NO NO GOOD JOB GOB LIN

THERES NOTHING
TO STOP
THIS GOBLYN
HE
BURNS
MY LUST
HE
LAYS
MY EGG

HE'S JUST LIKE SOMETHING FROM JENNY CRAIG
EVEN
WHEN HE TELLS ME I SHOULD JUMP SHIP
SHOULD
i BREAK A LEG
sexually
THEY
SAY
DO THEY SPEAK OF NO ONE
NOHOW
ON
LIKE
A goblyn
i"d
HAVE TO THINK ABOUT THAT THEYD say

WE
do
we
only hold on

When i'm suicidally DEPRESSED IN BILL HUGHES CAR

Sometimes
we
drive
out to the suburbs
in
his
spiffy
YOUBERGER
Sometimes
He buys a milkshake
from the caterbean
sometimes
he
buys ham sandwhichs
from Whole
Foods
Some times
he opens
a bag
and pulls his SEX FROM THE AIRE

HE ASKED WHO YOU'll date
do you
spin
around this Whole
this COMMODE
this
Last
tear
drop
my dear
goblyn
as we drove up the hill
nothing can
save us now
this last
inch
where
we
move in
there's
no one standing here
now
When
I'm
broke
and alone
Remember me for one
thing
Gobyln i will always Have your DATE

Fully Magnified

That
Boy named Goblyn
Drove
me down and out of my pain again today

WE
Rode
a dad line together
We
didnt stop
there
was no mercy
I laid his floor
with
a cup
of his Juice

I sat
against his wall
with
A glass of his water

He took notes
about The BAND
Weight
and Then we listened to him talking to his dad
on the phone
then
he said
get up and go on

WE SPIN around the date
we
are Consumed bye Goblyns

BILL H BILL H !!!

We were alive barely

To a Lost friend

There was a really bad man

he broke us pretty good

neither one of us

could go on

with the other

because neither one of us

knew what to do

Alone

so

we couldnt think of doing it together

we lost each other

these pieces of me then
are gone
tossed up grinded to bits
I dont know what to make of the ones of you
now
Knowing the Little i Know

I Only
Know
I
Won't Live
without myself
anymore
Like
I did
when i was broken
after Him BYE what he'd done

as I write this I feel Driven

It's
as if there's light coming in from all sides when you see William Hughes Face... he's fresh faced barely 22..... or he will be soon.. Why so fucking receptive you might ask to all things insane things, beautiful things... horrible things... thoughts feelings and words --HE Destroys the notions I held true about my life in the last two years leading up to meeting him .. i was a recoving alcoholic and a bitter one too .. i resented that i couldnt Go out any more or do much of anything and felt that I was burnt out... William Bill The Goblyn breathed new life back into me and too Pittsburgh Where i've lived for ten years He's doing a reading coming up in the next few weeks... his book Vagrancy is out now .. he has At least three others his Publshing this Year... he's one of those people who has your back in such entirety that it feels like he's all you've got sometimes At any rate Goblyn William You Define Me and make this City a better Place and this world a better World.

I Know that i fail

nothing may come of must of what i do I dont really do anything at all .. watch some strange images and hear odd sounds try to work things out in my life and get nowhere come back to square one but i like doing it ... other people are frustrated a lot of people are bitter ... but i feel .. that i want to do something with my life i mean that
I've tried to for years
I Mean
I've published a lot of peoples book
which
I guess means i opened
a door for them
but i lost a lot of myself in doing so
so it's a double edged sword
Obvious
it's
just true that to gain you have to lose
obviously
I have some friends who dont really feel that
way
and i dont get it
and they frustate me
This is a loop of Frustration

We Go on Loveing each other

i wondered tonight how any of else can really go on--i mean moving ahead and never knowing what really does lie next.... i felt like taking chances.. at one point in my life and i still do now ... they just have to come to me in a different sense --i live in this world with a lot of people I do meet a lot of people who i dont like ... but i really love the people in my life at this point --They each define a part of me ... Bill Hughes is great Angele Ellis is great Andrew Sydlik is great Miles is great too and of course dana killmeyer and kristin Mamaula .... Havent really seen my parents much lately.. but i still love them too ....

lets talk to about who we dont love the bad memories that come back in where some else tried to break you imposed their pain ont o you i have a lot of moements lkke that i mean ... it --where i feel Broken

They forced
all
in said no one make a sound
into a small round room
and there was a room to the said with a light in it and a man sitting there
we
were on a dirt floor
the came bye and beat us and tried to get us up
and i was scared too
I wondered
someone touched part of me
my penis in the shower
I Think
they punched it
it
was in their
hand
I Must have wept then
I Must have wept
Like
Bleeding though now
so different i Weep though too
for
dana
for
jessica
for Bill too

I am done weeping i think
unless
someone
wants to borrow my mind
and fuck it all up
I am in hell too
just imprisoned every day
and i rarely
find a moment like
I do now where i am at peace

Crest Fallen

Six and Six is the name of the second album by reclusive Houston musician Jandek, though it was the first to be released under that moniker (the previous, Ready for the House, was credited to "The Units" on its first pressing). It was released by Corwood Industries (#0740). There have been two CD reissues so far, each adding more silence between the tracks.

The album was released in 1981, three years after Jandek's debut Ready for the House, and is comprised mainly of slow songs, most of which dealt with topics like regret and hopelessness. The music is stark and slow, with a flattened-out dissonant blues sound. The cover image, reminiscent of the famous photo of Robert Johnson, is a photo of Jandek himself. It is one of the most well known images of him.

[edit] Track listing

1. "Feathered Drums" – 3:34
2. "Point Judith" – 4:16
3. "I Knew You Would Leave" – 10:14
4. "Can I See Your Clock" – 3:00
5. "Wild Strawberries" – 6:02
6. "Forgive Me" – 4:05
7. "Hilltop Serenade" – 5:31
8. "You're the Best One" – 3:06
9. "Delinquent Words" – 3:58

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Looking into Darkest night

Waiting
for nothing
Hell
too
waiting on something else


SAW
CHE PART ONE Tonight
it
was really
amazing actually i can't believe the sense
of
history it conveyed
at
the same time
being so entertaining too

saw
bill
hughes
yesterday
seeing him again tomorrow

Wrote a poem for him too

NO ONE
DATES

death Called me in wheeling

POEM to Matt Wellins And JAG

Death
Called me
in Wheeling
the
other
day
I didn't stop to answer

Death
called me
in wheeling the other
day
and i said is matt wellins there?
it
said
no
I said
Oh
wait
what about Bill Hughes
Matt Wellens
Said
he's
out somewhere in the back just hanging around
I am here
too
over there where he is
trying find JAG

Oh
Wheeling
Burn your
Town
down

OH Wheeling
Burn yr
town down
oh wheeling streets your
made of Gloom

Yr So
Doomy
Yr
so impossible

With that Wheeling Hassel and all

Matt Wellins

He is as evasive as any stalker/ poet and as goalbic.. as any former pittsburgher.. he lives in baltimore now.. or Bal Tim Ore.. as they say .... My favorite films bye him are the Ferris wheel art ones... usually after he shows them to me i ask him who he's dating, i always tell him he should do a book but he always gives me a fragment and tells me i should edit it to be real book.. i never get around to doing this thus til he does we won't have a book

High Speed

I Guess i had a bad day overall... pretty bleeding terrible.... trying to just make things right
but why can't i just make things right
I want too
I mean it
if someone would
Let
me
Someone
must
Know i am out there and that i want to be there friend... someone must know how lonely i am Baby Hughy seems to know that .. i am happy that he does know that ... what do though when he's away ... Baby KEcky Seems to know what too REferring to William Keckler and William Hughes those two are good friends and people... now I am down in oakland we are having a party on the weekend i am looking forward to it i am getting paid something soon enough to make bills and rent i am happy about t hat too

A new peace about Life and thoughts too IS THAT ALL YOU CAN CALL IT

Hey the first time i heard of crowly was back a long time ago .... it must have been during a kenneth anger film.... i think .... now i know a lot more about crowly from parsons and what not it still scares me was he really so bad or was he just so good ... hopefully... we'll find out when we meet up i hope to meet him but i have to say more later

tonight Woke up With Eyes

What are these pieces of out lives that we construct out of memory one being a picture of andrea who i wonder if i really do know anymore... one being a picture... of A novel that i Took out of Print a Long time ago and i dont know if i ever will bring it back into print.... I Am not sure... one is that image from that bresson film.....
that film defines my life

To Andrea Musher

Dark Just comes right up
and steals you away from
me
I think it always
did
remember the one time
we drove back from the south hills you
bought
the clash
another green world
and i bought captain beefheart
I Had
just ran into you in the lobby of the harris
and i was seeing twin falls idaho
and i told you to come inside but you said you had to
be in
bed
i watched Cassavetes husbands that night
that was the only time i ever saw
it
but that was the beginning of our friendship
I guess
it came slowly
but
i guess
Not much of it is coming back now

These images
are amazing
all
i've
got to do now is live and die as fast as i can

some feelings on Friendships

There are just things that We are left with in life after someone is gone it's like more or mediation on life on Amber Reed.... since she was a big lost for me ... but what the fuck, Losing a friend Like her then making a friend like Bill Hughs... i mean bills one of the best guys i know he is always supportive and availalbe ... probably the Best person in pgh i think .... I can't go on sometimes without his support it's Crazy how much he does for people and never thinks of himself.. right now he's on the way back to pgh.... He was out on spring break seeing important friends in his life ...... I Posted some images along with these Post that have stuck with me and Him

these increible nights

Rode my bike down to meet my partner... hanging out now .. thought i'd do a post .. i was thinking about Manoel De Olivieria(SP) on the way down the masterful filmmaker who just turned 100 years old...... and whos Films have always touched me .... I am glad that he's still out making films i especially injoyed a talking picture.... also was thinking of the first book i ever wrote Rockets Construe Vala.. it would be nice to dust that thing off for a reprint

This is a story of loss and regret

Amber
Reed
are you listening , then why ... i have to say .. all i get is a message saying you can't make it and then i get an email a few hours later Where you tell me thats how things are going to be for now ... We never said are Last words
I Know i have some strong ones for you

ARE you dating
are you in bed
are you seeing

I have a tendency to scream and Yell Constantly
I have History of watching The abstract religiously

are you out there
do you ever want to get even
Well, for everything

sometimes i think about you a lot

Scooter

Laying Low A world
and a woman
thinking about Amber Reed Today... again.. wondering what she would make of all of this --i mean how come she never leaves comments is it because she never Reads blogs ... or doesn't Know what Goal Beyond.. means.. it's likely it could be one or the other maybe Both Dana Says.... At any rate we watched this great dvd Called the pacific Mood tapes last night it was essentially shots of the ocean with water lasping against the rocks... it was very intense i thought it calmed me down a lot too --Before that We saw that Film Two Lovers By James Gray(SP) we walked from Point Breeze To squirrel Hill and then The whole block was really hopping we stopped in ten thousand villages and john allen Called us up to make plans with us for Next week...
The movie was great
it really
held you Good performances all around

then i had a dream that my PO Box was like a card catalog and the po pulled the rug out from underneath me as far as my box went it was strange .... Damn Waiting on dana now Going to go out and ride my bike later

The World Raps me to murder it

I heard the world said OH BOY YOU JUST GOT IT COMING DON'T YOU BOY THE WORLD SAID WAIT YOU JUST GOT IT COMING THE ROOM SAID ... WAIT YOU JUST GOT IT COMING BYE THE TIME THEY SAID THAT IT WAS OVER

A bit shallow now amber reed
a bit shallow weren't Ye
time to take the liking to the bit of the liking
time to take it to the source
what made her
sore
how can they tell us just one more street up
but they
dont blame us at all
or do you

We all came From me They said DAD

Grossly
Lit
sometimes
near the library
in wheeling
well
inside of it
that one
woman with the cut up
face
then
hers
just peeling yrs
just reeling
yr
Life
just so good

God Damnit you ;ve
got to get yourself out there

no more

they said then we all SHOUT!
THEY
WON'T sHOW ME ANY HANDS NOW EVEN WHERE I AM WANTED
THEY
JUST THERES NO ANSWER
WE TRIED TO CALL YOUR MO M THERES NO
ANSWERS
THEY LEFT ME LAYING ON A SLAB
AND THE SAD
LIKE AT THE MAN THEY MADE
FROM LAYING TO THAT BOY

IT WAS THE FIRS TIME
WE LEARNED
ABOUT FEAR
US AND OUR DIM SOME
JUST
THEM
BOYS
WE

The Whole i Bleed from

Wow
that junk is outstanding
and i heard
Ellen's not dead
just heard her cunt grows up
really
red and Big For you TO STICK YOUR BIG DINGY IN

The one more road
the one i like near madsion
the room
said
we're not wet and worried
the
other
room
I Like
these are just fractions of those stations
of those places of life
and be pleased bye them
be pleased bye them after all

What You Wouldnt believe if i told you i was made of it

Cameron
Was like Rock
you
Know
But she was like ice
I am like that Ice
that Ice
where i am a Fool
the fool
who crawlled out of her
and the one who came out of her
Like that gental night
I am the one
who Laughs intoxicating
and how do i laugh at
dana
I Think i can't
I Love her too much
but
I do
it's good to laugh when i love
her all of these men
drive ships
their Ships
drive me insane
their Ships
drive me crazy
their ships
drive me half
up the wall
I was talkign a look around here
I walled up my Life too
much too EXTREAME

DO YOU WANT TO SET THEM FREE THE MEN
DROVE
AROUND IN CIRCLES
THEY ALWAYS CIRCLE
ME AND I THINK OF THOSE GRAVE STONES
THAT
i CANT CIRCLE WITH ANYMORE
OH
YOUR JUST FREEDOM
EVERY TIME I SEE YOUR FACE
YOU ARE THE FREEDOME FOR ME TO NOT
GO ON
OR NOT TALK OF THAT WHERE I WISH TO TALK