation of Johnson's story Small Boys Unit, to be produced as part of Intersection for the Arts New Works Festival December 6-8, 2007)
[edit]Non-fiction
Seek: Reports from the Edges of America & Beyond (2001)
[edit]References

one hundred miles and running

2007-09-15T12:40:00.000-07:00

Small press is a term often used to describe publishers with annual sales below a certain level. Commonly, in the United States, this is set at $50 million, after returns and discounts. Small presses are also defined as those that publish an average of less than 10 titles per year,[1] though there are a few who manage to do more.
The terms "small press," "indie publisher" and "independent press" are often used interchangeably, with "independent press" defined as publishers that are not part of large conglomerates or multinational corporations. Defined this way, these presses make up approximately half of the market share of the book publishing industry. [2] Many small presses rely on specialization in genre fiction, poetry, or limited-edition books or magazines, but there are also thousands that focus on niche non-fiction markets.
[edit]What small presses are not

Small presses should not be confused with "vanity presses". Vanity or subsidy presses usually require payment by authors, or a minimum purchase of copies. Small presses make their profits by selling books to consumers, rather than selling services to authors or selling a small number of copies to the author's friends.
Small presses should not be confused with printers. Small presses are publishers, which means that they engage in a book selection process, along with editing, marketing and distribution. Small presses also enter into a contract with the author, paying royalties for being allowed to sell the book. Publishers own the copies they have printed, but usually do not own the copyright to the book itself. In contrast, printers merely print a book, and sometimes offer limited distribution if they are a POD printing press. Printers have a very low selectivity. They will accept nearly anyone who can pay the cost of printing. They rarely offer editing or marketing. Printers do not own the copies that are printed, and they do not pay royalties.
Book packagers combine aspects of small presses and printers, but they are technically neither small presses nor printers.
[edit]Characteristics of small presses

Since the profit margins for small presses can be narrow, many are driven by other motives, including the desire to help disseminate literature with only a small likely market. Small presses tend to fill the niches that larger publishers neglect. They can focus on regional titles, narrow specializations and niche genres. They can also make up for commercial clout by creating a reputation for academic knowledge, vigorously pursuing prestigious literature prizes and spending more effort nurturing the careers of new authors.[3] At its most minimal, small press production consists of chapbooks. This role can now be taken on by desktop publishing and web sites. This still leaves a continuum of small press publishing: from specialist periodicals, short runs or print-to-order of low-demand books, to fine art books and limited editions of collectors' items printed to high standards.
[edit]History

Small presses became distinguishable from jobbing printers at some time towards the end of the nineteenth century. The roots lie with the Arts and Crafts Movement, particularly the Kelmscott Press. The use of small letterpress machines by amateur printers increased proportionately to the mechanization of commercial printing. Later, the advance of practical lithography made small press publication much easier.
A recent burgeoning of small presses has been caused by the introduction of digital printing, especially print on demand technology. Combined with Internet based marketing and digital typesetting and design tools, the new printing technologies have lowered the economic barriers to entry, allowing many new niches to be served, and many new publishers to enter the industry.
[edit]Micro-presses

There is now also a distinction made between small presses and micro-presses. A micro-press can be defined as a publisher that produces chapbooks and other small books on a very small scale (e.g. 50 copies of one book per year). It can also be defined in terms of revenue. Micro-presses often are run as a hobby or part-time job because of their low profits. They may not produce enough profit to support their owners.[2]
[edit]Footnotes

Fairly, Well ?

2007-09-14T09:35:00.001-07:00

LANSING!

The men came in Wheeling Like Lynda Cleary and they Came near her as well and they made her Cum several times. What kind of things were you hearing one of them said it was that one cry from a house nearbye Where someone Cried out and someone Said that Lynda Cleary was the one person who held people down and no one Did anything about that either yes they said She did hold us down and the room did hold us as well And the light did hold us at first then the room came bye you and him Next but not nearly and the light again too They all said they held on to One thing nearly and the people all said there Was some kind of Thing that they defeated and the Room was the thing that Spoke. He thought of a new kind of Hope that had been Wheeling and a new kind of Drug that had been with them too and the room will always Be Crying and the Light will always be Coming out of the room and the people Will All Rely on that To hold themselves down and the room again too and the Light again too and the Main Entrance and the Light came Down to the Wire and the Rope again too And the noose around me and the Light again and the Face of the Men the Face of another man the Death of One Kind of thing and the Light and the Hope from one Other Kind of thing and the Years of Abuse They all said Wait Let’s hear them Scream out I thought I heard the darkness Near the place of Wheeling Where the Men were Born Where the Elephants Wiped tears away and the Light was Oh Doing So Well and the men came in the one kind of Room and the Men were the Ones who had to be beating things out of me and then they were never the ones who came into the Room and there was some Kind of abuse and the room was the Light and Lynda Cleary kept thinking that she was Going to Be Getting Laid In a Few hours she recalled herself feeling like For a minute I will be laying here and then in the next minutes I will have a Cock inside of me and the room the things beating one thing out of me and the Light Beating the next out of me and the Room and some kind of abuse oh Wait Don’t Make ME Know any of that Don’t Make me know that, We Must have moved To Lansing Ohio isn’t that Where we Were isn’t that Where some Kind of Darkness crept in To the Room the light was there too wasn’t all of that there Yes there was really dark and the room now and the End of the days next to me and the room and the Reason that I Lived for her For So Long til the day Was different and The room was the thing that was different what was The abuse was there some kind of abuse Minutes of Pain and then There was nothing else He once Said Yes I heard the Men Roll up in one of their Trucks and then I heard them Roll away but I wasn’t sure to where.
Skulling The Musk now off the top of Wheeling off the end of the Rape Too What point Then reverting From Lansing, You Know they Used to say Wheeling Was the Point Now what do they Say is the Point some People dashed across Hills and the Room Lit up Great Big and the Small Men were the ones Wearing Big Tops the Room was about to Blow the Lid and the reason I have Never said Anything about it is The Room the Lid was the room they All Blew the musk and the Time they had too and the End of the time they had and the men blow The Top off of some kind of inside Job and the Men were the Ones Who Blew the Top off of the Light and the Skulls of the popes and the ends of the hands of other men as well and They Said they Would have to Go in through the Ceiling and the Light too and the end of Light about to make them happy—just the one kind of top of the End That was The One He said, Yes about to penetrate The Other Top and the Light about to Kill Those Ones too He said—Yes The end of that Kind of Top and the Light again too and The Hope of People Yes they All heard the Light Scream out great big and the end of the Time they all stood up on one kind of Row of Lights and the men who were the ones Screaming and the Room now you were the ones Who Screamed Yes the Light and the Daytime that it Lived bye Where They Lived next to the end of Some Kind of Room and the Dead start to Walk now too HE once Said Yes they all started to Live up next to where you thought they were Before what kind of Life made you Live next to where You were the next time, HE said Only one not so many.

Maybe the men like to say That Lynda Cleary Comes Like a Lake and that it runs dry and that the room is what they are out of Yes the men like to Say We are out of Lynda Cleary and the men like to say there is enough Room to say we are out of Lynda Cleary but where do you want us to go and the men want to say where Do you want to Spell your Fury They all say that Lynda Clear is the place where they want to do that and the men say that Lynda Cleary is the one where they want to spill the rooms For the Blood that was there before the room now you once said They all made you Love them and they room said you all made us Love you and the people said they’d try to make you See who the men were and the room said they’d Try to make you see if you could drink Blood and if Lynda Cleary could drink blood also Lynda Cleary come and Drink Blood As Soon as Possible I Took Love from her they all said Will Lynda Cleary give us back The Love that we had before and the room said Well She’ll Take some time to give it back to us and the room now You all said The People were the ones Who took some time and the men were the ones Who made you feel like a System and the room said We’re Going to Crank Lynda Cleary out and the room said Yes we understand but we don’t have any kind of place to put her and the room said We don’t have any kind of place to drop her off and the room said you can all exist and not quite see what you saw before and the room said we’ll turn out from now on yes we’ll turn out from the room that was just what you saw happen earlier and the room said you are all the ones who will make things happen earlier and the room said yes you will try to understand and the people said it’s not going to happen any faster even if you try to make it happen faster and the room said Lynda Cleary will you say the least Will you try to stay and will you try to understand and the room said Lynda Cleary Will You Laugh all the way to the bank and the room said where will you laugh all the way til The room certainly says you’ll laugh til you get all the way there and Lynda Cleary Seems to think that She’ll just keep going on til you get the room out of here The room said Lynda Cleary We want you to get out of here and the room said she’s not one of us anymore maybe she is not one of us then who do you think she is?
Some Kids Rode Bikes up when I looked at the Window some One Pulled Down on my hands just a Shit in the Toolshed not much else A Long one too Who can say Though some Poles Holding up Flags for some Peoples Fathers who were Probably Unhappy After all they Probably should be since that’s how they are Going to Live out the Rest of their Lives the way you think they’d live out the rest of your Life and the room said Yes You will live out the rest of your Life that way the Way You’d Like to Well We can’t let Andy Reed Stop us and We can’t let a thing like Amber Reed stop us either although they will both be coming over soon they will both be coming over they will both be stuck up in closets That they Close in on you and they zero in on your Life and they Say if We’re Through then it’s Your Ass but oh Whose Ass is it really they Say any way you’ll roll in the room and the room the Time you said you Rolled all of the time away or maybe it was the time you Said that Amber Reed was Gone from the earth She’s gone now isn’t she Yes said someone else Amber Reed is gone from the Earth there’s no other way to hold onto her Except the way Where She thinks she’s going to use all of you.

This Is Lansing Someone Said
And then Someone Else
Said
No it’s not
But yes it is It Most Certainly is The room of All of those Fools They said Well what happened to them who let them in to something and who let them into something else also The room now the one of fools and the people they are all fools also The room said Well Lynda Cleary You’re a Real Prick You and Your Dirty Cunt you and the Room that said We’ll See you all over at the Time when the world Crumbled Then We’ll have to ask where did we see you before all of that and what kind of Person did you imagine yourself to be and what kind of man says hey Lynda Cleary Hey Lynda Cleary This is Angela Derosa I Have some work I thought you’d Might want to do No Chance That You can manage though Yes No Chance That you can manage and the room said there’s no way I can manage to deal with all these people who I Will always call Motherfuckers Lynda Cleary though on the other Hand will call them something else She Won’t Just call them motherfuckers She’ll Call them something else Yes the room Will Say Well Lynda Cleary we’re Gonna Motherfuck You You Dirty Cunt The room Will Say Well it’s the house Near Lansing Hey I heard that Jody Reed Lives there now he bought if from Andy Reed Who Bought if from you Didn’t they all come There are One time or another I wonder why they liked it so much some people say they are So unhappy but Andy Reed says that he never was He just keeps saying that everything was alright and that there was no one there doing anything bad and the room said Well wait a minute andy reed who can say what is wrong and what is right and who will know if anything is bad or not and what kind of day will amber reed have then too if she’ll be singled out and what if she’ll be the one they all say is the one who is pour and what if she’ll be like you and You’ll be like her this time or one other time –Andy Reed’s Electrocution They all Said they’d come for it but who really got in line.

And bye the old main way too just the way that thing go and the room says just that you’re dealing with the world and the time they were there they shut their faces in They all said the Room came from Wheeling the people came from there too and the room said it knows it has it in me and the people all say they know they have it in them as well and the room now you are the one who should be surprised The room said it would be surprised bye sex and what not They’d say Yes the Room said Some people Hold wheeling up as truth and the time now the right time perhaps or what else Could be wrong in the world They all said, Yes One Time Moving towards one Color Then just everything else Split open and the room shot Whiskey and the light came on Fire as well We all came under it though we All thought Through the things that were Burning down and the people all Thought something was burning down and the room Now the People from Wheeling they all come out like they did before Like they Used too They all beat a dead horse they all Try to make something work that doesn’t work at all and the room said You Would have the follow through but the time gets Rough and the light again that gets rough as well and the time now where you stand to be the person that you are and the room now where You stand Out as the person that you were and the room now too The people stand out as of The last time that you came to them and the last time that you came to them they all stand to be treated The Same Yes the Room what does it say too Another day under Fire and a Room under water too and the thousands of people were Everything Was one kind of Way and everyone Could Just get a Long if they wanted to and everyone was happy as the Way they’d before and the room now where you were down on Broken Knees and the room you know where you were down as who you were and you were hard on yourself—Someone Else standing there Though as well and it might take Images now to Tell Who they all were But Bill Cleary and everyone Else all of them biting down very hard and all of them holding on to Something that wouldn’t have been there Before and the room now You are Pushing me away he said Yes you are Pushing me away from who I was before and all the things catch up with you and The Room down on Broken knees and a Lot of Other People all of them with their Hands Cut Off and All of the color Down there Bleeding a Long and the men are So happy now too and the light was bleeding out all over the Place Bursts of Light coming inward He said Yes the room now Burst of Color and the Light coming one Way and being another way though no one can say what that can be and no one is sure what it will be this time Only if it is Something else.

The Room now the room now You are the one Andy Reed’s there now too he’s The one aflame and the room now You Know you’ll always be oblivious and The Times of day they were On Fire as much as anything else and the room again and the light again it burnt Just Like everything else and the days the Made Love to time and the people are Just the same as anyone else and the room and the light of day again and the time now You are the one who Made the Life From the Thing that Was what bore Death and the light again was What Bore Death As well and the people again they were So
Romantic and the Light again Was the time of day against her and the room now where the People are The Ones who are Aflame and the room and the star was taken from me and the Light was the same as everything else and the room now Where you gave into The Things that were Close and the room now You will Never Know they’ll Say and the Room now You’ll never say and the people Will never run the things Over that they Could have said Would have gone over and the room now You are the One Person who Seems Like The Made Their Thoughts into Lies and the room Now You are here To survive and the room now Where the one Made Love to all the things in Life and the Room again now you are the one who was the One person Who made the Life of Hell of yours now too the One time now they Ran ahead to the bed of nails where they Thought they Would Go to survive and the room now You are the one Who made Life come back to the things you thought had lost life before and the room again and the life again and the color again and the day now the Room now you are the one who was making things Easier than before and the room can’t breathe The morning can’t give Birth the same as it did before.

The world is open on The One Day that Wheeling came in nothing left there though and nothing else at all
And the people
Are all Screaming now too
And the room now
Screaming as well
The people said You know you are a better person
Bumping into One man barely and expecting a caricature
Barely
To Be written and the room now
You were the one Who Holds on for a Long ride
And another time
Where it all Declined and the room
Now where you are all sinful and the room
Now where you were only the one
Who Blamed the time
As if the People
Had some kind of deceit and the room
Now you are the person
Who uses sex
They Said and all of that time in Wheeling
And the room now the Lights the man who Looks Like a Child
The other
Time destroyed from one of the Shots
The negative image of the garden and the room
Now where the Face seemed Like the one you saw in wheeling
With the son
Next to nothing now
And the room now where you were the one
Who must have made some things
Happen and the room now again
And the people said The room
Had built some kind of reputation and the room
Had built some kind of glass
Case
Too and the people
Knew that it had
And The whole day
Said the Room
Now You were the one Who Once
Made the Light Easy and the room
Made once the Light Easier than before
The room once
Made it easy
Andy Reed never did though
And The time there when things were easy
And the room
Some Kind of fucking thing
Some of damn time where you know the Way that you are

Blooren McGimick
Was awake now
That Old PoonChute down Wheeling way
The room was a Burn in itself Some people bye the Fucked up Railroad tracks in Wheeling Them ones that Ran the Train all the way To Lansing Some people now too In the General Store They were There Just to admire its ambience it felt like the room just said Well Lynda Cleary You’ll just have to get fucked Won’t You yes yeah Will the room said Yes Lynda Cleary Yes Blooren You’ll have to get fucked as well and the room said Yes wait The room said Yes Just so long as you can Wait to get fuckd.
They used to say Kill Them Where they Go kind of In Hell then he once said and the room once said The People were kind of IN hell The Room now you are the one Who was in hell and the room is ridiculous Thinking you could fuck them all and the room now you are the one Who’s thinking of Getting fucked and the room now Where you are Saying the people are Fucked up in A Sense and the room now You are the one Who said The people Were Getting fucked up and the room saying yes you are the one who is Getting fucked up and the people Came here to be the one Who Hit the room again and the people are the ones Who said Fucked Up too and the only Light was the Thing you were the ones Who were the ones Who made Life come to the Hole where You Were in Hell and the men who were the ones who Were the ones Who said Yes Help us through material and the room now too and the people who said Yes the light again too and the men who were there and it just felt Like no one Could help and who are the people who Broke all connection with life again and the Only time the room held On and the Men Who Held on as well and the Life of the People too and the room now too and the people are the ones Who are you seeing the people and the Room And the room now You are Coming to the Head he said and the Room now where you are the ones Who are going to halt and the Room now the ones Who were wasted and the people who feel like they are Wasted and the Room now and the people say They can help us and the Light again the Last time we Laughed Yes the room now and the people who come and They all say Fucked Up You were the ones Who were Fucked up and the rooms now you are The ones who are Fucked up too and the people who are fucked up til a certain Point God they all Say the Room was flashing and the People all say the Light was flashing too and some of the hardest days the people say these are the Hardest Days and the Days where there is just suffering and the Room now where you said they all burn now where the Room now and you are Suffering too and the light again The Colors too the Wheels Tossed up and down and the room now where you said You all gave a Fuck and the Light Came and the Room now and the People were the ones Who Said fuck it and the Light came and the People said Will You Hand it to us and the room saying you are the one Who is fucked up and the room now you are the ones Who said You were once fucked up in the way You had been and the Light again and the Face of the men who was there and the Room now Who was there and the Light and the target and the room now and the Time now where are you coming in here and the light and the days were arriving and The room and now the time and the Time where the mistakes were Made and the Light again and the head coming to the Certain Point and the Room now where you Were the one Rubbing the Legs of the Men Who said Yes You are the one Who was the man saying and the time Where you were Coming from the wall and the light came And the Size and the Head of all of the things the death of it all and the Light you know the size of the penis and the men who said the penis was going to Be Large when it flashed inside of her.
At any Rate they Came again the Light The short Flashes of it and the Day again the head of Hell again and the room now the head of the fix of hell against The Light too And the room just rest their empty and the light and the day too and the People said the Room was the Size of the Room before that and the room too and The people wanted to Dodge me and the Light came again and the head of The Men Who were there and the Light of the Heads of the Dogs and the faces of men who once said Yes the room saying fuck Me over they all said and the Room now and the people said You are the one Man Who was getting fucked up and the room now where you said yes the face of men who saying Fuck He Said Yes the all want to fuck them all of them and the Room now too and the Dogs again and the Room Full of the Men Yelling one man yelling louder than the Other man who was the one man who Else Would You Think He was well just about to the next day and the room now where you were Once saying we are there and the Men who all Say they are Fucking Killing people and the Room saying the Days were Large and the Kill of the men and the people Saying fuck it all too and the men who once said Yes the Room came to the Light and the Head and the Head came to the Light too and the Room now as well and the what the fuck were you to do he once said!

The room came up to me and the Room said Here’s the man in the Mask Yes the room now Too They Must have said fuck Andy Reed Since they didn’t need him and the Room Said it all leads to that All the Doors the room now and the Head of the Light too and the room saying there are a Lot of People who need to BE fucked and the Room saying yes the men who were The ones who were the ones who used to die in one kind of Light now they die in another way One Light Where They Tore You open and The Room where He came inside of me and The Light where He was Blurred and the room where he stood up and the Light against The men who were Once Together And the Men Who were the ones Who Were The people who came Again The Light again and the room now The Men all said You were Like Boys and The Friends of the Men Were The Ones Who were the men who came Like the Men Who were coming through next to the end of the days Coming again For the Room now Too They Just said they were fucking up and the Room now the Light and the Men who all were the friends of people and the Light again And the men were sucking on the Dicks of other men and the Light was the Room now You said Lets get fucked up and the heads of men who were the ones Who were Standing and the Light was just standing and the Light was Just coming up to me the next time and the Light was the Room now You said Amber Reed was in There Did you really see her In There ? Her Reflection was cast off the water and the room said you know that Amber Reed betrayed us What was she saying she was saying some shit to us Where the worst thing ever was about to happen and the Room now that was about to happen and the Light now you were the ones Who made Love to your Friends Now weren’t You are you the ones Who were In Love with the Men Who only came again the Room now You only Let the men make love to you and the room now you are the ones Who were fucked up and the Room now You were the ones who were Fucking up the last day of the time you were the ones fucking up some things and then the room now and the people all said the ones Who screamed up and The walls and the Light again the Days of the Room the Last days of the room now the Last days and the room now you are saying the Light up again the light now you are the ones Who faced the Last days of death.

I guess
He Remembered
All Death
Since well it all grew from Wheeling The Room said You are Like Hell and the people said it was Where They Beat You So Many Times and the Room and the Light again and the face and the Room now You are the ones Who once Held me to the Light and you are the ones Who once held me under water and the Room will Say You don’t give a fuck and the Light now and You are the Ones Who Said those People are the ones Who were breaking through the door and the Light some times there were Men who said Yes the Light was breaking up and the Sky was the thing That You once said and the room now Said You Can Say Fuck it and the Room said Break the skin with your Teeth and the Room said You can all Feel Like Skin was being torn and the room said Yes the room was torn With the Skin and the light was longer and the Room now you are the one Who said You are the one Who came again with the skin and the Time where you were up against the house and The Room now Breathing, Sighing and Saying Amber Reed—Amber Reed said that over and over and she didn’t want to See the Light anymore She didn’t like the way that it shone In and the face of men We’ll be what she is up to.

That must be the room The one that was made of fire and the one where people were going to come in, isn’t that it Lynda Cleary and the room now they said all the people were the ones Who were coming in from one kind of Room and the People said the Men Were the Ones who were against us and the hell they Caused us and the Men too Yes the Room now the people too and the eyes of them all as well and the Light running from one to Another Just some sign on the end of his Penis Some Red Dots and they Were Riding in Cars and the Room now They all said it must End Yes they All said it will end too and the sounds Take over and the Light takes over as well and the men You all said Were the ones Who blamed you and the men said you were the ones Who Blamed You and the eyes and the Ice again too the Room now was cold and the men now were the ones Who were cold and the Light was the thing that people wanted to Know about and the Light said the Men were grieving Yes they were all grieving and the Light now and the time now You were the men who spend and the Light Were you Coming from one Kind of Light and the Men Announced the eyes of the dogs and the Light and the Images of People fluttering around and the Men now you were the ones who were staying up til the latest Hours and the Eyes of those men who were the ones who Put you out behind the end of the night now and their was light too and the ends of all Light and the people they were plastic and the room now to Yes they Were riding hard again on certain Things I saw her in the corner smiling Very Wide now I knew her heart was Open Wait though One Person said Yes the Green Was Not Removable and the Light was not Removable either One way or another Everything had to last and the edge of all things had to Laugh hard outloud The Time of day he didn’t know either the edge of the light he didn’t know also The room now just underneath the days of death uncovering these Things and the Light of the Room where you Were made into heroes The edges of the Exists and the ways in and the mind of People who want to make things matter and the room now too The Door open up and only one Person and the edge of that Person too and the light of that Day And how Did those Things Open up were You the one Who needed things opened for them and The Room Crossed one door of Color and the Next Day You were next to the Men who were making the things Who had you Next to the Light and they all had you ready to be the person who was making the Light come out next to me as a person and the room now you were the ones Who were ready and the Light was the thing that you came up to and the edge of things too and the ends of men the bits of stake and the ice creeping in and the room now Just another trick up and down and the light came up to you as one man and you are the one Man Who made things Ready to Come on out and the men who made the things ready to the Ice the factory and the edge of Darkness here where you are.

Nothing
Came Through they all said
The Room just shouted the room just held on to the bitter end of the Light of God and the darkness and the Light again and the Eyes
Of Darkness and the Room
Now the Room
They said it was all a trick
Amber Reed must have known it was
She Threw a Knife into a tree
And then She Wrote On the bark using a marker
Hell Was here
She must have Wrote that
And the Room said Things didn’t Look affective and the Light again in her eyes and her
Mouth over someone’s
Penis the
Ends of the Days Covered Bye the Blood of Fish
Whose
Guts were just cut out and whose eyes were Flushed
Like being in a vacuum and the eyes of all the men who
Were Like Gods and the days too and the Hair too of certain men and the Room now where you are The men who are certain and the ice too
The eyes of all the men is just a certain thing and the Light of Certain men was a certain thing and the Men now you are the one who made the light come out like a certain thing and the Men who all said yes Andy Reed was the man who made us do all those things that we didn’t want to do but we are not sure why he made us do those things and we are not sure what kind of person he is and if he’s really a Real Person at all we’re not sure of any of that and we’re not sure what He’ll do to us in the future and We’re not sure what kind of pain he’ll inflict upon us as people We’ve all been afraid for quite sometime Yet we’re just not certain what to do if we’re afraid none the less.

I am on A walk along the edge now the one near the place of death and the room now and the one Where you are next to the death of some people and the Edge of time now too and the men who are you the ones Who you Made Look Like Ice and the Times of Day where you are the ones who are making us love The room the way it was and the ice the way that was as well and the time now and the men who all made you say that nothing was like it seems and nothing went as well as you thought it would probably and the men who made you scream they made me scream as well and the men made me scream til the next time and the light made me scream til the next time as well and The Life I was living Was kind of an Exit and the room now you are turning out one way and you are turning another kind of Way as well and the men who are Turning out one kind of Way As well and the men said Oh he’s a real Class act and the Men said Yes andy reed was the one who put us up against something that we couldn’t Deal with and he’s the one who held us up against the dark things in our lives and he was the one who was so bad to us also I Think he was the one who was so bad to us not that he wasn’t up to any other bad things either.

There was no shelter From any of the pain Either in One porch In Wheeling where Andy Reed was swinging Violently at us and he was saying we weren’t mature enough or Something and that We Let him down and that We did Bad things to him and The Room said it’s Just going to fucking Kill him and the Room now where you said You measured some things as Lies and the Minds of Certain people where you were the one who measured some of those things and the Men who were the ones Who Held those Lies up against us and the Men Who held us to their Minds and the Men who Said We’d have To lie to get what we wanted Since we could never get out of here alive and the People said that you all Did them in and the Men said you were the ones Who did them in and the Lies again All The Ones in Wheeling the Lies again the World again where some one Tripped you under a Table and didn’t seem to care how you Felt and then they didn’t care Who you were Either and the Men didn’t care that you Felt that they were The men IS The Time about to come now and the / the time and the Time now again about to come The Light is about to enter the Day in wheeling and burn things out and you’ll never know what it is Again and the Light again you’ll never know what it Was and the Room you’ll never see how it falls and falls.

No not that Room again and not that Light again She danced around the Water and Fire that one near Wheeling the one they said were all days and the men who said Were all goners and the Lights That they said were bright and the ice too and the ends of peoples faces and the eyes of men who are the ones Who you said Were the ones Who were against you and the lights again and the Shades and the Colors and the Eyes too No One said anything and no one Was near Something awful before and the room said you know that you are alright and the men who said You know you are alright and the light will stand it’s own ground and the Eyes of the men who were Like Gods and dogs and the lights and the dark Eyes too and the Ice again and the Faces of Heroes and the Edges of all experience and the men who were the ones who were Going to End things as well and the men who said Oh If you wake up Amber Reed then you wake up Andy Reed Too and he’s the last one you want to wake up and then he’s the one Who was going to make people kill you They all said the Room now you are the one who died too and the Room said that You didn’t know who you were and the men will find you Til the end Of the Light and the Road now too and the People and the Men They Will Scream Andy Reed’s Name and the men will say he’s a part time thing and the men will say he’s the one who you think is the one who made a statement against You As that person who is the man who you would say is the man who once made a statement against us Yes they all said you are that man Can I find you again against the ice and the cold rock too he said Yes all of you can become that man.

FIRST With the First Wound and The room now Where they make you sweat and the Room now where they make you break and the lucky old son He has nothing at all But you and the room said they have no one against you except yourself and the Light has no one against you except yourself and the room Said Oh Good Lord Can’t you hear me crying and the Room said now the men were Rolling and the Eyes of God were Looking down and the Men Were about to Be Judged In Wheeling the Men were going to be Judged in Wheeling and the room and the whole story and the Eyes of everyone again and the Light and the Eyes of all men too and the eyes of you all as People and the Boys and the Lords again and the Room now too and the Eyes of the Lights of the Lasts Of the Dogs and the Men who will be ambushed and The Light said you were all the ones who were In Heaven and the men said you were the ones Who once you Had the Face of the Light up again And the Eyes of the darkness of you will always wonder and the men who are the ones Who will make the men blame each other and will their Be pain after All he used to say and the Room now and The eyes of the Light now you were carried through into the Room now and You were the one who made the Light of the men come to the Head of the Bed and the Room now and the Days of Rooms The ones where they held men and the Ones where they tossed fires out of the beds of these Men and the heads of these men all being cut off –you act like you have never seen the edges of the light from a long time ago and the heads of the men and you are the same man as the one man who came a long time ago and the heads of the men who were the ones who faced us all and you were the ones who Came again against our faces and The Light and the Hardness of your heads and the Room said You’d Come to raise the dead and the men Were the Ones Who held the eyes of God and the head and the eyes of all the men who were Weary and the Lights of the days of god going Home again over the Hills the Eyes of the Gods were all that Looked down over Wheeling and the Law too all of those Things were broken and the Room now where you are the one Who will enter and the one who will crawl.

I just want the long hand I felt to entertain me and the ends of the heads of men being cut off and The heads of men now Who are you saying is that man and Who is the man Who Will Cut You Off and who is the man who will make the things happen Who Did you think was that man and the eyes of the faces of men all over Light and the ends of them all too and the Hard times again the light and the faces of men and the Eyes of the Men who think they are all Gods and the eyes of the men who think everything is hard and the men who say things are The Way you thought they were because of a particular Hardness and the Room said You never took nothing from no one and the men said they were Just someone Like you and the Men said maybe that was Nothing and the Ends of the Life of the men and who are the ones Who spent all of the days and the Edges of fear too and then Who became the man you thought was you.

We Live in a world We Call Wheeling Said Amber Reed we live in a time where all men rape Other Men and The men said the heads of other men are burning too and the Men who are the ones who escape and the eyes of the men who are the ones Who Came back to Ye They all Are the men who Came here to rape Each Other and the Men Said What Do you know about the Seat of Mercy Where Amber Reed sat and the men said what do you know about the Seat of Mercy and the men said the Room is made of Gold what did you think Amber Reed made it out of and the men Said Amber Reed made The Room out of the men who are the ones who are Saying Yes Angela Derosa Do you want us to go and get Amber Reed For you or do you want us to tell her that she’s not that Kind of person and she’s not The one you think She is and he Men Were Saying Don’t you hope she’s done for yes I hope she’s done for and the men said they hope she’s done for if she’s done for Then She’s the one Who made you and the Men will live for the ends of Everything The ends of hard cock or the heads of Hard cock and the men said You’ll Lie and the Men said you’ll Say Something that you shouldn’t have Said Yes the men said You are the one who will tell us a Lie won’t you won’t you be the one who will tell us a Lie and the men said maybe you’ll be that person we can’t really Say if you will be we’re just not sure what is going on at all and then Ye Must Free Amber Reed he said Well we’re not sure if we can free her and the room said it’s not sure what kind of Bomb She wants to drop and it’s just not Sure what kind of things She wanted to do and the Men said that they aren’t sure what kind of things they all wanted to do as well and the men said You are the ones and the Rooms too and the Men said Just a field of stone and the Eyes of some of the people who will hold us down how long will they hold us down for?

This affair and the suspicion The room in Wheeling the Men said They made you of the bed and the Light too and the eyes of all of you Looking in on him and the Days of the ends of Hope too and the eyes of all of them too and the men who were the Ones who were like the people on ice and the room all of the Sticky Images too he said He Saw Lynda Cleary’s face stuck up on one Room Didn’t you see Amber Reed up there too and the men who were up there and I think they were trying to make up their Minds and some men were screaming and the days again where the face of the Day again and that virus too and the Heads of beasts and the Eyes of Dogs too and the ends of men cut off the heads of other men Who were the men who wanted to Kill them they all said and the Light now again and the Faces of people have grown cold they all said and you are the one on the edge what were you on the edge for and the men who were knocking the doors down and the faces of men who were the ones who were the ones who were screaming and the the eyes and the Faces of then some of them again The Light Only Opens from Lynda Cleary’s Vagina Once You said that You heard the light opened the exit Sign too he said and the Light again the Room now you were the one who sent he Message Some kind of Strong Message and the people were the ones Screaming for it all of You will yell out Loud That was a Long time ago they all said And the Men Said it was the Room that freed them and the men said the time That freed them was too long ago and the face of men and the ends of Lights and the heads of men and the Faces of all the boys too and all the men who were angrier than before.

The Room now the bed too and the light again and the men who were the ones Who used the faces She remembered them when she was back in the bushes Turning into one Kind of color that Was the Color that she wasn’t before and the Light again the eyes of the men who were the ones Who had the faces of Boys and the Lights and the Ends of the Toes and the heads and the Faces of boys they all said Who Are you again they said are you the one from Wheeling yes the edge of the Light Came Rolling in From Wheeling and the Men who were the ones Who came from Wheeling and the boys all said Heads will Roll and the Men all said You will be the ones Who make Life a certain kind of way and the Men Who make Life a certain kind of way And the room they made the Light a certain kind of Light and the room now you are the People and the Life of men and the Times of day and that was Color Some one said and they all used the faces and the room now the Days and the Colors and the Time Freed them and the Time now so long ago and the Faces of men and the eyes of people who were getting ahead and the Eyes of Lads they all came again he said Yes the Light now Nothing but texture and the color nothing but shade He said Yes the room now too the room now are you coming back Someone Asked Yes we are Coming back he said But we are just not sure who is the one who is coming back from where you came Before.

Won’t they all say that they are sick of the light again and they are against the Color they all said they were before what is the time of day now where are you saying the people are the ones who were coming back aren’t they all saying that Yes they Are all Saying that he Thought Yes of the day he thought that he spoke rather strongly Yes he Said I often Speak strongly of the day even though I am not certain about Who I am speaking with and the room is not certain about who is speaking with who or is anyone speaking with anyone else?
Wheeling Grass, Wheeling Burn Wheeling Dead Man on a wheeling Road Bill Cleary Tim Miller All of you now they said and the days now those times were tremendous and so was the Distance from them now he thought all of you breaking onto one Thing Just Sailing away with the wind and the color was Blue and time and daylight Broke open and the time where he was the one person You thought that he might be that had come to a close now too and the Time now where you Came to think you were one person was the time when things were over and the Room was Exhaustive and the time of day now the light and he ends of a Bill Cleary Tim Too and the Room Yes the men who was opening some things up and the room now too and the men Whose Lives Came before all of you.

Yes the Bolt Of Lightning and the Room was enough to ignite some things and the Sky Blew up Great big and the men were the ones who had time to work on things and the men were the ones Who were the Friends of People Yes they all said and the Light now you are the one Who came Inside of Bill Cleary even with that Tube of Vaseline and the Light now and the eyes of the men who were there and the Friends of Friends Just Tender Prey Someone Said Yes the Room said the People Prayed and got down on their knees and the Light now The Bolt of Lightning and the People Came out of their Screaming Shit that must have been some where in Wheeling the edges of Light now the men who were the ones who wore the Faces of Little boys and the ones who hated all people and the Ones who screamed out of The Friends of men and the ones who hated people all of the men screaming and the Days again too and the Dust again The Life of people all of you are Yelling out and the men now they all Yell Out from the edges of the bed and the men now screaming and yes the men were screaming the people were So seductive and the men who were the ones Yelling and yes the eyes of certain people were the things That Opened up and now the men who had the eyes of certain people open and didn’t They all say it only goes Like this?

I could only sort of go on in the end The Cap Sat in the lawn and the Door was Torn off I guess Flung open, Used to being wrapped with a cord and that dark place that they Call Wheeling and everyone thinking you are the one Who was Looking for pain and the room now too and the pain and the yellow Water too Yes the room where they Said the Room was dark and hard too and the men who will make you all suffer and the room now too and the men who were in the blue Too Yes the Steps Lead Into the Yard where andy reed hungout Waiting for you oh well we have to wonder why and the Room Has to wonder why as well and the men are taking you somewhere Else too and the men are the ones who are you Taking them some where else and the men Who said and the People All Came Screaming and the Room now too and the House of the Light too and the face of the men who all screamed and the men who all yelled they all suffered too and the men who all screamed up and the room now too and the men who were saying yes they All Seem Like Prisoners Don’t they yes everyone Does now everyone would rather Hide out and not say A Thing Then register the fact that Andy Reed raped me They are All Against knowing that and the Men are all against knowing that and he is against us too and the men were the ones Stacking Things on top of one another and the room now too and the men are the ones who are Going to register things and the Room now just things that Will Come Screaming Yes the men said Who are you Only if you Can Go on and the men now too and the Ones Who said You were Through talking yes weren’t you though yes the men said you all suffered through it all and the men said you were all screaming and the men said they are Against us all –All of us Knowing some things and the Men now say the room is the thing that You Will Look Clearly Into Yes they all said it will be that kind of place if you let it be.

The Room now and the people as well and the people who are Standing around waiting for the light to go out and the Heads of men waiting for them to go out and the room now and the head of Light Too Yes the Globe Spun The one Where everything was estimated and the Light Where Men were Colored Differently and the Room now and the People are all standing here with Everyone Screaming yes and the Room now the people are all The ones Standing and the Men who are standing here Waiting for Andy Reed and the Things he Did they Thought They Saw Him too and they thought they knew that HE was the person who You thought he was and the room was the thing coming on Stronger Day where you Came From Just all the voices telling you about all of this and then just the room telling you about all of this and the men who are Telling you about all of this The Only Room ever You Will hear from the Room and you will hear about the Room and the men will hear about the Room and the Men now and you are the one Who came to the Light too when the Globe Spun and the Room now Standing there With the People Who you knew and the Men Who you thought and the Room was here and the day stronger and the Room was standing here and the Only Room You will ever See and the people Too who are you standing there Against and the Face of the Light now too The light faced us up against the one kind of Color but not against something else.

They
Are the colors of Every Thing
The room where they are Imprisoned
With Cords and Wires with the heads of men cut off
With the faces of Fools The men who said Beware and the room where the men where Going to kill you and the men who were going to the be ones who imprisoned You
Yes
The men who were the ones who were Imprisoned
Yes
The Light again and the face of you fucking me and the head of men who were telling you what you life was
And the men who were There with the colors of the energy and the Room now too
And the men who were going to Come out and the room now you are the ones
Who were the Men now and the friends of men who were coming out of the light now too
And the room that’s a vocal track and the Fresh room
Where you were all the ones who were the ones
Who made the Life of the men
Who were Coming out of your Life and the Room now and the men saying that Life is original and the head of the World now too all of that He once said and the Men who are The ones saying that the Room locked them in well I guess it does.