Only I waited on it

Long
days
but fast though too .. a lot of breathing .. living .. dying and wanting to come back again
Losing myself
amazingly so
I Think
ARE You dating in there
are
You just in yr head

Fear and nothing more ... Really taking things a lot better.. lately... so many great images
of devastation and things enlightening too ... no more time to think about hope only time to move without ... no more fear

in Near back again

Dark first moving fast
feeling exhausted
everything you've
got
You've
had to give
only
hope
but nothing else
no one lonely

no one making mistakes
breathing barely yet holing on someone destroyed bye somebody else

they
all
said
and no one
moving bye with fear
who
the hell knows who you are anyways
we
laughed
but not at the people
we
Loved
even when they shoved us out
death
shoved us in

Love and Death

A long bout of confusing days ... i just havent had any time to deal with .. this blog, but i want too

DEATH POEM TO BILL HUGHES

hard not hear
the edges of bits of life pour in thru us
Are you inside yet
they all wanted to ask us

Are we inside yet ....
ARE You
near them

Sitting on a bed he said
I think
I can find out later
near
Water
I think
or holes burnt in beds
Life
just smiling simply
the
night darker
moving past the window
the fastest
thing
when we knew
moving
past
them was upon
us
how
do you let death slip
away

She Who is Destroyed

why
is
this pain Just like us for weeks
why
does it linger We can't really say... all the time weeping i felt i think I was weeping or something i wasn't sure though
I can't
remember
Much of anything

I can't remember much of anything at all
At all
I remember
nothing
No
One
but
then i saw her
Face
It wasnt easy
to see it again
and again
why all over
why are these
th e things That alway s destroy me
what do i have to do now
I said
to myself
what does she have to do as well
what
Kind of color destroyed
bye
me
are you Like Light
yes
I said
I am
Like Light
but
then the same as dark
I am
just nothing i think
I think i am just nothing
I mean i know that now
dont i
dont you think

As the same as All the people i Meet

I Think i must have been held under some kind of oppression for the last few weeks thats what Bill Hughes tells me ... I think we saw death together ... I think i saw something that was amazing too ... I think We both saw are Life Flash before us They have just risen up... didnt they say that to Amber Reed... didnt they tell her She's risen up but not against us ... not against us only the same as us aren't we the ones who will Hold you To me Yes We will i think ... I can say that Why Though Amber Reed ....
Why Me ?
I ask
again and again
I ask Dana that too
I Must have
surely
have asked that Question
We
walked
bye that Pond
coverd in mud
saw
the debris strewn in it too
We
Held hands too and thought
I think
We touched on something
that would have been impossible
other wise
I dont Know what the price
is
now
I Knew before
I Think
I am willing to pay it if i havent
Paid it
yet
I at least thought i'd paid it before
but
now
I Know that maybe i hadn't
I think
I Know about fear
that
make s me feel
Closer to Amber Reed
when i think of Fear
When i stand there
and
someone
else
told
it's all so
terrible but it's only one voice speaking
it's
only
one
voice
but is it really You?